Lembayung Dusk
In Banana dear: Qalbu.. The Battle of Bathin before Married.

^^^"If it is up to my time^^^

^^^I want no one to seduce^^

^^^^ Not even you

^^^No sedu sedan required^^

^^^I am an animal *****^^^

^^^From his group wasted^^^

^^^Let bullets penetrate my skin^^

^^^I remained inflamed lunging^^^

^^^Luka and I can take him running^^^

^^^Berlari^^

^^^Until lost poignant peri^^^

^^^And I would care less

I want to live another thousand years"^^^

^^^~Chairil Anwar~^^^

Twilight

"Rabeling.. " I approached him. "Rabeling.. "

"Ehh.. mhhm.. iyah what? "

"If you want to refuse this marriage, I can talk to your parents to cancel it. "

She looked at me with teary eyes.

"It's all my fault Twilight.. "

"My fault, if I'm firm, it won't be this way at last."

He shook his head.

"I'm sorry, yeah.. Because you have to marry someone like me! "

He swerved towards me. "You are why people like insecure and that is it! how rich are you trying? everyone has also made mistakes! depending on whether he wants to change and learn from his mistakes or not! " Lembayung ketus said.

I smiled at him, he was so nice..

Will it stay like this if he knows my sins first?

"You don't know my past.. " I said softly, no power to continue anymore.

" 3 days, I spend my time with you. and my impression while 72 hours with you.. I think. really you are a good person..! "

I took a long breath.

"But.. "

"Udah akh. Don't talk about it! Let's go to the dining room, everyone is waiting! "

I followed Lembayung's steps from behind.

Membayung...

72 Hours with you. this feeling is more growing and growing up. all over again.

***

Time has shown at half 12 noon, and because I don't use the motor to go home to the apartment. I decided to use a public transport car.

In public transport, sayup was heard from a distance, adzan dzuhur reverberated so shahdu could be heard in the ears. I decided to go down near a mosque and pray there.

I'm seeing.. A grandfather was walking, but there was really attention... He, the grandfather was hobbling with his wooden stick. Walk towards the mosque with difficulty.

"Sorry kek. does grandfather need help? " I asked, as I approached him.

"It's okay young man.. " Remove it, subtly.

"Grandpa wants to pray in the mosque? "

"Of course, the man is obliged to pray together in the mosque! " He patted my shoulder.

"Excuse me, I'd like to take ablution first.. " I said goodbye, for a moment we had reached the door of the mosque.

The grandfather just nodded and I immediately turned to the place where the arrow was shown. Special ablution place for men.

After ablution, I entered the mosque and saw the grandfather waiting for me behind the pulpit.

"Come.you are the Adzan! " He pointed at the loudspeaker and instructed me to go there.

"Sorry kek. I have never uttered an adhan.. " I said embarrassed, and hesitated.

With mixed feelings, I approached the loudspeaker. My hands shook and my body brushed for a moment.

How'this?

Can I do it?

Grandfather nodded, and I immediately said Bassmallah..

Silent.. Only the sound of my heart was heard, only my sweat sweat was coming out of my palms as a result of being too excited.

"Allahu Akbar's.... Allaaaahu Akbar's.... "

Degs... Degs... Degs...

My Heart Pair, it's not normal. As soon as I called out that one GREAT Name, the entire stream of breath seemed to come to a halt. Inner turmoil rumbles no Fairy.

"Allaaahu Akbar's.... Allah Akbar... "

"Laihaillallah's..... "

Whole soul, I echoed the Faith of God so echoed. Tears poured, as sentence by sentence the exclamation in I stretched it to completion.

I'm forcing it to fall.

My body feels paralyzed.

Droplets upon droplets flowed profusely from both windows of my heart because of the larvae, drifting into the beauty of meaning.Will call to immediately face the presence of the Divine Rabbi.

Grandpa came closer to me, "Good... God bless you young... BarrakaAllah Fiik's.. " He then stood up, sat down to perform the circumcision prayer.

I followed grandfather's steps, and then prayed circumcision also behind him.

After finishing carrying out the two rakaats of circumcision prayer, the grandfather standing in front rushed to become a priest. People came, took ablution first and then joined the shaf behind grandfather.

4 Rakaat is done.

"Young man..What's your name? " Task Grandpa sitting down and coming towards me.

"Cake kek... " I grabbed his hand and kissed his back with reverence.

"Whoever hears the Adhan and does not attend it, there is no prayer for him but for the sake of the Qur'an." (HR Ibn Majah).

Grandfather said a hadith which is a hadith of the history of Ibn Majah, which I had heard from Mr. Sharif.

I'm nodding.

"There is a story, a godly man buried the body of his sister. After returning home, he realized that his wallet was gone. It probably fell when he buried his brother."

"Therefore, he immediately returned to the cemetery and dug back. But he could not find his wallet again, he saw the flame in his brother's grave. He was terrified and immediately closed it back down. He wept at the grave of his brother."

"His brother did not live with him, but with his mother. Soon he went to his mother's house, and still weeping he said.."

"O mother, tell me, how is my brother's practice?"

"The mother said, what is it that you ask such a question?"

"O mother, I saw her grave burning with fire! Said the boy, then he told the full story of his experience."

"The mother cried to hear the story and said, Your brother used to lighten (enlighten) the prayer and end it, until the time is almost up!"

I listened to Grandpa carefully, shedding tears.

"Rasulullah Shallallahu 'alaihi wa sallam said, Charity the most favored act of Allah is prayer at the beginning of time...He also said, Excess (salat) at the beginning of time compared to the end of time is like the primacy of the hereafter over the world".

I lowered my head, for some reason the tears continued to flow profusely without pause.

"Your life is just beginning at Dusk. Make use of the time in the world by worshiping and obeying the Creator, after this you will always be bestowed happiness if you continue straight in His way. "

"BarreAllah.... BarrakaAllah Fiik's.. " He patted the left chest where the heart was. "The location of qalbu.. approach HIM with qalbu. because qalbu is as the driver and controller of other limbs, your confusion ..ask for instructions to the Owner of Life.. "

"Qalbu is one of the deepest aspects of the human soul that constantly assesses the wrong feelings, intentions, fantasies, thoughts, desires, attitudes and actions of a person, especially himself. Even though this qalbu tends to show the right and wrong things, but it is not uncommon to experience doubts and inner disputes so that it seems difficult to determine the right and wrong. The place to understand and control yourself is in qalbu. It is Qalbu who shows true character and identity. It is the Qalbu that makes humans capable of achievement, if the qalbu is clear and clear, then the whole human self will show cleanliness, silence, and clarity. Who will one day be held accountable for what the human senses have done since being in the world."

"Well, this is a short message from the old man who is waiting for his time to come. only regret! " Grandfather got up to stand up using a trudge stick.

I wanted to help, but he refused and kept me sitting.

"Tafakurs.. " She said, making me frown.

He left the mosque, I was still sitting and staring at the ceiling.

I am despicable and sinful.. Should you be with a prayer girl like Lembayung?

It's just not appropriate.

But...

May I have a chance to improve myself so that I can and deserve to be his priest later?

***

Noted: Taken from several sources.