Rai Universe
CHAPTER 71. Cannot Completely Classify.
It didn't feel like two hours had passed since Rai and Esta left the house. They keep going around in no direction. Surrounding the city of Jakarta in the midst of cloudy weather that seems supportive.
“Ta?”
“hem?”
“Yuk break, pegel nih hand.”
“Oke.”
Rai stopped his bike at a minimarket. He went in and bought fresh drinks for both of them.
Esta sits lesehan on the minimarket terrace. Rai also sat next to Esta. Actually, his waist also felt sore. But he still wanted to linger along with Rai until he was satisfied.
“Gakangunwa ya our relationship got here too.” Lirih Esta opened the conversation.
“He-em. It feels so lucky I can have you.”
“Where to go?”
“Ya go again. Said you wanted to go around.”
“not that. I mean our relationship, after this how do we continue?”
Rai cringing. He looked at Esta questioningly. “What's the way?”
“We got married because there was a grandpa. And now Dedek is gone. And you can also continue your future plans again.”
“What are you talking about Ta? My future plans have completely changed. You are my future plan now.” said Rai who was sitting facing Esta.
Esta smiles. He was happy to hear it. He threw a distant look ahead. It feels amazing to have such a big love. This was the first time Esta really felt so happy.
“Still, Rai.”
“What do you do?”
“You are present in my life. You have made my life happy. Since I married you, I have a purpose in life. I'm greedy and want to be with you forever.” Even though that goal has now disappeared from his life.
“I too. I am so happy to love you at will. So, go abroad, huh? Grandma also agreed to.”
“When did it go?”
“Besok.”
“You're seneng huh? Was that your dream from before? Work on flight?”
“He-em. I used to want to be a pilot. General goals for a 5 year old child. But now, I want to work behind the scenes.”
“Keren.”
“Hehehe. You, what are your ideals?”
The ideals? I don't know if Esta has any goals. He never thought more than graduating from High School.
“Uang.”
“Hem?? Money?”
“He-em. I want to work a truck with money so my life is good. Let's be able to buy food without thinking about how much it costs.” As simple as Esta's wish.
“What the hell. That's not an ideal. Money is the purpose. Everyone wants to be this, so be that. That's all so that I can get a job and get a high salary. At the end of money.”
“Hehehe. Also you.”
“Still yes, Ta.”
“Color is back to the old Esta. I'm relieved to see it.”
“Udah yuk. We continue again.” Take Esta who immediately got up and threw her bottle into the trash.
Rai immediately downed his drink and went to throw the bottle into the trash. After that he put the helmet on to Esta and they continued on their way.
Esta kept hugging Rai's body tightly. He kept his eyes closed while sticking his face to Rai's back. While Rai who was feeling happy, continued to stroke Esta's hand that was coiled around her stomach. Ah, he wants to be like that forever.
Esta asked to stop as they passed through a beautiful reservoir. Raipun complied and stopped his motorbike near the reservoir.
Esta immediately ran and stopped at the edge of the turbid watering reservoir. But he felt cold to see it.
“You p*p ice not?” Tawar Rai's.
“Bby.”
And Rai went to buy it at a merchant not far from them. Not long after, Rai had returned with two cups in his hand.
“Aaah. Immediately.” Seloroh Esta after the first sip.
Esta leaned her head on the shoulder of Rai who was sitting beside her. Both of them looked at the reservoir which was slightly rippling because of the wind. There are not only them.
Rai had absolutely no idea what Esta was thinking and preparing for. Something that would surprise him. Esta manages to hide her true feelings and pretends to smile while being with Rai.
Esta's heart is still sad. Though his feelings are still broken. She has not been able to fully explain the departure of her baby. On the other hand, he also blames himself. He felt ill to take care of the baby in his stomach.
It shouldn't have to be eaten up by people out there. He should not have cared about their words and scorn. None of them could understand the pain. No one understands how fragile he is.
“Rai, I won't follow you away.” Lirih Esta in the end. He only dared to say that after gathering his courage.
“Hem? Meaning?”
“Lecture. Sorry I can't come to you for college.”
Rai was surprised by Esta's statement. He thought Esta would not refuse his offer. Rai was again confused.
“Why?”
“Truly, I never thought of going to college. My plan, after I finish High School, is to find a job. Not grandiose, so the waiter at the cafes is also quite good. Besides, I don't speak English. Hehehehehe.”
“You're kidding me Ta? When it comes to language, you will get used to it if you are already there.”
Esta fell silent. He did not dare to tell the real reason why he had rejected the offer. Honestly Esta felt heavy and unwell if she constantly received kindness from the Rai family. Moreover, studying abroad, which is certainly the cost needed will be very large. If he accepts the offer, he feels like a person who does not know himself.
“You will know for yourself that my brain capacity is inadequate. It's also free when I go to college. I'll just stay here. Wait for you.”
“Do not ngaco you. If you don't come, I won't go either. I'm looking for a lecture here. Obviously, I won't leave my wife anywhere.”
Wives.
Why is it that when Rai mentions his wife, Esta's heart hurts so much? The remark sounded as if her status as Rai's wife, making Rai's move hampered. It was as if he was making Rai's future a blur.
“So because you have a wife, you can't reach your goals, so?”
“You know I don't mean that, Ta. I can't leave you here alone. Who will keep you here while I'm far away? I wouldn't be able to miss you anyway. Can I go crazy later.”
“But there must be a lot of beautiful girls. You can wash your eyes every day. Hahahahaha.” Esta laughed meaninglessly.
“You'll digress more. What do you want to say?”
Esta was silent again. He looked over and looked at Rai's face deeply. He smiles. And this time, that smile clearly showed her sadness. Both of his eyes were even watering. He was holding back the crying.
“I'm asking you to divorce me.”