Is it my destiny or is it my destiny?
Should I be happy?

The next morning, when Nina went to the market, she took the time to buy a Testpack located not far from the market.

Arriving at home, Nina started using the device.

Nina was a little surprised because when she was BAK, the water was green to blue.

" This must be because I've been drinking all kinds of herbs." Ogre Nina.

After dipping the pregnancy test kit, Nina waited in suspense.

" The line one Line one."

Nina continued to pray that the tool would not show line two.

But hope is hope. The line shows a very bright line of two.

" No!!!"

Nina closed her eyes, then put the tool again into her wrap, and stored it in a place that could not be found ole Gilang.

" The testpack must be wrong. It must be broken because I drank too much jamu. " Lirih Nina as long as she cooks.

The next day, Nina tried to test her back. And the result remains the same. Line two.

" NO. Don't." Don't."

Nina was crying while lapping her own stomach, she was jumping in the bathroom. Then Nina immediately contacted Farah.

" Hello Farah."

" What's up, brother?"

" I'm pregnant."

" Good God, congratulations, brother."

" no. I don't want this pregnancy. You have to help me. I want the drug you once said "

" Alright, I'll call my friend first."

" But, I don't have that much uant, to buy the cure."

" Sister think about it right. If you are sure you do not want it. Then call me."

" All right."

Nina turned off the phone. He's back on his activities. Cooking, cleaning the house and caring for Ilmi.

" Have the moon come yet?" Ask a Gilang

" Not yet." Nina replied without looking at Gilang, because she was feeding Ilmi.

" Aren't you trying for Testpack?" Ask Gilang.

" Already, line one."

" good. Means because menstruation is not smooth." Silang.

" What about line 2?"

" Yes, if you can't because I'm not ready to have another child. You know, our economy's waiting around when we have new savings we have more kids." Silang.

After a crazy breakfast leave the house to start working again. And not long after they came to visit Nina's house.

" ASSALAMUALAIKUM."

" Waalaikumsalam, Mommy there is Adek Asril. Asril here let's go down." Said Ilmi excitedly.

" Where's mom?" Ask Eka.

" Mother is still in the shower." Ilmi.

After a long time Eka waited, Nina finally finished bathing and changed clothes.

" Hey, where's it from?" Ask Nina.

" Oh."

Nina just ber'O'ria while rubbing her face with thin makeup.

" Ohya, how?"

Nina who knew the meaning of Eka's question immediately took a testicle hidden in the kitchen, and gave it to Eka.

" Well, congratulations." Eka said when she found out that the test is line 2.

Nina fell silent.

" I don't want to get pregnant."

" Why?"

" You know for yourself what it's like?, how can I accept this pregnancy if Gilang still acts like that to me."

" Oh yeah, but that kid's sustenance."

" I know, that's why I tried to get rid of him before he got bigger. I've been drinking all kinds of herbs. But the line is still two."

" Not ah." Prevent Eka.

" Why?"

" Whatever happens between you and your husband, it's not the fault of the fetus you're carrying. Just look even though you've given him the abcd herbal medicine but he still does, right?"

" Hmm." Nina cleared her throat, in her heart justifying what Eka had just said.

" Imagine how the fetus feels when it finds out it's not expected by its mother."

Nina was silent and looked at Eka.

" It is better not, who knows the child will bring a change in Gilang's attitude. Turn him into a better husband and take responsibility for the family."

" What percentage of that change?" Ask Nina.

" Yes I don't know for sure, which is obviously hoping you can. We hope we pray too."

" I don't know I'm not sure because if I look at you. And I've also told you that the disposition can never change." Nina's Speech.

Silent.

They are equally silent. Nina and Eka look at Azriel and Ilmi who are engrossed in playing.

" It's just defense."

" But.."

" Nina, the fetus is innocent. We have many sins, do not increase sin by killing even unborn lives into this world." Bright Eka.

Nina was silent and dissolved in her own thinking.

What should I do God, on the other hand I also do not want to abort my womb. But on the other hand I was not ready because the attitude said that still does not change. Inner Nina.

" Think again before you do something you might regret later." Eka said before she finally came home.

" Yes, thanks for the advice."

" But I really hope you'll sustain this pregnancy."

Nina smiled before finally bringing Eka home.

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