Is it my destiny or is it my destiny?
Hopefully Not

A few months after that, a terrible virus attacked Indonesia. Lock down policy is almost applied to all regions of Indonesia, including Bali.

" This, for the stock lock down." Say Gilang while giving Ten pieces of red money.

Nina took it and kept it good. Fourteen days, is not a short time for Nina, considering that groceries and other staples continue to rise in price.

Tok

Tok

Tok

" Who?" Ask Gilang.

" Don't Know."

Nina then opened the door immediately.

" This, from the boss, makes the stock lock down." Said his sister-in-law while handing over a large white plastic bag.

" Thank you, yeah."

" Yes, where is Ilmi?" Ask brother-in-law for a little chat.

" That's sleep, twins don't sound asleep yet huh ?"

" Yes, still a toy." Said Brother-in-law while walking home.

" Thank you Lo."

" Yes." Yeah."

Nina then brought the plastic bag into the kitchen to see the contents.

" Who?" Ask from the bathroom.

" Mama's a twin, giving her a shot. He said from the boss, make the stock lock down."

" Oh, what's the content?"

" 5kg rice, 1 liter oil, soy sauce and some instant noodles." Nina said while taking all the items out of the plastic bag, and arranging them elsewhere.

" Yes good." Silang.

" Yes." Yeah."

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14 Days passed, but Gilang did not get a job again. Be Nina forced to use the existing savings to connect with life.

The second morning of April. Nina felt that something was missing.

" As for this month I haven't come to the moon." Say Nina while looking for her phone, and see the notes on the menstrual calendar app.

" It's 5 days late."

Nina was not anxious, because since 9 months ago, when she decided not to KB anything, or choose natural KB, the schedule came months always messy.

" It's a good thing I still have a supply of moonlighting drugs." Said Nina who immediately took the medicine.

Three days passed, Nina started to fret. Because he almost spent 2 tablets of menstrual emitting medicine, but he did not come to the moon.

That night, Nina decided to buy herbs. It has become a habit, before the coming months until the capsule does not work, then Nina will buy herbal medicine.

" Not come the moon yet?" Ask Gilang.

" Not yet."

" Yes good dong, means it can still be tapped."

" No ah, we stop before I come to the moon." Nina's Speech.

Nina started to fret and fidget. It's been 1 week he's been late for the month. Nina immediately bought some sprites and one of the drinks that are commonly consumed before menstruation.

Nina felt a hot sensation in her throat and stomach, due to drinking fizzy drinks.

" I should be able to." Say Nina while trying to spend 1 small bottle of sprite.

Drrrttt drrrttt drrrrttt

Nina's phone is ringing.

" Hello farah?"

" Sister, how's your period?"

" Not yet."

" Try buying xxx herbs at the herbalist store."

" Is?"

" There is, but my mama said, it will make the stomach feel very hot."

" Hmm, okay. I'll try." Later."

" Sister.."

" Yes.."

" When it turns out how pregnant is your sister?" Ask Farah.

" Don't do. If you can't, you're not ready. Given Gilang's unchanging nature and selfishness that can still appear at any time." Nina Bright.

" Yes already, I pray big sister isn't pregnant."

" thank you. Later that night, Brother will try to buy your herbs as you said earlier."

" Bye brother."

" Bye.."

..

In the evening, on the grounds of buying Ilmi food, Nina came out alone, she first stopped by the herbal medicine shop to buy herbal medicine that was said by Farah.

" There's XXX." Nina said half a whisper to the herbalist.

" Not come the moon yet?" Ask the seller, while starting to look for herbs that Nina meant.

" Not yet."

" This jamu want not?, my wife has also been late 2 weeks. After drinking this straight away menstruation." Said the herbal medicine seller while pointing the package of herbs to Nina.

" Could be, I take 2, the same herbs I said earlier."

" Okay, wrap it up."

At night, Gilang went to his friend's house. Nina drank the medicine she just bought. And hope he'll be there soon.

Right at midnight, Nina felt an excruciating pain in her stomach. Heat as burning. Nina with all her might endured the heat that seemed to burn her entire entrails.

" Hope this is a sign that I'm coming soon to the moon." Nina's Speech.

God, don't let me get pregnant before my family's economy improves. Don't let me have another child before I have my own savings. Because after this I will work for Ilmi's future. Inner Nina.

That night, Nina cried in silence, hoping that she would soon come by the moon.

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