Is it my destiny or is it my destiny?
Can only be silent

" Where are you going?" Ask Ilmi who saw Gilang had gone home to work, but it was still daytime.

" I'm going fishing with my friend." Said Gilang who was immediately busy looking for a fishing rod.

" I want to teach, I want to teach. Who's going to stop?" Ask Ilmi with a sad face.

" It's Sunday now, and his salary's still off. Tomorrow we're in."

" Oh. Yes, I went fishing there. Got a big fish yeah, if you don't get fish don't go home." Celeste Ilmi.

" Yes." Yeah."

After getting fishing gear and other items. Refresh right back out. Nina simply fell silent not responding or speaking to Gilang because she was sleeping to put Akifa to sleep.

Starting at night, Gilang came home but did not bring anything.

" How come you don't get fish?" Ilmi asked when she found out that the bucket carried by Gilang remained empty.

" Yes, my fish love Om Upin."

" Well, I'd love to."

" Father's little fish can't get big fish so I just give it to my dad's friend."

" Yes already."

Nina who was doing the dishes in the back, just turned her head and listened to the conversation between father and son. Either Gilang really fishing or not. But every time Gilang said goodbye to fishing when he came home he never brought fish.

Evening arrived, if usually after dinner Gilang will rest for a while and then return to work. But it's been 3 days every night Gilang no longer knows go to work. Nina also lazily asked the reason why Gilang did not work. Although actually Nina wants to know what is the cause of Gilang that does not work at night.

" Where?" Mama Elsa asked when Nina was accompanying Akifa who was eating a snack on the terrace of Nina's room.

" Inside." Nina's Speech.

" Not work?"

Nina shakes.

" Yes that means a lot of money stock."

" Ck, if it's a lot of money, I won't be confused for shopping." Lirih Nina for fear Gilang heard it.

" Hmm, yesterday I knew someone was here to offer Gilang a job. When I asked him why his job was not taken, Gilang said If the job is heavy and takes a long time."

" How come the old or fast work should be done or taken into account for additional money to buy rice right?"

" I don't know what to say anymore."

The next day, Nina cooks as is adjusting the expenses with the money left in her wallet. Nina was a little sad because of the soap and also the needs of akifa began to run out. There was no other option for Nina other than to use the money she collected to pay for the registration fee of Ilmi's school which was only a few months away.

"Hmm, the money is only 2 pieces of blue. If I take 1 then there's only one sheet."

Nina was confused as to how, because she had repeatedly taken money from Ilmi's savings.

" Yes already while I use it first, hopefully before registration I can feel the income from me writing so I can pay the registration fee of Ilmi school." Ogre Nina.

Nina then invited Akifa and the science to shop for their needs at the store opposite the boarding house.

During the day, around 4 pm central Indonesia time. Gilang went home and looked rushed to pick up something and said to Nina who had just woken up.

" Ilmi will deliver njai. I want a bird race first."

Nina just fell silent and stared at the departure of Gilang that her friend had been waiting for.

" Sheep.."

Nina yelled and cursed Gilang. He had money if for the bird race but no money if Nina asked him to shop.

" Oh my God, I'm so tired. May I give up now, but I have nowhere to lean so where should I go home and lean?. On the other hand I also do not want my children to suffer the fate like me, divorce parents are very negative for children. I don't want my children to suffer the fate of being lost to a golden age in childhood. But I also cannot continue to survive in this situation. I should how?"

Nina wiped away the tears that came out from the corner of her eyes, there was nothing Nina could do. Talking to Gilang was useless as well. Heart-to-heart talk also quarrels. Directly fighting will also make Nina hurt more. But if Gilang continues to be left then he will remain that way.

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