Is it my destiny or is it my destiny?
Relaxing Time is a mess

These few days it seems like Gilang's mood is good, it is proven that he gave me a lot of money than usual. And also there is no drama when Ilmi asks for pocket money.

Some nights become a relaxing time for Nina, because there is no more debate and also an annoyed look from Gilang.

As usual, after putting Nina's children to sleep, she began her new hobby of writing.

Nina intends to try to approach Gilang to speak from heart to heart. Because Nina was aware that what was lacking in their relationship was communication.

And yet Nina had not approached Gilang, Gilang had already opened the chat.

" This is you, a way of saving so that we have savings." Say it while showing a post on one of the social media.

" Lo, I can save like that or you can give me the right money."

" What right?"

" Yes, always give me money before my spending runs out."

" Why blame me, you should use your intelligence. How to make enough money to spend and to save. Cook you can't set aside 1000/2000 dollars every day." Silang.

" Can, I can save even when the day I can collect some money, so that the total reaches a hundred thousand. But because you are always angry every time I say if the shopping money runs out, and also sometimes angry with Ilmi when she asks for pocket money. Makes me forced to use the savings I've collected."

" Yes that's a sign you're not good at managing finances." Ketus Gilang's.

" Kok so me, even though I've been trying as frugally as possible to reduce spending. Just try to give me enough money to spend, so I don't have to ask when the shopping money runs out."

" You think I'm easy to make money, if you can't wait for me to make money why don't you work and make money yourself." Silang.

" Why are you the one who is angry, I should be the one who is angry that I protested because you did not give me enough money to shop. Try if the bird race runs out no matter what."

" Why do you always talk about it put it if we're talking."

" Of course, every time I say if the money you give is gone you're always angry. But when you spend money on a bird race you don't even get angry or don't protest."

" Of course, since I'm looking for money, I don't do that every day anyway. And I also need entertainment to entertain my mind so as not to always think about work."

Nina let out a long sigh, Nina was no longer in shock. Because this is common when Nina tries to speak softly to Gilang. And the edges must always be like this, Gilang who does not accept the blame and always wants to win in the debate. Finally the conversation closed with each other silent and focused on their respective goals.

Ok Fix, meaning if I spend the money he's angry. But if he himself spends his money then there will be no anger and there will be no quarrel. Fix means I'm here just hitchhiking. Inner Nina.

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In the morning, Gilang was silent and did not talk to Nina, it certainly made Nina a little upset. Shouldn't he be the one who was upset with Gilang but why Gilang was upset with Nina.

" Looking time is a mess." Nina Murmured.

Yes, Nina had to let go of the leisurely few days that she felt were now over. Nina had to look back at the annoyed face she said at all times.

If when they are at odds, Nina is the one who relented and always tried to melt the atmosphere. But now, if they were at odds then Nina would no longer do that. Nina chose to be quiet.

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Nina's cell phone notifications.

" Yes rim?"

" Aren't you busy?"

" No, what's up, what's up?"

" Hm."

" Well, what's hem?"

" I don't know where to start."

Nina was speechless, a Jungle-like voice representing her already chaotic feelings at this moment.

" Say slowly."

Silent, for a moment of silence.

" I'm tired." Rimba.

" Cause??"

" What's wrong with your life?"

" It's complicated, you know my job doesn't give me a definite income and it's not enough for my family. Plus it looks like diamond is pregnant."

" Isn't that really exciting news?"

" Not for me, you know because my finances are not able to meet the needs of the household. With a heavy heart I allow diamonds to work. I feel like I'm not a man anymore. I don't feel good about being a husband, I'm not good at finding money for my family so I let my wife work."

" It's okay, maybe this is your marriage test. You must be able and must be strong, believe me that one day things will be inversely proportional to what is happening now."

" Yes I know it's just.."

" Rimb, most comfortable expectations that we want do not match the reality that occurs. But we still have to live it with a chest, right?" Nina's Speech.

" Yes you're right."

" And about the economy, I myself can also be said to be very lacking for economic problems, but it does not have to affect the relationship between the two of you right?.I mean you mean the details to make Intan happy in other ways, but it does not have to affect the relationship between the two of you right, by adding love and attention for example. Especially the possibility of pregnancy. So you should be able to give more attention and affection to him. About economics, believe me if someday there will be a way in front of you."

" Yes, what about your story?"

" me?, huh. The story is still the same as it used to never change in the slightest. Can I give up now?"

" No, you always encourage me when I'm in trouble, but why would you give up on your own life's problems."

" I don't know Rimba, I'm tired of all this. I'm just thinking about what other reason to keep this marriage than because of the kids."

" You anyway, I asked you to love me you didn't want to."

" Just start again.."

" Hehe, sorry. But I'm honest, I still love you like I used to."

" Remember Intan." Nina's Speech.

" Haha, diamond is teaching at school and I am also in the office to take care of my unfinished work."

" So that?"

" Hehe."

" Rimb, listen. I'm heavy you'll always remember my words, glad you're always Intan. Even if you can't make her happy through the material but happy she is in another way. Like love him and care for him. You know it would be very painful for a woman if her husband no longer gave her affection."

" Nine..."

" I mean it, I want you to promise me that you'll always make Intan happy no matter what, happy for her even if you're subject to a material test."

" Of course, I will always make my wife happy, and I also hope that you will find happiness."

" It's a long time ago, I have to teach Ilmi to learn."

" all right. Nin..."

" Yes??"

" Don't forget that you still have me who will always be faithful to listen to your grievances."

" Of course."

Tut

The call ended Nina put back her phone.

Rimba, deep down, thank you there is love for you. You know, I really understood what love was after I met you. True love is love that does not impose the will of each side. I am so grateful that I love a man like you. Our love and our story will be told to my children and grandchildren. I will teach them how to make a couple happy and also find the right love. Inner Nina.

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