Lembayung Dusk
Juvenile Delinquency (Teenage Delinquency)

Twilight

Once I feel enough, I go back to my apartment. I live alone in an apartment owned by my uncle (mother's sister) who was handed over to me as a gift.

My uncle lives in Jakarta with his family. While my mother now lives in Mataram, papu amaq(grandfather) native kut descent Sasak tribe and papu inaq (grandmother) Sumbawa.

I don't know, I don't really know about the origin of my family, either from my mother or father.

From childhood, since the age of 8 years I have moved from Sumbawa and lived with uncle Nazamuddin in Jakarta.

At that time, my uncle often saw me being treated badly by my mother, so he felt sorry for me and invited me to stay with him.

He and his wife were very kind to me, but I felt bad for being so good, making male cousins my age often envious.

Not infrequently I quarrel because of small problems, for example because my values and achievements are far above his.

Therefore, when going to enter the higher education level, namely SMA.I ventured to live alone and plan to move to Bandung alone.

I want to start a new life without anyone knowing my past. Uncle finally agreed to it and gave me this apartment, he also often sent me monthly money for school and daily expenses.

Sometimes my mother also sends me some money even though the time is not certain.

Very dear, precisely with my move to Bandung became a new problem.without the supervision and attention of uncle, make myself a free-behave Dusk.

It turns out that the past is still a shadow, at the beginning of the semester in class 10 .. My value can still be said to be quite good because it managed to become 3rd in the class.

But soon there is a new transfer student who is now in class with Lembayung, whose name is Kevin came and became a new student.

It changed my life.

Kevin, my cousin and his friends used to bully me in Junior High while attending school in Jakarta.

"Eh. bastard! "

"A ride in doubt! "

"Financial looks! "

"Women jal***!"

"Who's father? "

"Then! "

"Parasitic! "

And there are many more words and sentences that can make mental breakdown. Verbal Bullying..

Maybe because the effects of bullying made me a figure who had been obedient to become a dissident.

Starting from the decline of his learning achievement, and also sometimes I experience anxiety disorders. But I can cover it well by behaving mischievously.

Indeed, most teenagers who experience verbal bullying will grow into individuals with low self-esteem.

Never underestimate.because it is as severe as the effects of bullying or bullying.

I'm not like that..

Verbal abuse that happened to me came from the people closest to me that I call mother, from home environment.friends in the school environment who often say degrading, cornered, disparaging, disparaging words, and stamped me with a negative label.

To resist all those raging feelings.My escape was by smoking, drinking, free s, and there are many more delinquents that I am getting used to doing with my friends.

Perhaps a crisis of identity and weak self-control became the main trigger that shaped me into the Dusk that I am today.

Juvenile Delinquency(adolescent delinquency).

An act that violates norms, rules or laws in society that is done at the age of adolescence, or the transition of children to adulthood.

Adolescent delinquency which is a social pathological symptom in adolescents caused by a form of social neglect which ultimately leads to deviant behavior.

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"Deek. watch yuuuk! "

"Males akh. most watched drakor! " Star sneering.

"Temenin teteh yuuk.kan tomorrow school holidays, continue to have bought a lot of snacks"

"Yes pretty good, but I don't want to watch ya! just want to read a new novel"

"Dad.. "

Me and the Stars are laying in bed, I'm busy watching drakor on my laptop and he's busy reading the new teenlit novel he bought last week at the bookstore, while occasionally eating snacks and chocolates that I buy.

While watching,

Cekreek.

I shot right in the face of handsome om Jo In Sung, this time I Re-watch her drama she is a female lead unnie Gong Hyo Jin.

Quite a fun story, about novelists as well as Dj who have a mental disorder (compulsive obsessive) with a psychiatrist who has the trauma of a relationship s** (Genophobia). And there are also some other phobias experienced by other players.

Sometimes, there are wisdom and lessons that we can take and learn even just from watching drakor, or read novels that talk a lot about various kinds of strange lives, from different human perspectives.

As a person with a perfect life, I have never felt any lack since birth.

My life is indeed flat.Having a complete family, harmonious and loving each other, being the son of a rich businessman, good spiritual life(good religious education), and, the upbringing of the grandfather who incidentally was a great kiayi or cleric who was quite respected in Pasuruan, and had several famous Pesantren huts.

In any case, my life was perfect, without ever having any difficulties like most people.

Makes me determined and aspiring to be a psychologist.

Not a psychiatrist ..because psychologists and psychiatrists are different.

Psychologists and psychiatrists both explore the science of psychology and human development. Both have the same concentration of practice, such as handling, prevention, diagnosis and therapy.

Only, psychiatrists can provide therapy in the form of drugs or pharmacotherapy.

While psychologists focus more on his social problems, such as providing psychological therapy or psychotherapy. Of course, the educational path is a little different.

I often get curious about the lives of people who live on the outskirts, wanting to know how they feel and what their lives are.

Want to know the reason why someone can commit a crime.Want to know what factors are the causes of juvenile delinquency, curious about people with deviant disorders.

And there are still many things I want to learn.

Oh Yeah..There is one more hobby that I have been waiting for, which is to want to adventure..wanted to adventure in the wild.living in the deep..want to do everything outside my daily habit.

Because let alone adventure. Permit out of the house to play with friends was limited. Wish I could adventure in the wild.it's gonna be amazing journey!!

Btw, speaking of juvenile delinquency.I suddenly remembered that hoodlum.

Is it true what my friends say? about the gossip that's circulating? Is that why he's such a delinquent? though it is right to enter the best State High School is not easy.

Haaah? so you think he's a whim? Ohh No! BIG NO'S! he was never on the Lembayung list and circle of my friendship.

Ehh. but how the hell he said he wanted to be a psychologist, but could-can choose a friend, Lembayung you that!

I had a lot to learn about the Emotional Quotient.

Later I open again the papah giving books that discuss ESQ (Emotional Spiritual Quotient).

An old book that specifically discusses how to build the principles of life and basic human character with the radiance of the Pillars of Faith, the Pillars of Islam and Ihsan, so it is expected to be able to create emotional and spiritual intelligence.

Astarghfirullah's.. Sorry about the twilight!

I cursed myself for having crossed my heart about Dusk. Iyeah.. Twilight. Who doesn't know about school?

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