Way Back To You
I'm Not Going Home

“You sure you did this?”

Liam looks hesitant as Lona opens the door to Hanna's house using the key she does have. Liam is worried, Hanna will get even more angry at him or it is not impossible that he will throw her out. He did not want to create any more new problems while the old problems still piled up without the slightest meeting point.

“You how else?”

This was the only way that the two of them could sit quietly, speak with four eyes and communicate each other's heart. Hanna will definitely scold him, but reflecting on her experience during being friends with Hanna, Hanna may not want to talk to him but at least for two days.

“Please don't waste my efforts on this. You guys need to talk, persuade Hanna to solve this problem. And remember, never hurt him.”

Without Lona warning him, Liam would never repeat it again. He didn't want to look bad and rough in Hanna's eyes.

“Yes already, I go home first. Remember, talk with a cold head. Oh yes, this is Hanna's handover, please give it to her.”

Liam only nodded as Lona closed the door. Actually Liam was quite shocked by Lona's idea, because he thought Lona hated him too. He still remembers how Lona met him, spoke out loud in front of him - and also threatened him not to meet Hanna. But regardless of what changed the woman's stance, she turned to help Liam now.

“Lona, why don't you pick up my phone? I asked to buy...”.

Hanna was staring, realizing that the one standing in the doorway was Liam, not Lona. Wait, how did he get inside my house? Hanna still looks confused, when then the phone she is holding vibrates.

Han, sorry baby. But you two need to talk. Remember, do not elevate your ego and speak slowly. All problems have a way out, and so do your problems. Again, I’m sorry and I love you.

Hanna should have expected it. Who else would have put Liam in his house if not Lona? Lona is the only one who has the keys to her house and Liam is unlikely to break into her house.

Lona, I'll make the calculations with you later, just wait.

“Lona.put this to me. He said..”

Hanna robs Liam of the plastic bag, without telling him Hanna is headed for the kitchen. Liam follows Hanna like a dog who follows his master, wherever Hanna goes Liam follows him and Hanna can no longer hold him back.

“What do you want?” Hanna nodded with an annoyed face.

“I want to talk Han.”

“I don't want to talk.” Hanna murmur.

“I know, but that's not what I want now.” Liam smiled as he tried to spread the distinctive charm he had.

“Do not think if you smile I will melt.”

“I knew you'd be devastated.” Liam's smile turned into an ignorant grin.

Hanna clucked in annoyance. Liam's smile made him melt, it was reality. He twisted his body and secretly found himself smiling like a fool. He who told himself if he would not meet Liam again, would not give him a chance. But look at him now, even easily subdued by the charm of Liam.

Hanna gasped in shock, as Liam suddenly hugged her so tightly that it felt like Hanna was having trouble breathing.

“I'm sorry Han, for what I did or did by Noah. Lona told me everything. I'm really sorry.”

Silent. Hanna was still in Liam's arms, yet she had not dared to return the man's embrace. She was afraid, she would get hurt again after this.

“What's true if you will pay a very large penalty if you..”.

“You don't have to think about it, it's my business.”

Liam took off his embrace, putting both of his palms on Hanna's shady face. “I have chosen to be responsible, then I will also take all those risks.”

“But Noah said, being a model is your dream.”

Is correct. But you and the baby are now my goal. If I can't balance my dreams and my life goals, then I have to sacrifice one of them. I know in life I can't be selfish. I can't get two things at once, so I have to sacrifice one thing for another even if it means something to me.

“Maybe I can retire early.” Liam grinned.

Hanna's facial expression suddenly changed when Liam mentioned early retirement. Suddenly, Hanna felt that she had become a hindrance to Liam's career. Why does it have to be like this? Why can't they do it like other couples who can be together without having to think about any risks?

“Han, don't be too hard on yourself.” Liam rubbed his face.

“.. This decision I take after careful thought. I have a reason why I rejected you and this baby – sad reasons that you do not need to know right now, but now I really want to prove myself to you.”

The atmosphere of the house was quiet again. But this time, Hanna's eyelids began to glaze over at the real solemnity on Liam's face.

“I'm not as bad as you see, trust me.”

I don't think you're bad, never. Maybe all this time we went through a lot of sad things because we never tried to sit together and talk, like now. I'm sorry, too, because I thought I was selfish with you back then. Ii'm sorry.

“Han..I'm really sorry to you. Please.”

The regretful expression on Liam's face was very clear, and Hanna was happy because of it. But suddenly the nausea from his stomach appeared in the middle of his serious conversation with Liam. Oh, my God, why now? Hanna sighed softly. Hanna began to want to vomit, yet she still held him back as much as possible.

“Can you go home first? We'll talk about this tomorrow only.”

Although Liam is the baby's father, Hanna is embarrassed if she has to vomit in front of Liam.

“Hah? Home?” Liam is suddenly confused because he has no plans to go home tonight. “Can't we talk first Han? Just a moment.”

“Tap only or..when-when.” Hanna was still trying to hold back her nausea.

“Why tomorrow? You don't know how I tried to persuade Lona to let her into your house? We have to finish it now.”

Hanna's stomach began to churn like waves in the open ocean, rolling up to rise above her throat. Hanna rubbed her belly, coaxed her baby to ‘don't act’ first.

“Please Liam. We can talk about this sometime. I.. I'm not feeling well.”

“You sick? On which side? The baby or you?”

Jesus, Hanna hiss. Just this time he felt the attention of Liam a little disturbing, whereas before he always craved it.

“I can massage your head. How about you lie down first?”

Hanna shook her head, putting away Liam's hand that was about to lead her towards the sofa.

“I..”

Hanna couldn't hold it much longer. The contents of her stomach seemed to have been asking to come out since then and Hanna immediately ran towards the bathroom. As soon as she finished vomiting, Hanna pressed the flush button, then for a few minutes still sat there hugging the toilet weakly without exertion. “Please, go first. I'll talk to you tomorrow.”

He has no energy anymore. But instead of leaving, Liam instead stayed at the bathroom door – noticed him. While still hugging the toilet, Hanna tried to yell at Liam. “Do you not know the language? You go home first please..”.

Hanna was really embarrassed Liam was there, watching her and hearing her voice come out. Hanna's head swirled around, her stomach churning violently as if her intestines were also coming out and her entire body was flooded with sweat. She must have looked awful –and embarrassing.

“Han..you are well sa...”

“Go...” shouted Hanna, then she regained her vomit.

After all the food she had just eaten came out –when she only ate one boiled duck egg, Hanna back leaned her body with sweat that was still pouring and messy hair.

“Han..” hiss Liam, worry.

“Shut up.” Cut Hanna fast.

He still did not have the strength to answer any of Liam's questions. Hanna gasped for breath, putting her face over her arm that was hugging the toilet. His shoulders were up and down, his breathing rhythm was fast. Hanna was tired and dizzy, her throat was also sore as her stomach kept forcing her to vomit until Hanna barely regurgitated anything.

Liam was really very worried, also saddened by Hanna's current condition. After she found out if Hanna was likely to be pregnant with her child, she had already read about the internet baby's development in the womb and its impact on Mother. And Liam knew exactly, Hanna was going through a tough time with severe vomiting nausea like this.

“Liam..” hiss Hanna.

“Hmm? Wh why? I'm here.” Liam stroked Hanna's back gently.

“Go home first, we can talk about this tomorrow or anytime. I won't run anymore, so, please leave me alone first.”

I should have said that, Liam muttered. I am the one who ran away, denying the results of my actions with you.

“I won't go.” Liam said firmly.

Hearing that, Hanna opened her eyelids. He twisted his body and found that Liam was crouching behind him, looking at him with a worried, sad and haru look that fused into one.

“I'm sorry, Han.” I really let you be tormented during this difficult period.

Hanna did not reply because she almost lost her power. He took off his embrace from the toilet, and grabbed the wall of the sink in order to pull himself up to stand up.

“Sini, let me help.”

Hanna had no other choice even though she currently wanted to hide her face that looked so messy. He even barely screamed as he looked at himself in the reflection of the mirror located on the wall as he was about to gargle and clean his mouth. Her hair, her face, everything is indeed very messy –and embarrassing. When Hanna brushed her teeth, suddenly her nausea immediately ambushed back through the foam caused by the toothpaste she used. Looks like I'll have to replace it with a non-foaming one, Hanna sizzled again. Hanna immediately gargled before she regained her vomit, after which she washed her face.

Meanwhile Liam was still standing behind him to hold his back and also curled his hair. After she finished cleaning herself, Liam led Hanna to the room. He laid Hanna who looked resigned because she had run out of energy.

“In the meantime, I'll get you some drinking water.”

Liam left Hanna and a second later he returned with a glass of warm water. Hanna took a sip, but she immediately pushed Liam and ran back towards the bathroom. Hanna spewed out the liquid instantly, and after she finished she re-hugged the toilet limply. Not heart, Liam immediately carried Hanna back to the room.

Gently, Liam wiped the sweat that flooded Hanna's face. If knowing that being pregnant would make Hanna suffer, maybe she would think twice about doing that first. But at that time Liam just wanted to have fun without thinking about the consequences of what he did. Now Hanna looks very weak and pitiful.

Liam immediately shifted, as Hanna regained her nausea and ran towards the bathroom. Liam's face began to panic as he thought the vomiting Hanna was experiencing was a bit abnormal. Should he and I go see a doctor? What if the baby isn't okay inside? Maybe, I can ask Hanna this after she feels better.

“Han, do you need anything? You okay?”

Liam stroked Hanna's cotton-white face, so pale from exhaustion and now lying weakly on the bed. Hanna only gave a small nod, then turned her body back to Liam. Liam again stroked Hanna's face, then her head, after which she pulled the blanket to cover Hanna's body. Liam was still sitting beside Hanna until he heard a soft snoring sound. He's already asleep.