My CRUEL husband (S1&S2)
No way!!!

...Soundtrack//become each other's tears-hyolin sistar//...

...Do I have no right to be happy?....

...-mina-is...

    I have finished bathing and cleaning the house and cooking for the Astan mas.Mas Astan is still asleep in the mattress, he said he wanted to take a holiday today.

Sultan mah free yekan!!.

"Wake up, take a shower for breakfast." I touched Astan's shoulder slowly.

Mas Astan was completely unwilling to move from his current position.

The end of this mas Astan a little difficult to wake up ah exactly it is always difficult.

I approached kissing the lips of Astan slowly.

Look at this pervert, just kissed right up.

"Ihhh mas loose first, just take a shower let us have breakfast." Astan still holds me tight.

Cup,,, uh,,,

Mas Astan kissed my lips again and again and lastly with a gentle suction.

"You deliberately go fishing Mas early in the morning gini, you don't know well that your lips are very tempting, make the entire nerves so tense Mas." Mas Astan took out his tongue licking my lips.

I tried to get up but Mas Astan held it.

"Bandi used to dong Mas, besides not wearing clothes that ngk shy Mas? " I covered the body of Mas Astan who was exposed to the blanket earlier.

Mas Astan even smiled smirk"You love to see my unclothed body?"Mas Astan's.

Geez, there is no end to this Mas Astan bawl.

"Bath bath well I wait at the table, not long ago Mas." I walked out of the room and at a glance I heard a rant from Mas Astan.

My heart is still the same pounding when near Mas Astan.

All this happiness feels like a dream and is inappropriate for someone like me.

But I want to be selfish and happy too.

Although I do not know until when this happiness will be felt.

I sat in the chair waiting for Mas Astan to come.

Suddenly my hape rang and revealed Mas Ken's name on the screen.

What do you think because we have not been in contact since a long time because Mas Ken is very busy.

I was so shocked to hear Mas Ken's notice that the e-hape I was holding fell to the floor.

So also with my body that is squeezed helplessly with a puddle of tears that feed the river in my eyes.

It hurts and hurts I can't think straight anymore.

Please tell me I heard wrong.

Please tell me I'm sleeping and dreaming right now.

I don't believe and I don't want to believe what I know.

Cannot be.

Not likely.

You can't,,,,,, you,,,,,.

"Hikss,,, father, torment, "I cried as hard as I could on that cold floor.

I hit my chest that was so stifling, I haven't felt this pain in a long time.

Am I not entitled to happiness in this life?.

Why am I always given sad things while I live?.

"Hiks, "I kept crying not knowing what to do now.

"Hey, why are you, baby? " Mas Astan hugged me tightly and hit me on the back slowly.

I kept crying without a word to explain why I could cry to Mas Astan.

My tears represent words I cannot speak.

It feels really torture.

After a long journey in the afternoon almost maghrib we just arrived in my village.

After I told Mas Astan about what happened to Mr. Mas Astan immediately took me home to see the truth.

I don't know why Mas Astan would come here, but Mas Astan hates you so much.

I can't believe that right now in front of me is my father's grave.

Even on his last day I couldn't see his peaceful face.

I immediately sat down to hug the cough of a headstone bearing the name of the father while crying as hard as I could.

I have no one else in the world.

It hurts when our only family leaves us alone in this cruel world.

What is this pain that Mas Astan felt all this time? Worth the hatred of Mas Astan uncontrollable first.

I cried as hard as I could.

Mas Astan and Mas Ken were silent to make room for me to vent all the pain I felt.

"Mas was also very surprised when people came here to tell me that he ended his life at home, they wanted to wait until you were found but because there was no sign you would come they chose to bury the father." Ken explained.

Why does it have to be the father who experiences all this? Why am I not the only one like this.

I always hurt my father, I made my father lose the woman he loved so much mother and now I make you lose his own life.

Why I even happy there with Mas Astan without knowing the father who suffered here.

"I'm sorry I was late, so many times Mas has come here but never met the father." Mas Ken's.

I kept crying imagining how miserable my father was alone here and finally chose to end his own life.

"Hiks,, father, forgive mina sir, why did you leave, justin mina follow him, "I hugged the tombstone even tighter.

Mas Astan came to my side and hugged me but I refused.

"Hey, what's wrong with you?" The amazon mas Astan.

I don't deserve the warmth of that hug, I don't deserve to be loved, loved let alone cared for.

Mas Astan must have been in pain all this time, I just realized and felt what it was like to be alone in this world without family and also people we love.

Astan had been feeling this pain.

I cried as hard as I could in front of my father's grave with a feeling of helplessness.

Mas Astan again wanted to give me a hug but I pushed Mas Astan's body hard.

"I want Mas to leave now, I don't want to see Mas again, hysterically, "I doubt after saying that.

I actually need Mas Astan, I need his embrace I need the power of Mas Astan.

But it doesn't feel appropriate.

Astan looked surprised to hear my words.

"Hey, honey, why are you? " Mas Astan held my hand but I threw it hard.

"Hiks, are you deaf? I told you Mas to get out of here, hicks, I hate it." I'm crying so much.

Mas Astan shook his head"No, you're lying now, you know I know every time you lie your lies are always clearly visible, why are you like this? "Mas Astan still wants to hold my hand.

I smiled as if it was funny when my heart was hurting at the moment" Hahaha Mas was satisfied right? We're just as broke-even now, isn't this what Mas wants? Life paid for with life?I've lost my father now so does Mas still need to torture me?the reason Mas married me was for revenge right?now that my dyva life has been avenged by my father's departure, so can we stop now?"I don't know why I put out that harsh word.

It's not something my heart wants.

Mas Astan looked surprised by my words, Astan eyes reddened with tears, his lips trembled unexpectedly I could say that.

"Darling, why are you like this?I know you love me so you're pretending right now." Astan tried to get closer but I backed off.

I'm again laughing fake"yah mas love? I don't even know what and where is the love that you call? Is it when I am resting at your feet or am compelled to obey all Your commandments? That's the love that Mas meant, I never loved Mas as long as Mas knew." I cried even more after saying that.

I love you so much and so long as you know, I don't want to lose you, I get hurt after saying that.

Mas Astan shook his head"Mas can't believe what you mean,Kas knows you love me after what we've been through, please don't be like this."Astan again wants to approach me.

I smiled bitterly"After what we've been through? Mas think I want to do this it even gives my virginity to Mas is because I love Mas? Hahahah turns out Mas stupid too well, Mas doesn't know how to survive because Mas has never lived like me, I just think every day how to get away from life mas even with the way I let go of precious things like that, so I beg Mas we just finish up here, I have nothing to lose if I let go, right? Because I'm the one who's been useless here." I walked away.

My tears could no longer stand me, my steps were shaken helplessly.

Mas Astan chased after me and stood right in front of me.

He held my shoulder slowly"Mina, look me in the eye, tell me you don't love me."Mas Astan's.

I am capable of doing that.

I will not be able to see those sorrowful eyes, it must be very painful to hear those words from my mouth.

"Hiks, "I cried looking the other way.

Come on, Mina end this right now.

Do not add suffering to others, because you will not know what else will happen to people close to you, better go and stay away.

"Why are you crying? I know you're faking it now, so I beg you to stop pretending now, let's go home you're so exhausted that you can't think straight." Mas Astan pulled my ranganku.

I let go of my hand with great difficulty"As you understand human language? Ahh Mas isn't human, I don't want to go back to that house, the house that made me a prisoner, the house where I was treated unworthy by my own husband eh by the master of astan he means, so I hope you understand and leave me here."

I again felt pain in my heart.

"I think you understand the mina saying earlier, please go, I know this is not my business but you also certainly know that at this time mina really does not want to see you." Mas Ken arrived to participate with this struggle.

I pulled Ken's hand "Bring me home to Mas." I tightly clasped Ken's hand.

I saw a look of disbelief from Mas Astan.

Her tears escaped in my sight but quickly Mas Astan wiped them away"Well, maybe today you're tired, we'll talk later, Mas go, baby."Mas Astan walked slowly while looking down.

I immediately fell on the ground unable to see Mas Astan who looked disappointed.

I'm a really bad woman.

Not worthy of love and love Mas Astan.

So before everything goes deeper, I'd better end it now.

...//connect//...

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Why nyesek gini anyway? It used to be a real sprain of the astan but now the pen is really peeling him, kasiannn.

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