Lembayung Dusk
Holi Day 2: Our Destiny

Temporizing

For me, this is the craziest and most absurd idea that I'm going to do for the first time in my life.

Yes here I'am.

I will against the world.. With an unexpected one!

And what's even crazier? I ask him to get an adventure with me.

That crazy idea just crossed my mind, because I wanted to suppress the pain of seeing Radith making out with another girl.No.I can't be a weak girl crying over her rich guy!

Does every relationship need physical contact?

I did not understand and did not want to try - try to get into the hole.

Although I am not a holy being, I am an ordinary human being who is also sometimes khilaf. Like to follow naf**. But I know it's a sin!

Is it possible because it is in transition, the transition from children to adulthood.Generated in me the desire for the ability to make decisions like adults?

Feel the most right and stick with my choices. Plus there is a limbic system in the brain that further strengthens the emotions in every thought.Without thinking about the risks that will come.

Though I grew up in a perfect environment, I became a submissive Lembayung. And have rules and life goals that everything has been structured.

Now I just realized that I started breaking all of them when Radith asked me to be her boyfriend, selfish me!

Why don't I heed Papah's orders? It's very clear and strict Papah's rules that I can't 'court'.

Now for the first time I feel heartache, it turns out like this. And when I felt it, only those words I remember now.

"wear hijab but dating"

"Ihhh holy pretentious! "

"Entar is also in residence if you are bored"

Argh!

All of that was a sentence made from people who didn't like me in the early days of dating Radith, many of whom sneered at me.

I admit it was all my fault..

but don't blame my hijab ! wrong is me.egoku, my nature.

Because hijab is an obligation for Muslim women, not a choice in how to look.

Hijab is an obligation, not an option.

All you see is the cover. I'm the same as most other teenagers.My nature is also sometimes spoiled.. Sometimes jutek, and there are still many (the properties of the word Star) nyebelin other.

Back to topic..

This is where I am now, in Benoa Harbor to Tanjung Benoa Turtle Island. Together 'He'.

Honestly, I'm actually very afraid to ride a boat or anything that has to do with the middle of the sea. I was traumatized by drowning.

But as Nindy said, I have to fight.

Dusk said that Tanjung Benoa Bali water attractions are quite exciting, offering tours to the island of turtles combined with seeing marine parks off the coast, using glass bottom boat.

He said the Glass bottom boat was an engine-driven boat, but on the bottom floor of the boat there was glass. With a translucent glass at the bottom of the boat, making glass bottom boat passengers can see the beauty of the seabed of Tanjung Benoa beach.

"Are you ready? "Ask Dusk, when we're going to get on the boat.

I fell silent, and pulled the T-shirt.

"You're pale! are you all right Lembayung? "

"I'm fine! "

"Truly all right? are you afraid of getting on a boat? "

I shook my head. Pulling bag Dusk.

"Yes, come on.. "

"But I'm wearing a skirt? "

"Here I help.. " He stretched out his hand.

"But.. " I said doubtfully.

"Oh yeah I forgot. for a second! " He took out a sort of scraft from inside his bag and wrapped his hand with the object.

I cringe.

"If I don't touch you directly.. "

The instant my feelings melted, there was a sense of awe that suddenly touched my heart.

"Thanks Dusk.. " My words are sincere.

And here we were, sitting in a boat that started to move.Suddenly I felt my knees shaking violently. My heart was pumping faster than usual and cold sweat started to drip.

"Senjaaa.. " I closed both eyes, and gripped the T-shirt firmly and then sheltered behind a bag of rangsel that was held by Dusk.

"Ehh.. Lembayung.. You why? " Light seems worried about me.

"I'm scared..!! "

"Are you really afraid of getting on a boat? "

I nodded as I stared at her amber bead.

"Oh my God Lembayung.trus why did you say you wanted to go up? you know, I'm not going to bring you here! " She looked at me worriedly.

"I. a-I want to fight my trauma Dusk! " It was still with my head leaning against his bag, unwilling to look out over the ocean where we were now.At least toward the glass under my feet.

The people who are by our side most of them are foreign tourists are looking at me pity.

I nodded, but my body was still trembling in fear.

I want to get down and touch the ground.

"You ever drowned? " Tanya Dusk distracts me.

"When I was a kid, I was 7 years old. "

"Sink in the pool? "

"Open.. at sea! "

"Come here. Hold on to my T-shirt! "

"Ma.. what do you want? "

"You said you wanted to fight trauma, right? "

"Ga mauuu.fear! "

"Trust me! "

The foreign tourists seemed enthusiastic to see the underwater scenery from the glass.

Twilight nodded his head.

"Bissmillah's.. " Slowly I began to look away at the glass under my feet.

"Ma Shaa Allah.. " I was amazed to see the fish down there.

"good right? "

"That's great.. " I began to stretch my hand on his bag.

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Twilight

"I used to drown on the beach in Sumbawa.The name of the beach is yes I forgot! "

I listened to Lembayung who was wanting to tell a story.

"You lived in Sumbawa as a child? "

"Ngga.. there is only a vacation, and the word mamah.mamah wants to meet his friend who has not met for a long time.he said the person had helped me with my birth.. 1 Hour earlier, she had just given birth. "

"Really's? "

"Mhhmm. and great again, said mamah people who are nolong mamah very young.she was strong woman said mamah! "

"Well, did you live in Sumbawa as a child? " Sanya, her pale face now began to disappear. No more sweat on his forehead.

"Sampe was 8 years old, and I was brought by my Om to Jakarta.stay there until I graduated Junior High. "

"You're in Bandung living alone with mom? "

"No.. I'am alone! my mother lives in Mataram. "

"Ohhh.. "

"I was a child often angered by my mother, because after school always play until maghrib . every sad.. I always go to Rantung Beach or Tropical Beach which is now often used as an International surfing spot .."

"In what village? " He's getting curious, and I'm glad to see that he's not pale anymore.

"Remote villages.. Sekongkang Bawah Village."

"Sekongkang Bawah Village? Really Twilight? you live in that village? "

I also nodded.

"Waaaw.I just remember, I was yaaah.I drowned there tauuu! "

I cringe.

"Well, when I was 7! " He sighed. "I again play sand on the beach, if it used to be very quiet at the beach.trus my family again in a casual conversation. for a long time I was interested in playing the waves that turned out to even drag me to the middle.I really remember there was a boy who wanted me to play! "

Deg.

I was silent listening to her words.

"You were wearing pink clothes back then? " Guess what.

"Ehh.. ko you know? "

"And your legs cramp so hard to swim? "

"Monday..? "

"You know? for years I felt guilty for the girl in pink who drowned because I kept her playing with the waves. "

"Just like? "

I nodded my head staring at the hazel bead twinkle that was now glazed.

"So.are you that boy? you're the one who slipped me? "

"I'm sorry Lembayung. I'm so sorry! " My heart aches at once in light of that event, which happened 11 years ago when I was feeling sad, in my mother's eyes.

At that time I was crying on the beach and it was very anxious to walk with the waves and rolled into the ocean to forget all my sadness.

But a little girl comforted me and made me forget my sorrow.

That girl is you..

this is our destiny.

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