Is it my destiny or is it my destiny?
What to do
In the afternoon, as usual Nina who had packed the house and also cooked for dinner chose to sit relaxed in front of the door of the boarding house. By holding Akifa, Nina rethinks how she can meet her needs and her two daughters without having to wait for money from Gilang.
" Where can I get a part-time job so that I can also earn income and can meet my needs and also my two Daughters." Ogre Nina.
This is the umpteenth of the day that makes you dizzy because of the quarrel with Gilang about money. Last afternoon I asked nicely to girang if he had the money to pay the monthly dues where Ilmi studied.
But instead of answered meekly Gilang actually said the thing that made him hurt.
" I don't have any money, I have to work with how-to models again so I can earn money fast. Now it's the end of the month I don't even have enough money to pay for expenses. Not to mention if you think of the same money to go home Eid. At least we have to have 3 million to get home. If we don't have that kind of money then don't expect to go home. Because it seems like at any time we will never be able to go home if we only rely on income from my work." Silang.
At that time, Nina was silent and did not respond to the words of Gilang. Because if Nina answered then it would be a fight again. And Gilang will definitely return to blame Nina who does not want to work to help the family finances.
Nina also recalled the words from inu-in-law when Gilang made a video call.
" Yes already buk, I turn it off because if too long later kouta from Bibi run out."
" It won't end, Auntie Mas is now working at Mas Bimo's house."
" When do you start working?"
" There has not been 1 month anyway, but at least it would be good if Bibi would also come to work so there are in case if it requires a sudden fee for school." Speak in-laws with a loud tone.
Patience Nina, be patient do not get carried away. Inner Nina.
Nina then remembered the words from mbak Ida. Ida's mother is a cousin of Nina's mother. But it's more convenient to call her mother's cousin sister. Mother Ida tells Nina to work abroad is Gilang, wake up from a slump and rise with her own hands to support her two daughters.
" But I'm afraid that if my two children I leave it to my mother the Gilang family will take it." Nina's Speech.
" There is no need to be afraid and worry If you are successful if you can want to have your own income from hard work then your two children will look for you."
" God give me instructions on what to do Should I work abroad and leave my two Daughters?. If I do that then the same thing that happened to me will repeat itself to my children. But if I wasn't determined to work abroad then my life would still be like this. This God of choice really makes me in a dilemma, on the one hand I also want to work so that I can get money so that I can meet my needs and also my two Daughters. But on the other hand I also don't want what happened to my two daughters."
That night, when everyone was asleep including Gilang Nina woke up in the quarter of the night and complained to the creator, hoping he would get a hint from God.
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