Is it my destiny or is it my destiny?
Break the spirit

" Heh, your son you're seen, watched. Teaching cake lessons. You are not taught ILmi instead cool HP.an. What does it mean if you don't make money. Throw away the kouta." Ketus Gilang's.

Nina chose silence because she was tired of fighting.

" Ilmi, from tomorrow you come to work. You studied with Dad there. Here you are not educated, instead let be a bad boy, a wild child, added bod*h. I have a busy mom playing HP. Not teaching kids to learn." Ketus Gilang again.

" Heh, I am not unwilling to teach Ilmi, I will teach her as soon as I put Akifa to sleep. Do you know if Akifa hasn't slept yet, she'll disturb Ilmi. And make Ilmi so not focused on learning. Instead you are home, let me know how troublesome I am to face Akifa who is increasingly active."

" Yes, that's your responsibility. Cook you can't educate while keeping Akifa. You are also Ilmi, already know have a gobl*ok mother do not be like her. You have to take your own initiative to learn. Don't follow in your mother's footsteps bod*h's money "

Nina closed her eyes, trying not to respond to Gilang's hurtful words.

" Koar to come here and there if he becomes a writer. The writer is proud. Koar that if it can make real money. You, still a proud abal abal writer."

" I'm not showing off that I'm a writer. I only answered when they asked me why I was rarely outside the house."

" Yes the same, you're showing off."

Nina chose to take Akifa to sit outside the house, because if Nina remained there, Gilang would have even more painful words for Nina.

Nina stays out of the house until Gilang returns to work. After her Nina then went back in and tried to seduce Ilmi to study.

" Let's mom tomorrow, I'm tired."

Indeed, Ilmi who is very hard to be invited to learn makes Nina more frustrated. It was like Nina yelled venting out the frustration in her heart.

At night, Gilang was making a video call with his mother.

" Ilmi, it's mommy, let's talk to Mom."

" Dad, I'm drawing this lo." Ilmi.

" It was there to talk briefly with mother after that Ilmi can continue to study." Persuade Nina.

" Mother in a moment."

" YES, WATCH OUT YOU ASK FOR MONEY WITH DAD I WON'T GIVE YOU A PENNY." Said Silang in a high and upset tone

" Well, I'll talk." Said Ilmi pasrah

" No, there you go from before me." Ketus Crossbows

Then Nina tries to calm down Ilmi who looks ready to cry. Nina also heard Gilang and her mother talking about Gilang's cousin who had just returned from Bali and returned again on a sweet Friday night.

" Lo, last Friday was a sweet Friday?" Ask Gilang.

" Yes." Yeah."

" I don't know, because I don't have a Javanese calendar."

" Yes le, Friday was sweet Friday because it was required to pray sending al-fatihah to the dead. Have you sent your father a prayer?" Ask Mom.

" No, in this house everyone is a fool, nobody wants to teach. Don't teach prayers no one wants."

Really, Nina's heart was so sad to hear Gilang say that.

Of course, the salat should be roaring and saying if it is salat. You alone if I remind you of prayer always angry and much reasoned. Inner Nina.

" Stupid, stupid. Don't know if Friday night won't teach." Said Gilang while putting his phone on top of the closet after making a video call with mom.

Nina chose silence and did not want to respond to what Gilang had just said. Because it is certain that the debate will again occur if Nina responds to Gilang's words.

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A few days passed, the atmosphere between Nina and Gilang seemed to improve. While Nina and Gilang were sitting down, Nina ventured to say her wish to Gilang. However, it was not finished that Nina spoke Gilang had already opened the conversation first.

" So, you buy shorts, your gown is sometimes transparent."

" Yes, what else is the name cheap game."

" Why not buy an expensive one so as not to be surprised?"

" La, you didn't give me any money."

" Lo, don't I always give you money."

" Yes eat that robe." Silang.

Nina grunted annoyedly.

" Mangkanya work so you can get money so you can buy a game or whatever you want. Don't just rely on me, and ask for money from me. You know for yourself to eat only less is always less." Ketus Gilang's.

" If I don't ask you for money then who do I ask for money?" to our neighbors?"

" Well, who knows if you ask your neighbor to be given to buy a robe."

" Where there is, my man is not his wife why will be given money. You're my husband automatically I'm asking you for money because I'm your wife."

" Yes, if I have money, I will love it, but if there is nothing to love. Yeah, there take the money in my wallet to buy a robe. But if the rice and tokens run out think for yourself how to buy them. He said the income from the author was great, but where is the proof that you write every day until late at night But I never saw the income from writing you " Ketus Gilang.

" I'm new to writing, will not immediately get paid instantly high. All must have a process, if you want instant why not just join the pesugian."

" Yes, I'll join Sugihan with you the fall how do you want?"

" Crazy fool." Nina's Speech

" Find a real job there. Don't expect from writing. I'll bet you won't get anything from writing. You're just wasting your time and energy. It's better that you massage me than you keep pressing the phone."

" Ck, you don't support me at all."

" What kind of support do you expect, if from writing can make real money then I will support you." Said Gilang who then passed out of the house to smoke.

It always ends up like this, what's my fault for asking for money from him. And am I wrong if I I I try my luck with writing. Inner Nina.

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" God, when will my family be as happy as the rest of the family. It is wrong if I also hope I will be happy like other families, whether I have sins in the past so YOU punish my life in the present. It's undeniable, and I don't want to be a hypocrite either. I am very envious if I see other families can be happy, even though they lack the economy but they can still make their children and wives happy. When can Gilang behave like that to me and the children." Nina said while looking at her two daughters who were still asleep.

Nina then wiped her tears, and started a routine activity that was done in the morning. After everything was done from cooking to cleaning the house as well as feeding and bathing Akifa, Nina picked up her phone. Open the blue app where Nina used to write.

Nina looked at a work she had just made. Long Nina looked at him, until the words of Gilang reverberated in her mind. Nina closed her eyes and finally turned off the phone. Her passion for writing has now disappeared. She she knew what Gilang said might have a point, Nina too hoped to make money from how to write. Until a few days ago but still did not continue his writing, until he several times received a notification that he had never updated his writing.

" Kum..."

" Why?" Ask Novi

Yes, Novi is currently visiting Nina's house. Because it's Sunday and as usual every Sunday Gilang and Novi's husband will go bird competition.

" I don't know, I'm starting to lose my passion for writing."

" Why can?"

Nina then told him whatever Gilang had said to her.

" His, you are. Let Gilang say anything, did you not tell me that you will continue to write and diligently write and leave everything to God. If you earn from writing, you will make money from it. Yes, although I don't know when, but you should stay upbeat and optimistic. Prove to Gilang that his words are wrong. Prove that even from writing you can make money and can buy anything you want."

Nina looked at Novi, who Novi said was right. Just think of any income later that Nina would get from the novel as savings. If the nominal is already eligible for a minimum withdrawal. Then Nina could take the money and spend what she had been dreaming of all this time.

" Yes, I also read a post by one of the authors on the app. He also told me about his experiences when he first started writing. Most of them are not easy."

" That's you know, so now all you need to fix is your writing spirit. Just let it go crazy babbling anything. The important thing is that you keep your mind up and your passion for making money from writing."

" Yes yes..."

" Yes it is."

" Well then, I'll resume the delayed novel."

" Nah that's just Nina with a spirit I know."

Nina smiled, then they spent the afternoon telling stories. Various household problems and also do me time together when the children of Nina and Novi have fallen asleep.

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