Is it my destiny or is it my destiny?
Increasingly turbid

" I'm going fishing." Missile.

" Why go on anyway, there's no job."

" Nothing."

" yes if no one tries to look for another rather than fishing constantly."

" you've been getting more and more ugly for a long time. You don't have to take care of my business, it's up to me to work. It's none of your business, rather than me playing girls out of boredom, I'd better go fishing get rid of saturation."

That's what always happens when Nina asks why Gilang always fishing.

Finally Nina only saw the departure of Gilang, about feelings that could not be opened with words.

" Why is this happening to me, what's my fault?. Why do I have a husband who only seeks his own pleasure." Sneak nina.

" Mother, njai?" Speak of the scientist who disperse the daydreams of Nina.

" Yes, dear, njai."

Not wanting to continue to dissolve in sadness, Nina finally chose to prepare to take Ilmi to teach.

At night, the,

Gilang approaches nina, Gilang massages Nina's legs.

" my legs don't hurt my back that hurts." Nina's speech.

" Yes, I've been massageing." Missile.

Nina knew the meaning of the delicate treatment of cross, she would definitely want to ask for her rights.

With a sense of laziness, nina finally approached towards Gilang.

After the cross finish massaging Nina. Gilang then stripped Nina of her clothes, and began to ask for her rights.

Nina tried to serve her husband well, even though her heart was reluctant.

Nina felt that there was no more vibe of love when they did.

Nina felt, Gilang is good when there are buttons only.

And that's right, Gilang chose to sleep on the other side, after getting his due.

It made nina hurt.

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Drrtt drrrtt drrrttt

Nina's phone rang, a call from her mother's youngest sister.

" Nina what else?"

" Just relax, why?"

" no, I just want to return the money I borrowed to you, send a bank account number?"

" All right."

" How are you and your husband?"

" Yes, it's still the same as usual."

" Yes, because I used to have a home and my parents were ready to defend. If I, where would I go?, wong mom just went home to her in-laws."

" Yes too. Yes, you are patient. May you change and love you."

" Amin's. Thank you for your prayer."

" Same, yes, I hung up the phone yes, do not forget to immediately send your bank account number."

" Good."

Tut

After the call was turned off, Nina immediately sent her bank account number, to Auntie.

Nina put down her cell phone, then lay down next to the scientist, and hugged him.

" Should I do what Mom did?"

From that day on, Nina began to present her clothes and the ilmi that was never worn, and which is still worth her wear of course, through the group in sosmed.

When returning to Java as well, nina gave her clothes and also the science that ad in her in-laws' house. So nina and ilmi's clothes are only a few left.

" I want to go home." Said Nina, as they were in the cross house.

" That you, want to keep going home."

" What if I was in my house? I'm not prostituting myself anyway."

" Keep your talk." Ketus.

" It's true!, every time I go home, you're always suspicious, as if I would, I'm there to sell my body."

" Listen, you're married. If a woman is married and follows a husband, she cannot go back to her house again, haram her law."

" But what if I miss my family?"

" Yes I must accompany you, you cannot go there alone."

" I don't like it when you're with you, you never want to be there longer."

" Of course, why do I linger so long at your house. It's no use. Better be here, accompany my mother." Tartly

Nina chose to enter the room and lock the door, because there was no point in arguing with Gilang. He always wants to win.

" Fuckin' wife. Want to win by yourself." Umpat gilang with a soft voice. It was still clearly heard in Nina's ears.

Nina opens the closet, and makes sure there are no more clothes belonging to her and her scientist. Nina then looks for her wedding photos. And cut her wedding photos into small pieces.

Always, the in-laws are made into weapons by the cross.

Always said that his mother was alone at home. Then what's the difference when Gilang was not married, was not his mother was alone, ah no. His mother still lives with her youngest child.

" Why do I always give in to please your heart and your mother. Until when I should give up. I also want to be happy, I also want to feel the warmth together with my sister. If she's looking for a woman who would accompany her mother, why doesn't she make me a maid?, why does she make me a wife."

Nina cried after she finished cutting all her wedding photos into small pieces.

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