Way Back To You
A Little Letter From Mother

Son, this is your mother.

It was winter, the air was very piercing and it was possible that it would soon rain outside. The wind is blowing very fast, hopefully no more storms.

Sorry if when you read this letter, you will know the bitter truth about your life. I'm not selfish. I think you deserve to know what happened to you or to me.

Liam fixed his sitting position. He cleared his throat, his throat starting to get stuck when he had just read a few lines of letters from his mother, Cathy.

You're seventeen now, aren't you? Congratulations, son, one more step you will grow up. So whatever happens, face it with the airy chest and think with a cool head. I will always support you.

I suffered a lot. Honestly, the first time I found out if there was you in my stomach, my world was destroyed. My heart broke and I didn't understand what to do. You are present from the seed of four savage men who harassed me. But we're not going to talk about them.

Although I hate you so much in my stomach, but when I heard the sound of your crying for the first time, all that hatred faded replaced by an extraordinary love. I love you, for whatever sake, I love you and accept you.

Liam's tears weren't contained anymore. The clear puddle on his eye patch fell through all of his defenses. Her hands trembled holding Cathy's letter, while herself wept as she pleased.

But I'm tired and I don't want to fight anymore. Perhaps, my job is only to conceive and give birth to you, not to care for and raise you. I couldn't bear it, my heart was too sick.

Son, you will be a wise man, who values women and will not harm them. There will be many invisible bloody scars from themselves when you hurt them. And the wound will usually survive, it is not easy to heal it. Even if it heals, believe me, the scars are still visible.

Instantly the shadow of Liam's youth danced on his head. Before meeting Hanna, women were her toys. He would do anything to fuck them alternately. Every night he would just go in and out of the hotel to satisfy his lust. And so naive was she because she used to think it was all part of the impingement on the woman with the title Mother who threw it away. But now Cathy's letter spins all the memories of how evil she used to be to women and Liam can't help himself because of it.

He lowered his head, one hand beating his chest as a form of regret for all the things he did first.

And if it comes when you meet the woman you love, then take care of her for the rest of your life. Happiness doesn't have to be expensive. Spending time with those you love is more than enough. I also experienced it from your Grandpa and Grandma.

“I've met her Mom..” Liam cried so much. He leaned back his body, closing the eyes that were still melting the clear circles. “I've met my woman and I love her very much.” isak Liam.

“I love him so much, and it is because of my love that I can turn into the Liam that I am now. If it wasn't for him, maybe I would still be immersed in the same mistake forever.”

Again I say, I love you with my life. But we can't be together because I can't live my life and I think I might be your burden forever. You'll be ashamed to call me Mom, and I don't want to. Just giving birth to you made me feel guilty about you because I was afraid you might not like your life. And if your life doesn't go according to your plans and desires, you can blame me. Understand me as you please, I will gladly accept it.

“Why should I curse Mom? Instead of cursing, I just want to apologize for making so many mistakes to you, Mom.”

Be someone you can count on, whether it's by yourself or the people around you. Your life must go on even if there is no me by your side. Far up there, I'll be watching you. Don't be an asshole. You have to remember that there is my blood flowing in your body, so you have to know that if I want you to be a good and responsible person. I'm sure you won't let me down.

Live your life happily, son.

Ilove you.

Your mother, Catherine Wilson.

Liam was still staring at the ceiling of his vehicle while his tears were still flowing, one two drops still continuing down his face until it fell to his neck. This fact made him happy and sad.

She was happy, but her mother was not an irresponsible woman. He was just tired and wanted to rest, that's why he handed Liam over to the orphanage. That reason is very acceptable to Liam, because just like his mother, there are times when he also experienced a period where he was tired, not physically but more mentally. If this decision could make her mother happy, she would be happy.

But Liam is also sad. Reimagining the moments in which she spent nearly half her life venting out resentment and anger that turned out to be baseless on women. It turns out that all this is just a misunderstanding and he has made women as his own lust. Not just dozens, maybe if it is said there are already hundreds of women he sleeps.

Imagining how depraved he made Liam's body goosebumps. Her tears fell down hard because she regretted what she had done. Then suddenly he thought back to his meeting with Hanna which was also because he needed an impingement that night.

Liam shakes. No. gabe. Hanna is an exception. With him there are no regrets and Liam is grateful. Maybe if she hadn't met Hanna, and Hanna wasn't carrying her baby, then she could have made sure that she was still struggling to change partners to this day, drowning in countless sins. And just imagining it makes Liam want to vomit.

Until three in the morning, the new Liam vehicle can move at a very small speed. The officers were shoulder to shoulder cleaning the streets from the land of the former cliff avalanche. There were two heavy equipment used to get rid of the material that was carried away by the landslide and because of the power outage, officers used traffic lightsticks to regulate vehicle traffic.

Right now what Liam has in mind is no longer about the truth of his mother and who Leanor really is. He had already put the matter aside and if to be honest, there was a certain relief in Liam after reading Cathy's letter. The only thing that made him want to quickly return was Hanna. The woman must have been worried because she couldn't tell him anything.

She wanted to hug Hanna as soon as possible. All her burden would be broken once she found comfort in Hanna and even hearing her voice was able to calm herself down. He only needs Hanna in this life, then everything will be fine.