Mahram To Azira
Chapters 20.9

"Murray..." Azira moans uncomfortably in her sleep.

Her eyelids fluttered, staring blankly at the handsome face of her husband who was now looking at her with a very gentle gaze. For a moment Azira forgot how to blink. Ah, or rather he was reluctant to blink his eyes for fear that this handsome face suddenly disappeared from his sight.

"You're finally awake. Why sleep here, hem?" Kenzie felt depressed seeing it like this.

Suddenly he felt guilty seeing his wife like this.

"Mas Kenzie's home." Azira did not answer.

Looking at Kenzie's face now, he suddenly recalled the photo that the foreign number had sent to his number earlier this morning. Her chest feels tight.

"Has Kenzie had lunch?" How foolish he was to ask something that clearly had an answer.

But Azira is stubborn.

"Of course I haven't eaten. Actually I can't eat because I keep thinking about you at home." Answer Kenzie admitted.

Azira smiled wryly. Clearly lying.

"Mas Kenzie lied. I know that Kenzie's lunch is over." Azira said she did not give her husband face.

She told the lies of her husband. Because after thinking about it, he can't keep doing this. This problem must meet a bright spot. Whether her husband will maintain this relationship or not, Azira is ready to listen to his answer. She doesn't want to be like her mother. Tortured long for an unattainable love. Azira wanted to leave, go as far as possible leaving this wound.

"I'm not lying, my wife. I haven't eaten yet. The operation was completed at 9am. And then I rested for a while in my room before starting to go around my patient's condition. Almost 11 pm I went back to the room to process some documents and after that went home after performing the Zuhr prayer in the hospital." Kenzie explained honestly.

To be honest what Kenzie didn't say was that he hadn't had breakfast in the hospital either. After the surgery and want to rest for a while in his room. At that moment his mind was still muddled at the thought of Azira's pitiful words of despair and not to mention the problem of her phone disappearing. Anyway he should get that phone no matter what. Because there are so many secret photos of his wife inside.

So with all these problems, was it possible that he still had time to think about food?

"Working in a hospital is exhausting. But you keep lying, man. You had lunch at the hospital. I don't really care if Kenzie's lunch is at the hospital. But what I'm concerned about is Kenzie eating lunch with Amara, alone. I know maybe according to Kenzie mas I'm a jealous woman, maybe it bothers Kenzie mas, I'm sorry about that. But mas, I think any woman would feel jealous to see her husband eat alone with another woman. What's more that woman is Kenzie's past. Surely there will be a lot of negative thoughts when you see the two of you even though Kenzie mas said if you two were just friends. But whose heart knows. Mas Kenzie," her brown irises looked fixedly at her husband's handsome face.

For a moment she hoped that these eyes could perpetuate every side of her husband's face so that later if they both separated later Azira at least not too tortured by longing.

"If Kenzie can't escape the past and if Kenzie still misses Amara, then I'll walk away from both of you. To be honest I recently thought maybe the test I'm going through right now is a form of punishment from God for me for hurting Humairah and destroying Kenzie's marriage. Maybe this is a punishment for the shameless. Mom, I'm a stubborn woman. Just as my mother was about to leave immediately after getting a rejection from Dad, I could do that as well. I will not ensnare Kenzie's mas in this forced marriage and I will not waste Kenzie's time with me in this marriage. I won't mas. If Kenzie still loves Amara, then just say it in person. Don't let me be a surrogate, act like a clown who bothers Kenzie's eyes, I don't want to be a substitute for him. I don't want to. It feels really painful. It's me tightness and pain, I don't like feeling this pain. And so, my lady, please... If this is my punishment for everything I do to you then please stop. I really have no power to endure this pain anymore. This punishment is too much for me, my mother. Please just let me go. I really can't hold it anymore." Please Azira sobbing in pain.

He had thought about it carefully and had secretly made a decision in his heart. Despite wanting to survive in the hope that one day her husband will turn back his love, but Azira feels that he is not that strong to the point of the day. For only a few days had Amara returned, her heart had been torn apart. It's very unbearable.

It was painful, O God, Azira could not hold it all.

"Azira, baby.hey, don't cry." Kenzie's reddened eyes held back the pain and anger inside his chest.

Starting from the astonishment of hearing his wife continue to say that he lied until finally feeling angry because his wife begged to leave his life! Kenzie won't let it all happen!

"Mas Kenzie.. stop." Azira tries to get her husband's hand off her face.

The more attention Kenzie gets, the more tormented Azira becomes. He did not want to be constantly tossed about in this pain.

He's feeling tired. Really very tired.

She is not the woman her husband wants. Not the woman her husband expected. And she was not a woman who could make her husband fight hard to conquer a dream. She was not Amara, the woman who always lived in her husband's heart.

"Azira listen!" Kenzie pressed Azira's shoulders firmly to stare directly at him.

"I warned you before Azira that once you get into that part of my life, you will never be able to leave even if you want to. You can't, whether you beg or cry bitterly in front of me, I'm sorry Azira, I won't let you go." Speak angry and sad.

He refuses Azira's request. Never, Azira will never leave in her life because Kenzie will never let that happen. No, Azira is his. No one can take Azira from her.

"But Kenzie-But"

"I'm not done talking. Don't cut my word first." Cut the cold Kenzie.

Azira surprise. Kenzie is angry at the moment. Azira should not have listened to any explanation from her husband, but she could not, her husband was too scary. Even now, Azira did not dare to look directly into her husband's eyes.

"Put your head, don't duck. Don't you want to hear the truth from me?" Kenzie's voice was cold.

Azira was forced to raise her head and stare at the cold face of her frightening husband. Azira was always afraid to see her husband, because whenever her husband was angry she would look creepy. Just like this time. So afraid, Azira did not dare to continue her crying anymore.

For a moment Kenzie wanted to laugh seeing the depressed look on his wife's face. But the anger in the chest gives Kenzie a reason to stay cool to Azira.

"I don't know where you found out about my meeting with Amara at the hospital. I met him at lunchtime. He took me to sit at a table filled with food. Amara wanted to thank me for what happened that day and asked me to have lunch together. But I refused it. I told you the truth, out of nowhere you knew the news, the fact that I was sitting there for a while but when he asked me to have lunch together, I immediately refused and rushed back to my room. I'm not lying, I haven't eaten anything this afternoon. My head doesn't have time to think about food because you're on my mind. Not to mention the problem of my lost and undiscovered cell phone to this day, do you think with these two problems are you maybe I can still eat?" Her tone slowly softened as the expression on Azira's pretty face changed.

Perhaps Azira did not expect to hear this explanation from her husband at all. Her husband spoke very sincerely now. It's a lie that Azira doesn't feel touched. She was very, very fond of her husband using a gentle tone and voice when talking to her.

It feels wrong to be hugged.

But what did her husband say?

"Mobile Kenzie's missing?"

Kenzie nodded grimly.

"My phone's been missing since that incident. I don't remember putting it where. And I didn't know that you called me that day. If I knew you were contacting me, then I would have responded to your call immediately. But I don't know anything. Regretting leaving you alone in the villa, I plan to go straight back to the villa after delivering Amara to the hospital. But it just so happened that the hospital contacted me. There's an important patient I need to deal with right away. It's the same emergency as last night. Without a doubt I chose you. I gave up my duties as a doctor to pick you up at the villa. But Nabil prevented me from leaving. He said that you had been driven home by his personal driver. It was hard to believe what he said, but my position that night was also unfavorable because I could not back down from my duties. That night I did not return. But before entering the operating room, I took the time to call home. But no one raised. I thought you were mad or sleeping so the call from me that night just passed. Azira, my relationship with Amara is not what you think. In the past, I still thought of him as a friend but now it is no longer after I know what he did to frame you. I'm sorry Azira has let you down. I guess he's changed because he hasn't seen each other in years, but he's still the same person. Amara was actually a good friend, except for the feelings she had for me. I'm fine with his character. But if he dares to hurt you then for me we have no friendship anymore. And I think my debt was settled when I sent him to the hospital."

Her husband did not pick up the phone or return messages from her. No matter how angry Kenzie is, she doesn't think her husband will go that far. But...

A debt of gratitude?

As if seeing curiosity in Azira's heart, Kenzie understandingly explained the debt of gratitude that occurred in the past.

"I didn't know Amara. Although she often came to take the initiative to talk to me at school, my attitude was always flat because I had the principle that women and men cannot have long-term relationships without commitment. Maybe I learned it from my family environment that in fact does not like close relationships between the opposite sex even though we are still children. But I started compromising with Amara when she saved my life when I drowned in the pool"

Azira's eyes suddenly puffed up in surprise. She held her husband's arm nervously. Her husband almost lost his life.

Kenzie's heart softened, this little attention alone made his heart very happy. She was happy Azira cared about her.

Keep talking, "It just so happens that I haven't been able to swim at the time and have trouble saving myself. Luckily, there was Amara there. He saved me. And as you guessed after that we started making friends. But Amara doesn't want to just be friends because she likes me. Many times she urged me to date her, counting my favor. I promised to return the favor to him but not with a date. The obvious answer is I don't want to date even if she saved my life. After my rejection, suddenly rumors spread everywhere that I was dating Amara. Since I don't think it's a serious matter, I'm silent and don't clarify the truth of the rumors. Until finally in our last year of school, she asked me to date again. Again I refuse. Not only did I not like the concept of dating but I also did not like Amara. For me Amara is nothing more than a friend. He was very disappointed in me and made another request. Because I can't be his girlfriend then he wants me to be a doctor, which is a career he can't reach for for several reasons. I really didn't like this job at first. Actually I want to continue Abah's work. He studied business and then went to school abroad before returning to Indonesia to take over Abah's job. But in order to get rid of this debt, I was forced to go to medical school. And it goes on as you know I'm now a surgeon at one of the private hospitals." Tired of their position, Kenzie let go of his wife's shoulder and switched to sitting in a lounge chair. While chatting with Azira, he spread out the thin blanket he brought to Azira's body to make it warmer.