Mahram To Azira
Chapters 24.9

"Bright..." Laughter exploded.

If he could he might now have been rolling on the ground. But it's a pity that today he still has hours of college.

"Well, that's so evil. People are sad but mated. Uda Tio, mending you go before I really cry." Mona is really sad.

This morning he was so sad that he deliberately came here to calm himself. Should have sat here for a long time made it a lot quieter a little bit. But because of Tio's arrival, his sad heart became even more sad. No one knows what he's been feeling all along. Doesn't anyone really know?

It is true that whenever she is sad, Mona will not tell anyone even to her own mother. Rather than recounting her grief, she would rather keep it all in silence. Yeah, soaking everything in silence and spilling out what she felt in the room alone. No one in the room knew she was crying. No one knew how big the wound in his heart was that it made him cry sobbing. No one knows.

Yet once in a while he felt disappointed because how could the people around him not be aware of his mood?

Am I too good at hiding my feelings?

Or maybe those people don't really care about how I feel?

I don't want him to ask this question in his heart.

Ah... The more he thought about it, the more depressed he became.

Yes, and for this reason he has not been to Sasa's house for a few days.

He was injured, he needed time and place to treat his own injuries. Silence sat in a corner while licking her injured knee, like that's the picture she's been doing in recent days.

Then his heart was further torn apart after speaking casually with Sasa this morning.

Huh... So it's like this. Thought sorry.

"Okay, sorry. I don't mean to ridicule you, seriously. In fact, I deliberately sing the children's songs to make you happy and entertained." Seeing Mona's silence, Tio finally stopped laughing.

For them Mona is cheerful and rarely cries. At most if again sprained or angry, the duration is short, because after that he will laugh wherever he goes that makes them walk their own heads. The character of Mona is unique.

"I'm not amused at all." Mona said scowling.

"I'm sorry if you're not amused. You're better off because of what the hell? Must be Yana's problem again?" Guess Tio.

Usually the cause of Mona's anger is Yana, Mona's adopted sister. Yana is also their cousin. But Yana's parents died as children so Mama and Mona's father took the initiative to adopt Yana. They made Yana an adopted child and treated her like a child of their own. It's no secret that Mona is often jealous to see her foster sister being treated well by her parents. But no one takes Mona's jealousy seriously. People in the family thought that Mona was too childish and immature, even though she had gone to college. In fact, according to them, Yana is much more mature than Mona, who is two years older than Yana.

"Don't call him anymore." Mona said grimly.

Yana is rarely at home because she lives in a boarding house. But a few days ago Yana came home because she finally graduated from school in a boarding school. Said mom and dad, they plan to enroll in Yana school at her college. Mona is very much against this. She doesn't want a school with Yana but no one wants to listen to her voice.

"Well, guess what. Mona, I understand you must be jealous to see your parents get too close to him. But think carefully about Yana's situation. He must have trouble without parents. Be thankful she was picked up by your parents because that way Yana can feel the sweetness of a house. Try to imagine if until your parents raise their hands and do not want to bring Yana home, his life must be down now. It's good to have a new member at home, you're not alone and the house becomes more alive. Everything's useful, right? Forget this, okay? It's all over. They've been bringing Yana home for years and you should be more peaceful. For your sake, they sent Yana to the boarding house. And now that he has returned home you must learn to accept and give in, for he has given up for you." Tipping off Yana's problems may be a little sensitive for Mona.

Tio as a brother tried to give understanding to his cousin's sister so as not to be too late in the same problem. They are now adults, no longer children who play jealous. Therefore Mona must rise and begin to fix herself, learn to be an adult.

"It's really not what you think it is.... But by the way thank you for your advice." Mona smiled faintly.

See right?

No one really understood his feelings in that house. They don't understand what it's like to be put aside by their own parents. It hurts so much, it hurts to the point where Mona asks herself if she was the child her parents were born with or was Yana the one they were born with right?

Because it's... Because Mona always noticed that her parents were leaning too much towards Yana.

Whatever Yana wants must always be obeyed by her parents. If Yana wanted this, then her parents would soon fulfill it. And if Yana wants that, her parents will not hesitate to directly obey her. Mona does not mind the material, which Mona is concerned about is the attitude of her parents who are too friendly with Yana.

Yana is sick just a little, then her parents will immediately panic. Bela-belain goes far out of town to find Yana. He was just the common cold but exaggerated. And what makes Mona most disappointed is that when her turn hurts, her parents are not that fast. They might not be aware of the situation if not Mona herself complained.

Complain that he is not feeling well, his throat is dry, his tongue is bitter, or his head is dizzy. But look at the reaction given by his parents, "They just say drink paracetamol and sleep. When you wake up, you'll be better."

Haha...

At that moment he was eager to laugh in the midst of the discomfort felt. Is this still his parents?

"Okay, stop being sad. Special today I'm willing to treat you to food. Whatever message you want, let me pay." Tio threw his wallet at Mona.

The wallet fell right in front of Mona. He just glanced at her but had no intention of taking it.

"I want to go home first." Mona got up from her seat preparing to leave.

Tio hurriedly took his wallet and chased after Mona.

"Well, you still have two more courses today. No papa if you skip Mr. Al's lesson, I won't admit you're the same uncle from aunt. But if you skip all the subjects, I'm sorry, I have to tell them." Tio deliberately scares his cousin.

Mona shrugged her shoulders unconcerned. He was sure that this cousin of his did not dare to do that.

"By the way there."

Tio scratched his non-itchy head, he was frustrated facing this cousin of his who was extremely stubborn.

"Duh, Mona, you don't go bad. Take a look at your sister Yana, she never skipped the tables while studying at the boarding school." Tio said, Take the name Yana again.

Mona smiled wryly. She was compared to Yana. They say Yana is more diligent, smart and intelligent. During the cottage in the boarding school Yana never skipped school and was famous for being diligent.

Want to truant how, the boarding house is tight. Strangely enough. Mona's mind feels funny.

If the situation plays out, Yana goes to school outside and she goes to school in a boarding school, then the story is the same. He would never skip the boarding school, not diligently but because he could not do it. The boarding house is too tight.

"I'm not Yana." Mona replies indifferently while speeding up her steps to the campus library.

At first he wanted to go home immediately, but suddenly he remembered the task the lecturer had given him yesterday. He had no choice but to turn towards the campus library.

Dert

His phone vibrated lightly. He glanced at who was sending the chat, it turned out to be Sasa.

Sasas

Mona fell silent, pondering for a moment she finally moved her fingers to answer.

^^^ Outside, why?^^^

A few seconds later there was a reply from Sasa.

Astaghfirullah, you skipped class? I was looking for it in your class. Why are you truant?

^^^Again badmood. Hang out in the park with Tio. Ditching once is also okay, count my absent stock that is too neat.^^^

Where, tumben? Badmood because what?

^^^No, suddenly badmood. Are you finished with your class?^^^

Well, this is weird kid. Don't you bother the jinn?

Haven't.

Mr. Al was again in front.

The lecture was so exciting, you didn't come.

Oh yes by the way, last time your absence was sought after by Mr. Al. I thought you were going to the bathroom, uh know-how truant.

So insolent.

Watch out tomorrow your value is problematic with him.

^^^Nothing, he just ngisi class bentar doang because tomorrow Mr. Daman must be back to teaching again.^^^

After sending the last message, Mona clicked on the mood do not disturb so as not to be noisy while in the library later. After that he put his phone into his pocket, ignoring the new message from Sasa.

After securing his phone into his clothing pocket, he immediately entered the library. The campus library is no different than any other library. There was no commotion and the room was filled with silence even though the people who came there were quite a lot. Everything takes care of each other's business. Some read books, do assignments, and search for books. They don't bother each other. With this silence, Mona thinks that this place is worthy enough to calm down. But unfortunately students are not allowed to linger in the library. At most they were allowed only 2 or 3 hours inside, even if what they were working on had to be certain. If they had come just to sit idly by doing nothing, the library staff would have definitely expelled them.

"She, I don't care about anywhere." Mona muttered while casting her mind away.

Entering the innermost library, he looked for a book on sociology of law by one of his Lecturers on campus. His friends said that the work of this lecturer is only a little in the library and may have been borrowed by other students, so they advised him to buy books only so as not to bother. But Mona doesn't want to just give up. He had to make sure himself that the book did not exist, just went to buy.

"Sociology of law.." Whisper while searching for the book on a row of shelves.

Almost 10 minutes later he had passed two bookshelves but still could not get them.

"Is the book on the front shelf?" He thought, "just try to find out, who knows."

He went to the front shelf to continue his mission of searching for books. However, just now that he had started to search his eyes suddenly caught onto someone he wanted to avoid.

"Sir Al tumben came here.."

"Yes, who is the woman next to him? A boyfriend?"

"Don't talk weird. At most it's one of his tutoring students."

In the silence their whisperings were heard so clearly in Mona's hearing.

Mona blinked lightly, her eyes fixed on Al and Sasa who were standing side by side in front of the library staff desk.

Sighing deeply, Mona drew her gaze from them and walked away towards the exit. His chest was tight, he could not breathe smoothly within the library.

"Ah... I don't seem to have any way out but to buy books."

...*****...

Mona went home and went straight into the room. At first, he wanted to stop by the bookstore, but because he was not in the mood, he decided to go to the bookstore another day. His college work was not in a hurry either. There are still a few days left to finish it.

"Assynogaal?" The house is empty, there is no one at home.

Neither my mom nor dad went anywhere.

"They must have gone to Abah's house." Mona murmured not to take a headache.

Since there was no one in the house he went straight into the room. Threw his college bag on the table and threw himself on the bed. Silent, his eyes stared blankly at the monotonous ceiling of his room. Silent in silence, his nose began to hurt and his eyes ached. A few seconds later his vision became blurry.

Tik

Tears flowed from the corner of his eyes.

"Hiks..sick." His whisper was in pain as he hugged his tight chest.

"It hurts, God!"

His hand was banging on the chest, hoping that by hitting him the pain could disappear. But no matter how hard he tried the pain did not go away, the clearer it felt. Mona is not happy, Mona does not want to feel this pain anymore.

The pain where his heart was so tight, even breathing was difficult. Could this be what people out there are saying that the pain that his chest is feeling is a pain that is very painful but does not bleed.

If that's what people mean, then Mona would rather feel a bloody wound than this bloodless wound.

"I... I've been trying to forget her, but why.... why..why does it feel so hard?!" Mona asked confusedly on the sidelines of her cries.

"My first love... clapped one hand, I already knew and realized it clearly but why is my heart still unable to let go of him? I'm.really useless. I am a very sickening bully! He deserves to hate me! I was in so much pain with this feeling but why would my heart not let go..hiks..why God?"

He fell in love with an amazing man. The man is good, has a very good appearance, and his religious knowledge does not need to be asked. At first glance, he is the dream of women.

Mona fell in love, her heart fell so much that she did all kinds of ways to pursue her heart. But the way he did actually made his heart feel nauseous and fed up, hoping he, a parasite bully to not come looking for him again.

It hurts so much, God.