Is it my destiny or is it my destiny?
Flashback again

The homework is done, Akifa sleeps fast, and Ilmi who is good at playing with her friends, making Nina have a relaxing time.

Nina took her phone and started surfing in cyberspace. See the status of everyone passing by on its veranda.

Hmm, when can I walk even if I just look. I also want to be able to buy something for my son. Inner Nina.

I don't know, maybe because Nina always couldn't get what she wanted. Makes Nina feel very ambitious if she wants something, especially for her two daughters.

" If only there was work to be done at home other than online sales I would definitely do it. Or if there was a part-time job that allowed me to bring in a toddler I would want to do it for the kids. There's a lot of things I want to buy that I can't buy in the past."

Nina then began to recall events in the past where when Nina worked, Nina was not as lucky as other friends.

...Flashback...

" Nina, later you go to Jakarta cost the same as Abang Mus's fiancee." Nina's Father

" Yes." Yeah."

One month after the conversation the father actually gave Nina a ticket to Jakarta.

There, Nina was determined to really work to support the family economy and also help the cost of her sister's school who was still in Elementary School.

However, unfortunately 3 months of being an employee of a Chinese restaurant made Nina fall ill because there was never a holiday and also Nina's work schedule that always came home at night.

" Just stop, find another job." Said Linda, who was none other than the fiancee of Mus's brother. Step-sister of Nina.

"But..."

" Already, the salary person is also not how much else you want to defend."

Nina fell silent and thought of the words from Sister Linda. It is true what Linda said, working hours are not in accordance with the salary earned. Evidently during Nina's work at the Chinese restaurant, Nina still asked for money from the father because her salary was not enough to eat, not to mention to pay the cost of the money every month.

" How do I get out of there?" Ask Nina.

" Wait after payday and then you go in two or three days after that you pretend to be sick or something. And you don't have to go in next. So from now on you can start writing more cover letters and put them in some outlets that are in need of employees."

" Hmm, okay. Thank you brother."

" Same same. Yes, I'm taking a break, brother wants to go to work first."

Nina smiled and nodded, really She was very lucky to meet Sister Linda. Her kindly person Dina felt like she had an older sister. They were very close even like siblings.

A few weeks later, Nina tried her luck by working at one of the boutiques selling Korean clothes.

This job is quite relaxed, because there are no strict rules like when Nina works in a Chinese restaurant.

However, again because of the salary that can not meet the needs that are still long in Jakarta. Nina decides to return to her hometown.

" Don't go home why?" Sister Linda said sadly as Nina expressed her intention to return home to her hometown.

" Sister I've been here almost 1 year, but as long as I'm here I'm still asking for money from my father. I don't really stand on my own hands and feet. I'm ashamed that I've been working but still asking my mom or dad for money."

" It's okay, didn't your father say that he would help you until you could stand with your own hands and feet?"

" Yes, but I feel bad I'm the first child of the family, and my father still has to meet the needs of the other children."

" Rethink it. Whatever your decision, brother will always support it."

" Thank you, brother."

" Maybe, we have to match our holidays."

" How about Wednesday."

" Hmm, I'll talk about it with sister ayu tomorrow." Nina's Speech.

Wednesday arrived, early in the morning Nina and Kak Linda were ready to take a walk to central Jakarta by busway. They really enjoy the holiday by taking a walk while occasionally entering the mall and see if there are vacancies there and also ask friends Kak Linda about the salary that is sufficient for the needs of living in Jakarta. But Nina had to swallow a bitter pill because there was no job with a high enough salary as Linda.

Why doesn't Nina work at sister Linda's? The answer is because Nina is less tall to enter the main criteria requirements.

Finally after a week of interrupting and not finding a suitable job Nina finally returns home to her hometown. A heavy farewell. Honestly, Nina also does not want to leave the city of Jakarta because she already feels very comfortable with Kak Linda. But how else did Nina also not want to trouble her parents.

After returning home from Jakarta Nina tried her luck by finding work at the Pasuruan factory. But no company would accept Nina.

" It is difficult to work in a factory if there are no insiders. The ones applying at the factory are not 10 or 20 people but hundreds of people. If you have an insider acquaintance then it will have a great opportunity to be accepted in the factory." Devi, who was working at the Sidoarjo shoe factory, said.

" Yes, some of my other friends have said the same thing."

" Yes, if only in the factory where I work to open a vacancy I would definitely help you to be able to work here, but unfortunately now still not open a vacancy."

" It's okay to tell me if the factory where you work has opened a vacancy."

" Of course."

Nina was in Pasuruan for two weeks with her friend Sri. They live at aunt Sri's house. Then they decided to return home before their pocket money was completely exhausted and not restless.

Not stopping there after returning from Pasuruan Nina began to look for work in the city of Jember. This time Dina was lucky enough because she finally got to work in a convenience store called happy store.

Nina was only able to work for 3 months, because suddenly Nina felt a deep pain in her left chest. But when Nina checked it to the doctor there was no serious illness, the doctor said maybe Nina was tired because she had to go up and down 3 floors every day.

Nina's illness forced Nina to stop completely and not work for 1 month.

After recovering Nina can no longer find work instead meet again with Novi.

...Flashback...

" Why have I always been unlucky in every way.. What's wrong with me so I never get lucky in anything." Nina said as she put down her phone and chose to leave the house to clear her mind with the usual wind hitting Nina as Nina sat relaxing in front of the entrance of the boarding house.

" Lo, where's Akifa?" ask mama elsa.

" Sleep, so I'm gonna spend my own time here clearing my mind so my mind doesn't get too tired thinking about life."

" Hahaha there's just nothing."

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