Is it my destiny or is it my destiny?
Wearied

Nina was desperate. The more days, he felt that happiness was increasingly walking away.

Nina seemed to have no hope for anyone anymore.

" Hmm, I'll try that added complaining he's living what he is. I consider penance. Although I do not know what sin I have committed that my life has become so complicated as this."

Nina hears that someone will get a match according to the mirror and herself. So Nina thinks maybe she had a mistake in the past to get a husband like Gilang, who is selfishly stubborn and also always wants to win alone in everything.

Although all the sisters of Mother Nina said that what happened to Nina as happened to her mother when she married Nina's father.

" Is this karma from my parents?" Ogre Nina.

Nina also had time to say complaints against her husband to the father. And you also say that what happened to him today is because of his father in the past. However, the father said he never did that.

" I've never rationed your mom's shopping money. And I love your mother a lot even though I'm two she said but I really don't want to lose her. I also don't forbid it if I want to go home." That's what the father said.

However, that was contrary to what Nina got when she told the story of the household to her mother's brother.

" Patience yes, which you experience overcoming the shoes that your mother used to experience. It's just the difference after giving birth to your sister your mother dared and chose to go home to her parents. Every time we your mother comes to visit here your mother always carries her clothes little by little. Then, when mom's clothes will no longer be left in her mother-in-law's house, your mother immediately rejects when your father picks her up to bring her back home."

" If I had the courage of a mother" said Nina.

" I don't know, sometimes when he makes me feel so hurt I want to go that day. But at this moment I was burning suddenly pity appeared within me. I can't bear to leave him in this state. Back when we married our economy was so good that it was probably above the green line. But now that our economy is so drastically declining, I can't bear to leave it in this state. I was thinking if I gave up because of this economic situation. That means that even if I get married 5 times I won't be able to survive if God tests me with the economy again."

" But what's it for if you don't feel happiness anymore."

" I know, but on the other hand I also don't want my two daughters to experience the same things that I used to feel. Because of the selfishness of my parents so do not get affection from them, and do not know the chicken good and also bad what to do and what not. Nor would I be willing if my two daughters were taken care of by my aunt-in-law, I would not be willing. I can't imagine what my two daughters would be if they were there. I would love to work abroad in order to make the future of the two princesses better. But I'm afraid that it would be crazy to take my two Daughters and take them away without me being able to reach them. I can't imagine them having a stepmother who turns out to be cruel. I was also afraid that if later I chose to give up my two Daughters would feel regret and might also be angry like I am now."

" Are you angry?"

" Yes, sometimes I get angry about why I was born into such a messy family. Until this happened to me. I also regretted why my parents no one really cared about me. And today I also started to give up because I couldn't make any sense out of my writing."

" Then, what are you gonna do?"

" I don't know. Maybe I'll give up m. Tired, my heart and mind are tired."

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