Mahram To Azira
Chapters 1.2

Slowly I approached my mother, with a careful movement I lifted my mother's vibrating head up on my thighs. Position it well and try to make it as comfortable as possible over my thighs.

“Mother..Mother..” Call me worried.

My dirty hands carefully wiped her face, removing the wet hair on her pretty face.

My mother did not answer immediately and only gave a prolonged cough in response. This heavy and painful coughing made me even more afraid, especially when his trembling hands revealed fresh viscous blood coming from his mouth made me lose air to breathe. It must have hurt a lot.

I was scared, very scared.

“Zi-Zira's chat..Son, I'm sorry, Son.” Say to my mother with great difficulty.

Somehow hearing my mother say something like this made me realize something, I felt a bad feeling that I never wanted to imagine before. A hunch that implies there will be tremendous pain I get later. A pain I never imagined before and it really scared me to death.

I thought this feeling of fear was long dead but in fact when I saw my mother was as weak and sick as this really turned on my long-sleeping fears.

“To-“ My breath is restrained.

“Do not…. Don't cry for this despicable woman.” My mother's voice again with the sound of a dashed breath.

It's scary, even without me noticing her pale, thin hands are now stroking my face trembling. Making me desperately cry over my helplessness at this moment seeing her beautiful face that was now full of bruises and pale was staring at me full of affection. This look, I haven't seen it in a long time.

Maybe ever since my mom got into that dark world.

“Mother-“ Mother touched my lips, not allowing me to say a word.

Even my mother's trembling hands started to feel cold and stiff.

“Don't be like this despicable woman, don't you take what they say into your heart because you're not Mom, son.kamu.kamu.kamu.." My mother's breath began to falter again, even when saying this word she was so troubled and endured pain.

“Mother..Ms..ayo we go to the hospital.” I persuaded him while trying to raise his body carefully, but my mother refused him with a desperate coil.

Was he so helpless with the pain in his body?

“Azira, you.you are not an illegitimate child, son. You.have a Father.he and Mother were married but.he. Son, you are a good girl. Forgive your mother who has been lousy and useless while raising you, forgive your mother who has been harsh and rude to you, son. That I did so you wouldn't be such a stupid and careless Mother, I didn't want to see you become this kind of Mother. Falling into the abyss of life just because of your mother's stupidity..Son, Mother-“

“Azira knows, Mom. Azira understood so I don't have to apologize to me because more importantly now we have to take Mom to the hospital. Mom, let's go to the hospital because Azira doesn't want me to stay..Bu.hiks.”

“Nak..Mom is too weak. Lb..hah..hah.maaf..” My mom started losing breath.

Even his body was shaking violently because of the pain. I'm afraid to look at it like this and I don't know what to do. Following fear and instinct, I carried my mother's trembling body into my arms and held her firmly.

And sure enough, after a long time I hugged my body vibrated My mother began to calm down again so that I could breathe with relief because my mother was not shaking so much anymore. But not long after that I began to feel panic again when I felt my mother's body now become stiff and cold.

No, my mother's body was cold and stiff from the start so it was only natural that she was like this.

But it wasn't as cold as it was at first.

I lifted my face from above his head, then my right hand began to feel my mother's battered pale face carefully and gently. Then I touched her big beautiful eyes with a curious look as to why they were closed as if they would never open again forever.

Yeah, why is my only angel now fast asleep?

There was no warm and lively breath from him anymore, his once delicate and delicate facial skin now felt rough and cold. There was no more warmth from his body and there was only cold, only coldness that I felt there. I wonder, did he finally leave me?

His eyes were completely shut and his breath was?

I did not feel the warm breaths that living humans have. So did he really leave me?

“Mother..why did you leave me?” I now realize that my mother is no more.

He has been taken away by the Lord whom you all glorify. The God you say lovingly does not apply to me in this world. Even my only loved one, he took me by force, made me now alone and lonely in this disgusting world.

And because my mother was taken away by Him, I am not sure I can face this world as naturally as you do because I have no one here. I'm alone.

Smiling wryly, I once again hugged my mother's cold stiff body. Kasian, my mom is cold and needs something warm so I hugged her instead.

“Mother, sleep soundly and do not worry anymore about the rich woman. If he comes back here again I'll never let him make you. So, sleep well Mother because I will take care of you, always.”

God, if my life and my mother's life are useless in this world then why did You create us?

Why did You send us into the world when our lives were created only to suffer!

Lord, are you not cruel?

You are cruel and unfair to both of us. Trapping us in endless suffering, Lord.are we just pawns of pleasure for You?

So, is that happy?

This foreign feeling I really don't know him. A forbidden feeling that was never created for me and for my mother by God. Yes, God, I'm following your game and I'm going to make sure that the ruthless people you're protecting out there can feel what pain is, that special feeling you gave me and my mom.

I'm waiting for him.