Lembayung Dusk
Still Can't Forgive..

Federico

My name is Federico Philander, I'm 25 years old and now I'm the President director of a leading fashion company in Italy, where the CEO or the highest office holder is my pastor named Lardo Philander.

In addition to taking care of the company, I am also a lecturer at one of the universities in Milan.Just now I spend more time to take care of the company padre. Companies that are built by falling awake for decades.

Europe is the second smallest continent in the world by surface area, measuring about 10 million km2 or 2% of the world's surface area.

There are approximately 50 countries on this blue continent, with Russia as the largest country and Vatican City as the smallest country.

And Europe offers many of the best educational institutions in the world. In the QS World University Ranking, there are a total of 336 universities in Europe that are included in the Top 800 (about 42%).

Of the 50 countries in Europe, several countries such as Italy, Switzerland, and the Netherlands are popular educational destinations for international students.

Italy is famous for its design schools, Switzerland is popular for its hospitality schools which rank among the top five (5) best hospitality schools in the world, and the Netherlands with its high standard research universities.

And there are more than 32,000 international students in Italy so that the network of introductions will be more widespread and each can learn the culture of other countries.

At the university where I teach, there are also many students who are majoring in design from various Asian countries, including Indonesia. For that, I learned Indonesian because padre often tells about the country that is rich in natural beauty.Also often discuss about culture and language with the students who come from there.

In addition to Indonesian, I learned several other international languages because as the second highest company leader, I spent a lot of time visiting various countries for diplomatic relations.

Counted, I have been to Indonesia 2 times to take care of the padre company in Jakarta.

For me, Padre is the perfect figure of a father who is always concerned with family and attention to the development of his children. Therefore, when the padre said I had a sister in Indonesia.I was really surprised, all this time padre never told this to anyone, including madre.

Padre said he met the woman on the island of Lombok at one of the resorts on the Senggigi beach.

I received several addresses. One of them was an old address, the village is still down. I tried to get there but according to the neighbors who live there, the woman named Baiq Indrawati had moved to Mataram many years ago.

Then this can not be done manually, because looking for the address of someone we do not know is very difficult, I only equipped with an address and a piece of outdated photos of the woman. moreover, I am only a temporary resident of a foreign country. So I decided to call my friend for help.

After about 10 days of searching I finally got her address in Mataram. But after that, something stuck in my mind.

The woman's house was occupied, when asking the neighbors around.. Baiq had moved to Bandung with his son, and they were like whispering about the woman's ugliness, without them knowing that I understood what they were talking about.

Well, it's interesting. I'll investigate something here. In the meantime I have to fly to Bandung first. And this time also because I also asked my friend for help a cyber, so that I could finally find his address easily.

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"So my sister's name is Dusk? " I muttered to myself in a room in one of the best hotels in Bandung.

Look closely at my stepbrother's face. He does look similar to the padre, and certainly similar to me, only he has a slight look on his mother's face.

And that inexhaustible thought, I got the news that he is now being held in a public institution because of a drug case.

What the hell done Dude...?

What kind of life have you lived all this time little sister? why can I be arrested while still in school?

"You know boy.. Padre told me that he was sorry and looked for you for years.from birth you never once met him." I still look at the photo in my hand.

It was his first trial in the title, and I could only observe from a distance. I still dare not see him..

I also saw a beautiful girl of her age, who was close to her. Is she's your girlfriend?

Haah.. stop! why am I thinking about that little girl? I went to Indonesia to fulfill the request of Padre. There really is no time for me to think about that.

Do I have to see my sister now? faster is better.

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Twilight

I walked over with a smile of my own as I stepped towards the cell, after the first trial had finished.

B'cause crazy little thing called love. is that I'am going to be a father. a daddy. a Baba..

Being a dad.. It's beyond a doubt.

The child in the womb of the girl I loved was my son...

Twilight.. What is the pleasure of Allah that you have denied?

Huo.. I grunt.

Daddy's?

I remember her..

Do I still have a father?

I have tried loving less, but that hurts just the same everytime I remember about him.

I've tried to love her less, but it's still the same, it hurts so much every time I remember her.

"Where is the trial today? " Task Mr. Arya, when I see me being pensively sitting on the floor while bending my legs.

"Alhamdulillah smoothly sir.. "

"Thankful ouch! Hopefully you're out.. "

"Aamiin sir.. " I smiled stiffly and re-solved in daydreams.

"Jammaa! " A warden approached and called while knocking a stick into an iron trunk several times.

"Dad sir..? " I'm moving.

"There's a big one. Come along! "

Who hit me?

I followed the guard and walked behind him, until I reached the doorway.

I frown.Who?I don't know that guy.

Deg.

When he turned around, I was like looking at a replica or mirror reflection of my adult version in front of me.

"Who..?" I asked while looking at him who was smiling.

"Senja.. na-ma are you twilight? " The answer is using a slightly stiff Indonesian.

I'm nodding.

"I.. Federico's.. Federico Philander.your old brother! "

Deg.

I gasp.

"Philanders? " I hesitated while searching for the truth in the eyes of the immortals that were exactly the same as mine.

"I-d-was the eldest son of your father Lardo Philander! our father's.. "

"I don't have a father! You better get out of here! "I turned around to leave him.

"He was sick.. And treated in-a sembang in a Hospital. And he wants to. meet you! "

I stopped the step. Still turning his back.

"I withdraw from people and places from time to time. And now, when I need spaces for a happiness.and want to far away from a world who always filled, with a million cursing words ..they talk too much and always jugde me .. Now again, he was come and call me that I was his child."

(I withdraw from people and places over time. And now, when I need space for happiness, and want to go away from the world that is always filled, with a million words of meaning..Now, he came and called me that I was his son.)

"Tell to him.. I never want to meet him! I never knew him and I don't need to know him!I don't need to meet people who have made my mother suffer all this time.. "

Without caring anything, I completely left her alone fixated.

Damned!

I want to curse and curse at the man.

Just yummy!

After almost 20 years, suddenly came and sent his son to say he wanted to meet?

Did I not hear wrong? after the suffering that my mother had been through all this time she was just looking for us?

This pain can never go away.

I still can't forgive.

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Hello readers.please apologize because the author often enterkin B. england into the conversation 🙏🙏 ..

Sorry too if the English B. is falling out.. Because the basic and background of Dusk is a Caucasian and many young people today talk about it who like to mix with B. English as well.. Because they are still in High School, the author's goal is to feel the story more can aja. 😁😁

Happy reading.. 💕💕