Pelita Hati Bunda
Missed Dad

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The night was getting late and Ara had fallen asleep in her own room after I read the fairy tale as well I sang her favorite Nina bobo song.

I came out of his room and immediately approached Mbok Darmi who I still asked to wait to not go home first because I still wanted to talk to him.

I see Mbok Darmi is still busy in the kitchen washing the dirty dishes we used for dinner last night.

"Mbok," I called out softly so as not to wake up Ara who had just fallen asleep.

"Yes Ma'am," at once Mbok Darmi approached me who was sitting in the middle room. He also sat in front of me with curiosity.

"Mbok, tell me honestly what really happened to Ara, she's not usually like before I'm sure there's something she's hiding from me and Mbok Darmi would know, right?" and that change of Ara is what makes me curious and holds back Mbok Darmi when I want to go home.

"Mother was right, actually Neng Ara felt very sad he missed his father so much, Neng Ara just wanted to prove to his friends that he had a father."

"Neng Ara is always bullied when playing with his friends. They say that Neng Ara does not have a father and some even say that Neng Ara is a discarded child and some say Neng Ara is an illegitimate child."

"Sorry Mom is not my intention to make Mom sad but that's what Neng Ara told me." I know Mbok Darmi is very honest he will always say whatever he knows. Nothing is reduced nor is there anything plus I already strongly believe in him.

"Then what does Ara want to do to prove all that to her friends?"

"Neng Ara searched for a photo of her father in her mother's room, but she didn't find it and that's why she kept crying all day. He felt that what his friends were saying was true and that was what made him sad."

I took a deep breath and I took it out so slowly. My breath felt tight so stuck in my throat and it felt so hard to get to my lungs.

Why should Ara get insulted, why not me. Instantly my tears escaped always what Ara felt would have more influence in my heart.

"Is there anything else?" ask me again by trying my hardest to hold back tears so as not to fall.

"That's it, ma'am, nothing else" replied Mbok Darmi.

"Now Mbok Darmi can go home, thanks for keeping Ara." Mbok Darmi is one of the most meritorious people because it always helps me keep Ara even though he only works but he really devotes himself properly and always does everything with a sincere heart.

I left after Mbok Darmi also went home rushing to Ara's room and decided for the night I would sleep with her holding her tight and making her feel cared for.

'You are not alone, there is a Mother who will always be with you. We'll continue together even without my inner father.' once I get to the direction room.

Slowly laying down my body next to Ara I cuddled her little body and back I kissed her cheek and the top of her head Ara felt a little disturbed and wriggled but it did not wake her up just making her change position from supine it's tilting towards me.

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Ara always ate what I had prepared, rarely would she ask for it.

"Bunda fried rice is always the most delicious," he said when his mouth was still full and also while chewing and it made his voice unclear.

"Eat first, dear. When you're done, just talk" I replied. My hands were raised and cleaned the lips that were a little bit of a straw for rice. So adorable that Ara how could I feel at home long gone, so while still working with Mr. Abra I always refuse if to be taken out of town let alone to spend the night.

For various reasons I must have said all that for the sake of being able to always be with Ara. Hopefully with the new boss that now there will be no coercion.

"Mother, you'll be home like yesterday, right?" ask again. I warned him to eat first. But yes, that's what children are called.

"Mother try. Why why?"

"Mother, yesterday Susanti took a walk to the city park. About Ara can see the park City also not?" his voice sounded hopeful. It seems like Ara really wants to go there.

"Hem.., can. How about sunday?"

"Sunday, it's still a long time, Mother. Will you be able to do it after you get home from work?"

"Hem, pray Mother comes home early and we will go. Okay," I smiled with my hands stroking her cheeks.

Instantly Ara smiled, she was very happy even though everything was uncertain. I could be home late, right? but hopefully not.

Want once as little as I want to fulfill but if it can not be because it is hampered by time how else?

'Sorry, son.'

"Yes, really, Bun. Later we go to the city park, "Ara is getting enthusiastic.

I don't know what he wants to see there but I hope he wants foam.

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Seriate.....