Is it my destiny or is it my destiny?
The fate is almost the same.

" Hey, how come you're never outside the house again?" Mama Elsa asked through Nina's window.

" Hey."

Nina got up from her sleeping position and opened the door.

" Out lo, it's hanging out with people."

" No ah, if I get together with them I don't know what to talk about. Because they always talk about things that are out of my reach. So instead of me just being quiet I'd better stay home and accompany Akifa."

" Yes, I myself if joining them is also mostly silent, because what they discuss is delicious culinary and also looks expensive. They also sometimes plan to go to tourist attractions."

" If you are able to go anywhere or explore culinary tasting every food you want to taste, while I. How to taste culinary, Gilang I take a walk never want. Except if Gilang himself who really intend to go for a walk. Then I could go for a walk and wash my eyes. If Gilang does not want or does not want to go for a walk then as hard as I try to say will not take us for a walk."

" Road by yourself."

" I want that, but I don't have any money myself. You know how Gilang gave me money. Do not be able to make a walk, to eat is still less less. Not to mention the bike that is always taken, sometimes Gilang go home but come out again for the bird race or fishing."

" Gilang didn't see looking for his own pleasure." Mama Elsa's.

" Yes, it's like that. If you come home from a bird race or fishing at night always ask for a massage, if I refuse then you will know myself and he will fight. And I said, Why don't you just stay home when you don't have a job. You know he just said he wanted to find entertainment so his mind does not stress because of work."

" Huh, just like my husband. You know our fate may be pretty much the same."

" Yes different, even though Elsa's father likes to be angry he nagged but he still wanted to go for a walk, right? so even though our fate is the same but still much luckier than you are."

" Yes, yeah."

" Now, the difference between our husbands is that, if your husband will still go even if he wants to talk all the way. But not with Gilang, even though Ilmi whines to tears but if Gilang does not want to go out then it will not go out for a walk. Sometimes I am also confused by what Gilang thinks. He himself felt the need for entertainment due to the stress of work. But as if he wasn't thinking about his family, he's a bird race fishing game that's for whose pleasure? for his own pleasure, right.,"

" Try you are angry if you know Gilang will be a bird race or fishing. Like I'm always nagging if Elsa's dad doesn't come home soon or comes home late from work."

" Yes, that's Elsa's dad. If I get angry, he gets angry. As if he did not want to be arranged it was me who was arranged by him. Then what can I do?, if I keep going then I'm the one who's hurt. So I better shut up. And also about gathering with others outside, I sometimes feel inferior because I am a person who does not have. Plus my knowledge of culinary and tourist attractions is not as extensive as they are."

" Yes, but what's wrong with joining them who knows they'll take us for a walk."

" No, if they Eka invite us to spend they will certainly be a lot because they have to treat us right. Whereas if they make their own event and then immediately leave they do not need to spend a lot of money because there is already a boss who will bear the money to eat and also the cost of their trip."

" Yes you're right Yes I'll buy a car someday. Then I'll take you wherever you want." mama Elsa

" Haha, don't get too high if you hit. It will hurt later."

" Yes it's okay to shy fantasized aloft so that we do not stress thinking about the attitude of our husband."

" Yes, you're right. I also felt I should cry every night, and why is it that I'm always the one who gets hurt in this relationship."

" Yes, I've repeatedly told her that she asks where the shopping money is. But the answer always irritated my heart, like when I said the price of eggs went up. He casually said there was no need to buy expensive necessities."

" It is like that, just try to have your own money for sure you will be loved dear and spoiled by your husband. Like when I get severance pay from the company I used to work for. Elsa's father never even got angry with me again, but once my severance pay ran out. Then he will return to being a wolf who is always angry at every moment."

" Are all men like that?, hoping that his wife also works and has income so as not to rely too much on him?"

" I don't know why I don't think there's a man with such a character."

" Cheating can not be?, find a man who wants to accept us as it is and also royal will money." Nina's Speech.

" Yes where there is like that, yes there may be some men who will be royal and want to make us savings but we also have to be willing if the man wants to sleep with us."

" Huu, if that's why we don't become prostitutes." Nina's Speech.

" Haha, yes sometimes I also think it is good to be a prostitute even though it is played every day but always get money. Unlike this one, it has been in the genjot every day fussy financial anger. Makes me feel dizzy."

" Ah just the same, I sometimes even feel like a prostitute. Because I I dare ask for money after Gilang asks only me."

" Why did you ask him after doing that?"

" Yes, because only after doing that would crazy not be angry if I asked for money or said needs that have run out."

" Hmm, men are the same."

" I don't know, sometimes I also start to feel tired with the life I live."

" Same."

Like that, sometimes Nina and also mama Elsa exchanged their painful lives. However, no matter how bad the story that mama Elsa told, Elsa's mama's life was much luckier than Nina's. Nina herself sometimes feels jealous of Elsa's mama's life, although the husband is very angry and often hears them fighting. But Mama Elsa's husband can still make ends meet or whatever Mama Elsa wants.

Although Lina knew that envy and spite were not good and should not be harbored by women. But Nina is just an ordinary human being, plus her life has never been as smooth as a highway. So is it wrong if Nina is always envious of a life that is much better than her. In this heart always hope to find peace and happiness in the household that has been built for almost 7 years.

I don't know when but Nina always hoped that someday she would find happiness.

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