My CRUEL husband (S1&S2)
sorry my dear

Soundtrack//beautifull goodbye-chen(EXO)//

Why is this painful when you're not beside me?

- minas

     I've been pondering everything that's happened since.

There is no end to me contemplating if only then did I really end up with mas astan, this would never have happened to mas astan.

I am indeed the cause of misfortune for everyone who is very precious to me. Starting from losing my mother to my selfishness, father for meeting my needs and now my own husband.

I hate myself even more, which is a real disaster for those closest to me.

I walked up the stairs in a doldrums to the room because the alpha was alone sleeping there.

I had come downstairs because I was delivering brother Adin and mas ken to the gate even though they had refused.

Again, my hand was too heavy to open the door of the room because the shadow of our togetherness continued to loom in my view.

I knew it was all just an illusion, and therefore my heart was breaking uncontrollably again.

By fighting that loneliness I opened the room and immediately I lay my body on a mattress that I often sleep with astan mas.

The shadow when we slept side by side and the act of mas astan that can not be silent I can remember so clearly that my breathing was even more suffocating because it remembered him.

I slowly closed my eyes trying to calm my mind and throw away those memories.

Alfa suddenly cried loudly from the basket where she laid.

Immediately I got up in a panic and lifted the alpha body.

"You're hot, baby, you have a fever? " I'm panicking right now.

Buru hunt me down the stairs by carrying alpha approaching Pak umar who is now on guard until night because astan mass is not home.

"Sir, we're in the hospital now, alpha's sick"

Mr. umar just opened the door for me and drove to the hospital.

I can't just sit back and feel guilty because I didn't realize that I was too focused on my feelings without knowing that alpha had been holding back pain since.

"Sorry dear mama, mamah forgot that you are sensitive to the person" I said trembling in tears as I worried about the alpha who was now starting to stay in my lap.

I was again reminded of the figure of astan mas who is always attentive and know every alpha condition than me.

It is very good to be a father to alpha, who knows the alpha will and also knows every alpha development.

And when times like this remind me of mas astan who was angry with me so panicked I was afraid of alpha why napa because it had a fever instead I let carried by others at the wedding mas ken first.

I miss that loving figure more and more and I want him to be angry again this time because I have neglected to keep alpha until alpha fever alone I did not realize if it was not because he was crying earlier I would not know it.

I was a failed alpha mom.

From now on I will pay more attention to the only alpha that I have after the astan mass is rumored to disappear without a trace at all.

"Sorry mommy well dear" I kissed the alpha forehead who still did not feel comfortable because of the fever.

The medics immediately examined the alpha who was currently crying loudly because it was achieved by the medics.

I'm so sorry to see alpha crying so hard.

Does the alpha also feel the loss of astan mas well? I don't want alpha to be affected because it's too small to know.

The phone call I currently hold.

"Mas and brother are coming home but you are not there, brother is worried about you"

I was very touched by brother Adin, he really sincere attention to me and alpha.

We had no blood relation at all, and I know kak adin only because mas ken is her husband and mas ken himself is not my brother nor is he just someone very good who thinks I am family to him.

I let out a heavy sigh of fear that they would be worried if I told you that alpha was sick at the moment.

But there's no choice because I can't make a good excuse for it.

"I'm again at the hospital near the stadium kak, alfa fever" he said weakly.

"What's?alpha fever? " I immediately heard the voice of brother Adin who was probably beside mas ken with a worried and panicked voice.

"I, yes, brother, but thank God it has been handled equally by the medical side" I said slowly.

"We go there aja mas, mina also definitely not feeling well so we tell aja mina rest continue let us just watch alpha" I heard her talking on the phone in a very worried tone.

I no longer know how to repay all their attention and kindness.

"Yes it's closed well, we're there now" The call immediately ended.

Ken has always been kind and given me comfort.

When other people at school hurt me is what gives me comfort and want to be my friend even had some other students come to hate him and accuse that is not until he was almost dismissed so the athlete coach ran away from my school.

He really wanted to be a running athlete who really made the name of the nation but I don't know what made mas ken give up with it and now I notice he is even more focused on the world of fashion with his brother adin is very talented in that field.

They are really a perfect match, mas ken is very good and coupled with brother Adin who was too good.

It's true that the phrase "Your fool is a reflection of you" they prove it.

But if it's turned to my relationship with astan, I'm really far away from being a reflection of astan.

He was handsome, smart, loving and active, and I was the opposite of all those words.

Could this be one of the causes of all this? Wanted to remind me that no matter how much I and mas astan don't deserve to be together.

It was so painful to even just think about it.

I really love Astan and I really want to be with him, it sounds selfish but I really don't want to lose him.

I hope I'm really a good match for astan and he can get back to my cuddle and alpha.

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