Is it my destiny or is it my destiny?
Must what?

No woman hopes that her home life will not be perfect. All women must want their households to be peaceful and happy.

So does Nina who hopes she will be happy with her household. It would be wrong if Nina wished she would get affection from her husband.

All this time maybe Gilang has loved Nina. But not in the right way because Nina feels the contents of her marriage are just wounds. Nina could not remember the last time she felt happiest and luckiest being a wife.

That afternoon, Nina was very upset because so much work had to be done. While saying choose to go fishing because he does not work and also this is on holiday.

Gilang did not give any more money to Nina, even though Nina was already earning money from her previous job.

Because Nina was in a bad mood, so she did not ask about the money to Gilang.

" Nda, is the rice still there or is it up?" Gilang asked after Nina sat down and lay down tired of washing.

" There's, maybe, enough to cook tomorrow."

" Yes, let's buy it."

Gilang moved from his seat and took out a red and blue note and gave it to Nina there used to buy rice.

Tit

Tit

Tit.

Electric token alarm sound.

" That's take another twenty thousand dollars on top of the cupboard for an additional purchase of electric tokens." Silang.

With a gontai step Nina walked over and took the money that was on top of the closet.

Nina's eyes glazed over, looking at the money that Gilang had just given her. It felt like Nina wanted to cry because she said she only gave him money to buy rice and also electricity tokens. While in Nina's wallet there is only spare change that may not be enough to buy vegetables the next day.

But what power Nina can not ask Gilang. Nina was too afraid Gilang would be angry because it would hurt her heart. Either Nina is stupid or Nina is scared.

Every time the shopping money runs out of interest never wants to ask for it again. Because he had already been injured too much so he was reluctant to listen to Gilang's nagging again.

Finally, with Gilang. Nina went to the store in front of the boarding street to buy rice as well as electricity tokens.

" Sheep.."

Nina sighed as the money in her wallet was completely drained.

I have to how?, soon the needs of Akifa will run out from where I will get the money.

That night, Lina Sule once went to sleep because she thought about how to get money to meet her needs and also her children.

God, whether it is I who complain too much so that the money given to Gilang is never enough, or indeed Gilang who is outrageous in providing a living for me. I want to give up, I feel like I want to scream and complain that the burden in my heart is gone. What keeps me trapped in this horrible life. Is it really me who is not good at being grateful and not good at managing finances or indeed Gilang who cannot understand spending from the household. Inner Nina.

Tok

Tok

Tok

Chequelek

" Aunty here's Om's shirt." Said the nephew while putting the shirt on top of the closet.

" Lo, buy some clothes?"

" Yes, dress for the bird race."

" Have you paid?" Ask Nina.

" I don't know, he'll be there when Om comes."

" Yes already."

After saying that Gilang's nephew came back out and closed the door.

Nina undressed it. Then he remembered that Gilang had asked about the size of the clothes and said that his friends ordered a dress for the bird competition club.

Nina did not expect that Gilang himself would buy clothes.

The nina?

Nina of course styled the shirt with pain in the chest. The little things Gilang never open to Nina let alone the big things.

Nina wanted so badly to cry, Why does life seem so unfair to her. From the past until now. Nina could never buy anything she wanted. So too until now when Nina was married. Nina is very difficult to buy what she wants because Gilang never gave her any money.

" For your own work so that you can have hours money can buy whatever you want."

Those words always ring in Nina's ears when Nina wants something.

Sometimes a crazy idea arises in Nina to get money quickly, such as maybe selling yourself or anything that can get money quickly. But fantasy remains a fantasy. Nina did not want to take the wrong step that made her regret later on.

Nina could only be silent as she put Gilang's clothes back on top of the closet. And began to put Akifa to sleep because this had already entered his bedtime in the morning.

Nina would wait for what Gilang said after seeing the clothes she ordered had already come.

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