Lembayung Dusk
The Time I've been waiting for...

Temporizing

"Teh Ayung's.. HPL what October is the date of dear? " Tanya mama, we are currently gathering at the dinner table for dinner.

" 29 Mah... "

"It's just a minute now or. It's the 17th.."

"Dad mah. said the doctor also his baby's head is ready to be at the bottom.. "

"Same mama papah want to go some to Surabaya, tomorrow leave. gapapa teteh in stay?mamah will ask for help mommy nginep here ya.."

"Daddy gapapa mah.ga do deh mah. kasian mother.kana there is the same enin Bintang, then there is a pack of Asep sama bi Minah stay tune at home. "

It's been 2 weeks I didn't swipe Dusk on the lapas. Not that I don't want to go there, but last time there, Dusk forbid me. And it feels like my stomach is getting heavier, the bigger stomach might make me quite difficult to walk, often back pain, often, and feel tired quickly. I also often feel my feet and ankles swell in the afternoon. 

Last time I went out to the doctor 1 week ago, because my gestational age has entered the 38th week.

Dusk... I miss it.. How can I meet you?

It feels so hard to do this without a husband beside me who will always be on standby at any time. It's not that people around me ignore me...But it feels different, doesn't it? I miss spoiling on him..

Tomorrow is the schedule for checking and checking the content again, because it approaches HPL.

Usually I will be accompanied by mamah, but tomorrow maybe I am alone because mamah will go to Surabaya with papah.

All right Ayung. It's okay!

Imagine that mom suffered more. You must be strong! gotta strong!

"Shhhh.. " I grimaced.Every time I felt pressure on the bottom of my stomach and began to realize that now the position of the baby has slowly dropped to the bottom of my stomach.

Doctors say this condition is called lightening or engagement. In this condition, my lungs and stomach would start to stretch little by little.

The time has shown at 8 pm, and I was unsettled by the position of the back leaning on the head of the bed.

Take the phone, and as usual play the recording like a pod cast of the sound of Dusk greeting baby E..

"Nigth.night son umma..dream beautiful yaaaa. we dream baba come and are here with us... "

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"Iaaang... banguuun.. already at 4 o'clock, shortly after dawn!"

"Euggh??? " I'm moaning. "Baby.appa apparently baba really came to our dream son... " I blinked and gathered consciousness, then stroked my stomach slowly and asked my son to speak.

"Hi Babaa. We want a baba hug.. " In this dream of mine, I hugged Dusk very tightly. Then kissed his face many times.

He just smiled without saying anything. " Don't go. I still want to hug you even in a dream... " I said raucously, still completely unconscious. Because I was so sleepy, I was able to fall asleep at half twelve in the night.

"Remain sweetheart.it's me. "

"Mhmm yes.here!" I clenched my arms together and closed my eyes for a little while, until the dawn of the day reverberated for a few more minutes.

Warm and comfortable.I feel really was holding it while sleeping together, uh. three with my son in one bed.

10 Minutes passed.The sound of Adhan murmuring so sweetly and melodiously in my ears. While gnawing.I patted the empty spot beside me, it turned out that I was really dreaming.

When moving from sleep to sit for a while before standing up.

I'm terlanga.

In front of me..

The sturdy figure that I miss so much is smiling at me while wearing a peci on his head, he finished ablution.

"Senjaaa? " I rubbed my eyes in disbelief at what I see now.

"Are you awake, baby? I'm going to the mosque for a second.. " Said, folding the hands of a white cocoa shirt that adds to his charisma.

Deg.

I'm really stunned.

This isn't a dream?

That's when I held it tightly also turned out not to be a dream?

"I'm not dreaming, am I? " I asked, and only he answered with an oddity.

"Dear no. I'm real! the one in front of you is your husband's twilight.. "

"Senjaaaaa... " I stood up and was about to come closer to hold on tight.

"Darling.I have ablution.want to pray together to the mosque first.. "

"You also pray first.. I pamit.. Assalamu'alaykum's chat.. "

"Wa'alaykumusalam... " I walked towards the bathroom to clean myself and to fetch water.

Performing the obligation of dawn prayer and reading some holy verses of the Qur'an and its meaning.

***

Twilight

Alhamdulillah.pajuan remisiku received, and I was declared good behavior, as evidenced by not undergoing disciplinary punishment in the last 6 months, and I was declared good behavior, as evidenced by not being disciplined in the last 6 months, counting before the date of the grant of Remission.Because on the lapas now I feel my life is more disciplined and better.

And I have also participated in a coaching program organized by lapas with good predicates.

With the general remission of independence as much as 1 month in addition to special religious remission as much as 15 days.. and also additional remission because it has helped coaching activities in Lapas or LPKA as a leader or coordinator of activities.

Then from that... Now I have been declared free from custody and granted parole.

Today is the day I have been waiting for about 36 weeks to be behind bars.

Actually, from the afternoon I was allowed to go home, but because of the rain flushed Bandung until nightfall, finally I decided to wait to subside while saying goodbye to the warden and my fellow inmates in this room. After leaving, I went back to the apartment and met my mother...

Apologize with all our hearts and spill everything after we speak from heart to heart. Deep talk's.

Here's me..

In the house of my wife who is always filled with happiness and gratitude.

I kept silent for a while in front of the gate of the house while staring at the house from a distance.

It's like a dream...

I can put my foot up again here.

Memory after memory.and pieces after pieces of the memory puzzle about Lembayung filled my heart and mind.

I miss the smell of vanilla and cherry fragrance typical of his body..

I miss the look of a red face blushing like a tomato every time he felt embarrassed or misbehaved in front of me..

I miss her beautiful smile on the dimples that add to her beautiful look.

I miss...

I miss holding it tight.

I miss everything about him.

My wife.

Carrying all the longings that have been mountainous until I can no longer stand.

***

Chequek.

I opened the door of Lembayung's room slowly and walked over quietly.

I saw that he was lying there holding his cell phone.

I went straight to the bathroom to make ablution and clean myself after the trip from the apartment here because my clothes were wet with rain water.

Mother forbade me to meet Lembayung in the middle of the night.

"Later disrupt.. "

So said mother.

But I don't want to and can't hold back the longing. I want to see my wife soon. Although still in a slightly tired state.

Rain still faithfully soaks the earth and adorns the sky all night long.

The most important thing is.. Meeting the two of them, I want to see him soon. Meet my son too..

Time showed at 1 am, I took Lembayung's phone.I saw on his screen a portrait of myself.

"You miss me too, baby? " I smiled, then stroked her jet-black mane which half covered the face of the Sleeping beauty Lembayung.

I haven't looked at my face in a long time... I got on the bed and held it tight. Peeping his forehead and head repeatedly. Berdo'a while stroking his belly slowly... Immediately rest a body that is too tired.Thus my eyes finally closed because they can not resist sleepiness anymore.

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