Is it my destiny or is it my destiny?
The spirit for myself

Nina was standing in front of the mirror, looking at her old face. He has just entered his 28th year. But when compared to mama Elsa who is 38 years old Nina actually looks older.

Nina's teary eyes realized that she was now unable to take care of her face like she used to, so her face looked older than her actual age.

" May I be angry that I cannot beautify myself. Let alone to beautify yourself to eat is still lacking. What I am less grateful for is my husband's gift of not understanding the household needs and also the needs of a wife for himself."

Nina then closed her eyes remembering her conversation with Gilang when she asked for a robe.

" Yes buy it, don't I always give you money." Gilang said when Nina told him about her desire to buy a game in an orange-colored app.

" Yes, but when you give me money you say nothing, doesn't that mean the person is shopping for everyday necessities."

" Yes that's just made to buy."

" When what money is needed?" Ask Nina.

" Yes eat that dress, just like when you want a closet. Just buy it, but when the rice and others run out then do not ask for money on me but ask for the cupboard that you have bought. Or just come here to cook so that it can be full." Silang.

" Yes I already know because that's why when you give me money I'm still grateful to buy what I want."

" Yes already? that means you still have a mind if you don't spend it because I give to buy unnecessary things."

" But I also need a robe because many of my gamis are ugly and worn even some of them are not worth using."

" You can't ask for money to buy what you want."

" Yes to whom."

" Don't be weird. There's no way I'm asking the next door for money."

" Why don't you try who knows they'll give him. Or have an initiative to sell what cake or work what jobs kek. So you can buy anything without asking from me."

Believe it or not, I don't think any woman would want to hear an answer like that. Instead of answering with a question that could please Nina, Gilang actually answered it as if telling Nina not to ask anything from him.

" Patience to Nina, embrace the new world you are living in. The spirit to continue to work, do not be discouraged even though he said himself did not support to write because He thought writing was just nonsense and did not produce anything. You should be able to prove to me that you can also make money writing. Yes although the results are not much, but can to buy what Gilang can not give to you." Said Nina who was encouraging herself.

Sad indeed when knowing that the husband himself never supports or encourages himself. But Nina had to stay excited to be able to make money from writing. Although Nina herself does not know when she can feel the income from writing.

Right now all you can do is keep writing and working.

" If my sustenance from writing then I will get it even if I don't know when it will happen. Now all I have to do is keep getting excited and working. Yes even though I know because I am not as good as other works so that no reader comes by hehe.. But I'm sure that the road to success is not easy. So I have to stay excited. The spirit to myself." Nina said with a smile.

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