My CRUEL husband (S1&S2)
refuse to believe

Soundtrack//before you go-cover by: arvian dwi//

I don't want to be left behind and I don't want to leave

- minas

    Pak umar's car parked in a special parking lot and I immediately opened the door and almost fell because I saw the atmosphere of the harbor that is very ironic.

Crowd after crowd was visible from where I was standing at this moment.

People dressed in police clothes spread throughout the reproach at the place and several journalists complete with their crew also enlivened the place.

The involuntary cries and grief immediately burst into my hearing until I immediately felt how they felt.

I walked down the place and saw everywhere the families of some of the victims were sobbing with faces emitting an aura of sadness and despair.

I fell down not knowing what to do now.

Umar helped me stand up.

"How about if we go home first neng, you see you are still not stable neng" Mr. umar tried to give his opinion but I immediately shook my head to refuse it.

I walked slowly ignoring the words of Mr. umar who was looking confused at me.

I walked straight into the person who passed by.

I kept walking until I reached the end of the beach.

My tears were dripping with a rush to imagine the moment the astan was in the water feeling cold and might no longer be able to feel the cold.

"Hiks, mas, where are you? " My words continued to go into the sea to follow my heart as if in front of me there was a mas astan waiting for me to reach.

My tears just getting louder as if I was seeing the astan mas stung there.

"I came mas hyks, I came, we went home mas hyks, alpha waiting for us at home"

At first glance I heard the sound of Mr. umar trying to stop me and followed by some people around Mr. umar.

But I kept walking because right now I was really approaching the astan mas that was waiting for me.

"Hiks, I'm afraid of mas, hix, I'm afraid of being left like this" I cried again until now the sea water has touched my chin.

Mr. umar got louder and called the evacuation team who were researching the place to look for clues about some of the victims.

I had already started to enter the sea water and tried to close my eyes.

It feels so claustrophobic right now that I feel in my chest.

"I'm afraid mas, torment" I began to drown in the sea.

But suddenly I felt a pull from behind and it was the evacuation officer who tried to stop me.

" Let go, let go of me, my husband waiting for me there hix, "I tried to rebel in his grasp.

But my strength that may have decreased or no longer left me unable to rebel again and finally I was brought to the ground.

I sat down crying and hugging my knees feeling sad about my life.

I'm afraid of being left alone by Astan.

Did all this happen because astan was near me?.

Was I too happy all this time that I forgot that I was a pesky carrier girl.

Lookie!! Look at the reality now.

Mas astan experienced this because astan was near me.

I am indeed a useless girl and a bearer of suffering for astan.

" Hiks, mas astan "I cried as hard as I could no matter what people's views were.

Pak umar opened the jacket he was wearing and covered my wet body, not to mention the clothes I was wearing was made of thin maybe umar sir did not want others to focus on my body.

" Have neng, we go home first, neng needs a break now" Umar tried to persuade me.

I'm shaking"no sir, I want to go astan, he's waiting for me to hit it,, "

I felt sick after saying that.

"I have asked the evacuation officer neng and currently they are conducting a search and the office has also sent tik sar to look for astan, we just go home neng" Mr. umar tried to help me to stand up but I refused.

"I have to find the mas astan hiks, "Pak umar forcibly pulled my body from that place.

"Den alpha waiting at neng's house" I was silent no longer rebelling.

I was too stupid to forget my own son was at home waiting for his useless mother.

I immediately obeyed Mr. Umar entering the car and was taken home.

I was still crying in the car staring out with tears in my eyes.

Remembering the currently unknown existence of astan.

When I got home, I walked slowly and lethargic to the house.

My tears again increasingly swift when entering the door because the face of the astan mas who was smiling while carrying the alpha as if seen from afar.

"Hiks, "I cried hard in the hospital feeling pain and tightness in my chest.

Kalain may think that I am very crybaby and weak but will you be able to when you are in my position.

"Hey, why are you decking?" Brother Adin ran from inside the house helping me stand up and hugged me tightly.

I immediately cried as hard as I could vent the pain and tightness I felt.

I briefly saw mas ken who was holding alfa slowly away for fear of alpha hearing my cry.

I can feel a slow pat from sister who is trying to calm me down.

I still cry in my arms.

"Patience deck, brother is sure you can be strong and astan must be safe" Adin brother made me want to cry even harder.

After a bit of calm I was brought in by brother Adin and mas ken gave me a glass of water to try to calm me down.

I wiped my tears quickly and grabbed the alpha that was already seen looking for me.

"Here love is the same mamah" I tried to hold back my tears feeling sad to see the alpha who does not know what happened to the mass of his papah astan.

Brother Adin touched my shoulder trying to hold me.

"Maybe you think the alpha does not know that at this time you are so sad and hit but remember the deck, you have an inner bond and alpha knows how you feel at this time" explained Kak Adin.

I tried hard and held back my tears.

Sorry ken just fell silent from earlier thinking about how to find the astan mas.

"We will find any astan whatsoever" said mas ken confidently.

I held back my tears again and again.

Maybe my tears will dry up because I've been spilling nonstop.

Missing and worrying about astan mas is very painful.

//connect//

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