Lembayung Dusk
I want to Change..

Girl

Maybe it's time I'm honest with my friends, all this time I never told them why every time I talk about the delinquent, I like to go straight to blood.

"So, in 10th grade, I liked the same guy.We had different classes, but why am I obsessed with him! "

"We weren't in class yet?" Cut Nindy.

"Who.. who's the guy?" Ayung.

"I know ga? " Tanya Risa's.

"Girls..dengerin first, nanyanya later! " I am also a manyun because from earlier my speech was cut continuously.

"Dad. iyah, reed the lips! " Ayung pinched my cheek.

"You'd be surprised if I told you! " I doubt it.

"Iihh. The hunt who she told us about! "

"Dad the hell Dis. Make us curious! "

"okay.. " I sighed, it was hard to tell the truth.

"Cowok that I liked from the beginning entered SMU.. " I took a deep breath ."Twilight.. "

"WHAT???? "

I thought they would be surprised to hear my honesty.

"Wait girl!! " I stopped talking again.

"But that was before I loved Rama! ".I am really not strong when I talk about Rama, I am devastated and hurt to remember the last time he breathed in front of me and his friends.

"Dis.. " Ayung hugged me and calmed down as usual. He is indeed my most understanding friend, the most gentle and loving.

"Kaliaan. when you don't know how bad I am, when I lose a good person dear to me. " I'm starting to sob.

"Gadiiiis.your pantesan! rich is something you hide from us" Nindy hugged me.

"From the beginning of the story I was chasing after Dusk, with the help of Rama. because I could snore info from him. but because of the nature of the cold Dusk rich iceberg, because of the nature of the iceberg, long time I even love Rama, he was his son good.g ga rough, same attention me! "

"Rama who always took me everywhere until finally he Over Dosage and died. "

"I still hate the same assholes! because of their slang, Rama became an addict! "

"Girl.we can't blame others without knowing the real events of Dis. Maybe it has gone this way. You are strong, O Rama, may Allah forgive all the faults while he lives, we all follow the do'ain. "

"Please Ayung.. Nin.. Rises.. You are the best friend I know. "

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Temporizing

I was shocked, hearing the honesty conveyed by the girl..

Twilight?

How could this secret girl be so long ago. It is only fitting that already discussed the delinquent must be the most keki girl. What kind of person is dusk? ko people even look up and consider him negative mulu.

I thought at first it was so, but after yesterday had a chat in Saraga. A little cold, his face was flat with no expression. He said it was rich in icebergs too, but the same I didn't.

Mmmmmm.. I think, the incident on Friday yesterday he hit Kevin was indeed his fault.that's why I sometimes like ketus, but it turns out the reality.. Kevin who plays victim, ngaku to Pak Rahmat if suddenly Dusk hit without cause.

We can't just judge people unilaterally.. If there is a consequence, there must be a cause. Judging others is not forbidden, but is it not better to see positive values in a person than bad qualities alone? That way, we can appreciate others and ourselves.

"Young... hey.. Why daydream? " Risa patted my shoulder.

"Eh. gapapa"

"We want to go home first, already in the afternoon want Maghrib back again! " Excited Nindy.

"What is Maghrib here? " Rawark.

"I'm not allowed to be with Mother yet"

"Father me too"

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Twilight

Mr. Sharif taught me slowly, taught me about Tawhid first. Aqidah, Akhlak and Adab, then about fiqh.

Aqidah, the main teachings in Islam are things that involve belief or belief in the heart based on the Pillars of Faith.

Akhlak and Adab, so not only live the teachings of faith and charity, but Islam also teaches that all Muslims decorate themselves born and inner with adab and noble character.

Fiqh concerning Aspects of law in Islam include various deeds.Amal-aamal deeds can be divided into two basic categories according to the direction of the relationship. Worship and muamalah.

"So Dusk.try later at home, practice yaa.. learn thaharah ! because according to the Islamic Shari'a we are obliged to be holy from hadas and unclean so that one is allowed to do a worship that is required to be in a holy state such as prayer."

"Peach the way of ablution well.!

"Well pa.. if tomorrow I play here again may sir? " I asked with a little hesitation.

"By oruh.I want to learn if anyone wants to learn! "

"Thank you so much sir, I'll go home first! "

"Oh iyah.in shaa Allah I will introduce to Ustadzh and my teacher during my stay.. Biidznillah " said Mr. Sharif.

I smiled broadly at his statement, right that Mr. Sharif said:

..."Verily Allah will not change the state of a people until they change their own."...

The sentence quoted from the Qur'an letter Ar-Rad verse 11, which can be used as a motivation for those who want to change.

I want to change..

Really want to change..

Ridhoi Ya Allah.

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Mr. Sharif

Today, I have a special guest. How not special..A student who has been considered badung and delinquent, suddenly said he wanted to change.

Thank God, as long as I teach in her class. I can count on the finger how many times the boy came in and followed my lesson.

I could only rub my chest and pray for the child to change.God heard my do'a and maybe the other do'a who were worried about him.

"My sins are many, sir.. "

"The great sin that I thought God could never forgive.. "

"I was***.. drank liquor.. I was a nazpa addict, and there are many other sins that even I am ashamed to say. "

Frankly I was shocked to hear all his confessions, although it did not seem like all he was telling me. But broadly speaking, all this time he was very wrong association.

By trying to speak softly and understandingly, I slowly encouraged her.

"Allah is forgiven, so long as he is sincere and does not repeat! you must pray repentance, repent nasuha! "

As long as I explain, starting from Tawhid which became the foundation. Aqidah and confidence in Allah, and much more I say, and he listened carefully. Not infrequently he shed tears.

That's so sorry, that kid..

For some reason, my instinct as a father felt how thirsty the child for parental affection.

It's all right, son, BarrakaAllah Fiik..

May Allah bless you.

"Baarakallahu Laka Fii Ahlika wa Maalika"

Meaning: May Allah bestow upon you barakah on your family and property (HR. Bukhari)

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