Mahram To Azira
Chapters 24.1

What Azira said made a lot of sense. When he met Al, he never thought and instead thought positively. Because he knew the short past he had gone through with Al, it meant nothing. Al's feelings for him are just a momentary monkey's love, not his true feelings. And for example Al has feelings for him, then those feelings must have been erased years ago. Because during this period of time they never met or exchanged greetings. Only yesterday did God tell them to meet again. Azira did not think much.

"I believe in you. Okay, I'm sure you won't have any more relationship with him, I'm a firm believer. But I beg of you, please don't get too close to him. I don't like it and I don't calm down. I'll get angry when you get close to her again, I don't accept, my wife." Kenzie finally chose not to continue this conversation.

Azira has made it clear many times that his wife does not have any relationship with other men, he believes, really. But that doesn't mean he's okay to see Azira close to other men. Don't tell me this jealousy is unnatural or excessive, because normally a married couple should be like this. Jealousy of a partner is a natural thing in married life. Jealousy of a spouse may be justified in religion because Allah and the believer literally mentioned in the hadith also have jealousy.

Abu Hurairah's friend Ra narrated the hadiths of jealousy of God in a hadith, which is,

وقال رسول الله صلى الله عليه و سلم إن الله تعالى يغار والمؤمن يغار وغيرة الله تعالى أن يأتي الرجل المؤمن ما حرم الله عليه

Meaning: “From Abu Hurairah's friend ra, Rasulullah saw said, ‘Allah has jealousy. Even the believer is jealous. Jealousy of Allah is when a believer commits a prohibition forbidden by Him" (HR Muttafaq alaih).

Although allowed, Islam still provides a limit for jealousy so as not to fall into blind jealousy. Excessive jealousy or blind jealousy, just by following prejudice alone, is an unnatural jealousy and is a jealousy forbidden in religion. Blind jealousy makes the relationship or communication of the couple unhealthy. For example, such as suspecting a partner of doing nothing, or accusing the partner of having done a reprehensible act in hindsight, no, Kenzie's jealousy is not like this. The jealousy he felt now was more to not be happy to see his wife close to the opposite sex. He does not like it and more so feels unworthy, because his wife is his personal right.

Kenzie has a foundation for his current jealousy because it has been explained through Imam Al-Ghazali's quote from Sayyidina Ali bin Abu Talib Ra's message so that couples do not often feel suspicious or jealous of their partners because it is not good in a couple's relationship.

وقال علي رضي الله عنه لا تكثر الغيرة على أهلك فترمي بالسوء من أجلك وأما الغيرة في محلها فلا بد منها وهي محمودة

Meaning: “Sayyidina Ali bin Abi Thalib said, ‘Don't be so jealous of your family that you accuse bad.’ As for jealousy on the place of course must and it is commendable,” (Al-Ghazali, 2018 M/1439-1440 H: II/53)

His jealousy was not blind and was clearly commendable for wanting to protect his household.

"Mas Kenzie, my God, the man is too honest. But I like it because Kenzie wants to be honest. By the way, Kenzie should know maybe this is how I feel when I see Kenzie chatting with Amara. Suddenly reached the villa mas Kenzie and Amara immediately chatted, looking very close. Kenzie's treatment that afternoon made me feel neglected. Maybe I was more precisely eliminated. I thought Kenzie understood what my heart was worried about at the time, but it turned out that Kenzie didn't care and instead chose to leave me alone, then went to join Amara and the others. Too childish maybe that's in Kenzie's mind now because again I bring up the problems that have passed. But what should I do, my mother? This matter left a deep trace in my heart. Maybe it was my mother's failed marriage that made me a worried person right now. If you say angry, maybe not angry some time ago. Let's just say I'm not angry anymore. But remembering the way Kenzie treated me that day is so hard to forget. Honestly, every time I thought of my heart would throb the pain of being disappointed. Even if Kenzie did it by accident, it still cannot change the fact that I managed to cry made by Kenzie mas." The more here Azira was more reminded of the problems that they both went through for some time.

May she ask if there is a woman or a wife who can forget the disappointment they feel to the husband who once incised a wound in the heart. Even if it was done unintentionally, Azira wondered if there was a woman or wife who could forget the cause of her injuries came from?

Azira hesitates. He believes everyone can't but everyone reacts differently. Some are indifferent, some choose sincerely or maybe back to hold it.

Everyone has a way.

Azira was too.

He was already not angry but could not forget how Kenzie treated him badly that day. Due to the lessons of the past, he had a hard time letting go of every wound.

"I'm sorry, I know how much sorry I told you couldn't erase the trail of the wound I left behind. But I am powerless my wife, other than to say sorry to you so many times, I quietly pray to Allah that my heart will always be guarded for you and our household will always be in the protection of Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala. Because I don't want to lose you and on the other hand I just want you to be my life partner. How foolish I was that day, I could never have been in that time even though I wished I could. But I promise not to repeat the same mistakes and think more critically before taking action. I was embarrassed because back then the game wasn't in my hands, I failed and instead got you hurt. I'm sorry my wife..." His voice is full of seriousness.

I don't know how many times he cursed himself for being careless. To worry about Amara's life, stupid he to doubt his own wife. Stupid is stupid, because of this mistake he has made his wife cry and disappointed in just a short time.

Really, he felt like he was the vile man in the world.

Azira smiled shyly, her heart so softened whenever she saw the face pleading for her helpless husband. Blame her for loving her husband too much.

"I told you, Mom, that I'm not angry. I just remember, that's it." She felt guilty seeing her husband's face.