Lembayung Dusk
I Will Protect you..

Radiths

Last day Lembayung didn't call me. Maybe he was still angry because of that.

I feel so guilty!

I think it is very natural when worrying about someone, we strengthen by just grasping his hands.Even with the embrace of the person will feel comfortable and calm.

But, I was wrong..

It turns out ustadz who likes to teach me to teach from childhood, said that it was wrong. Me and Lembayung is not a makhrom. Just touching the skin should not be..Even the old look..

Yeah, so while studying at my aunt's house getting married I heard it. And tausiyah ustadz talked about the danger of her approaching adultery.

She said dating can't be either! so if you want to go out after marriage, he said.

How'this? I don't want to let go of Lembayung.. I am still in school and soon to be taking exams and will be entering higher education. The married? just hearing it was difficult and complicated things flashed through my mind. It's still very far away.. Unthought.

But, You know ..many love Lembayung, she's like a Beauty Queen Angel.

Right. I don't exaggerate ko, just ask the same friends at school how his Aura Lembayung .I've been a fool all this time to ignore a little because I prefer others who can play around.

In the future, I need to be more in control. Although I do not deny.. I'm a normal guy.. Every close to her would love to embrace and taste the senses of taste.

Yess..I'am crazy's..And I'm afraid I'll lose control.

Will apologize..

I picked up my phone and started typing messages.

Radith: Honey, are you still angry?

Radith: I feel so sorry! sorry me!

Radith: I promise I won't do that again.

5 Minutes. 10 minutes... There's no reply.

Drrr.. Drrtt..

I snatched the phone .

Memoirs: you must be promise me!

Radith : I will..

I let out a sigh of relief, this means that he forgives me right?

Radith: tomorrow so will I go to my aunt's wedding?

Boarding : Yes.

YESS! I reflexively cheer cheerfully.

Radith: I picked up in the morning at 8, baby, I'll be at 9.

Boarding : Yes.

See you tommorow Dear..

***

Temporizing

I haven't called Radith in the whole day. Still pissed! Why am I so angry.

Not upset because he thinks he's the same ex-ex, that's his past business.. I don't know.I don't know why this is so bad.

Drrr.. Drrt..

3 messages of unread

I waited 10 minutes to reply to a message from Radith.

Ka Radith: Honey, are you still angry?

To Radith: I feel so sorry! sorry me!

Ka Radith: I promise I won't do that again.

Haaah.. I took a long breath. This time I'm sorry.

Memoirs: you must be promise me!

To Radith: I will..

Radith: tomorrow so will I go to my aunt's wedding?

Boarding : Yes.

Radith: I picked up in the morning at 8, baby, I'll be at 9.

Boarding : Yes.

I walked towards the closet, about to pick a dresser for me to wear tomorrow to Radith's aunt's wedding.

Long time see one by one collection hanging in hanger.

"This color is too flashy! "

"This one is too shaky! "

"Yaaah. This is something that's torn! "

"Heah..There's no kapuuu! "

Though the clothes have been piled up on the bed.yes.. Bad habits's.

Yeah, yeah, huh? must have said he did not have clothes, but in fact banyaaaak bgt clothes that are in the closet but still say there is no. There are also some that have never been used at all.

"Astaghfirullah. nuju naon (again what) Ayung? " Enin has been watching me rummaging through the wardrobe.

"Again nyari nin dress.make tomorrow at wear to the wedding of his aunt friend Ayung! "

"Why sampe pabalatak(cluttered) gini?" Enin took one by one the clothes that were lying on the bed.

"Ieu sae." Pick up rosegold color with matching pasmina. "Well this veil! "

"Try first.. "

I also according. Try rosegold robe made from siffon and soft satin silk.in the combination of lace matching parts of the body and arms.

After wearing the robe, I immediately tried pasmina made of siffon match with the material of the robe.

Perfectly..

"Good as well as nin.. It fits in as a stylist..!" I said as I circled in front of the mirror. Then sit next to Enin.

"What we wear and we give up is what is useful!! The savings or collections that are not used will later be in Hisab and will trouble ourselves. Because everything purchased starts from naf**!! Naf**wanted to have this. I want people to buy too. Even if it is useless to us." Enin stroked my head lovingly.

"But niin.. Ayung later if at any time need how? " I took one shirt at a time and started tidying it up, putting it back in the closet.

"Don't you ever hear of a Hadith? The Prophet Shallallaahu ‘alaihi wa sallam said It will not shift the two soles of a servant's feet on the day of doomsday until he is asked (accounted for) about his age at which he spends, about his knowledge of how he practices it, or how he practices it, about his property, where he got it from and where he spent it, as well as about his body for what he used it for.” 

"Oh yeah.. Ayung also once heard it nin. it's one of H. R. Tirmidhi. "

"Naah.kan Ayung already know. "

"Yah nin. in shea Allah later Ayung pickyain clothes that have not kepake yes.. "

"But remember! his clothes must be still good, still worth wearing.even Langkung sae(better) if the clothes or items Ayung most like! "

"Dad nin.. Ayung Iaaang very enin! " I hugged Enin tightly.

***

Twilight

Tomorrow Om Hasan will hold a meeting and reception at a wedding building in Bandung.

I had taken my mother to the hotel close to the location of the building so that tomorrow is not complicated on the trip, because I only use a motorbike, it will be very difficult because it turns out that the uniform that I wear is a kebaya model.

Some days our relationship is getting better, mother is not too cold anymore as before.. Sometimes more silence. But his treatment warmed up. there were no more of those jokes.

And the happiest thing is that mom always makes me breakfast, lunch and dinner. It's that simple, happy to me.

Last afternoon Mr. Sharif explained about the importance of maintaining his views.

At first it starts from the view, then comes to mind, then becomes a step, and then there is sin or error.

Therefore, it is said that whoever is able to keep his views, thoughts, speech, and actions, means that he has taken care of his religion.

How'this? I was always secretly watching Lembayung.

How heavy to keep this view.how heavy to hold this despair..

I pledge.. I will always take care of..

I will take care and I will protect you with all my heart..

***