Pelita Hati Bunda
Fear Ara

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I think all day this full mas Devan will continue with us after delivering to the school earlier. Although we had a short walk but it turns out we went straight home and Devan mas shortly at home and went to the office.

He said there was a sudden meeting that could not be left and I had to appreciate the busyness. Can not be too demanding nor can you want too much mas Devan just continue at home.

I don't know, I don't know why it feels so hard to stay by Mr. Devan anywhere. For a moment sometimes already upset especially if in a long stay it feels like to eat whatever is there.

But this is the fate of having a husband who is a big company owner, he will always be busy and will rarely be at home. But there and also not he did not affect the truth too much but why every no-one himself the longing was very big when how before.

If in thought funny too, it used to seem to refuse but now? there's not an hour of him not seeing each other for a day.

This is a change that makes me very confused, it also feels very dependent on him because anything so want him is always there.

''Mother, mother why stay here?'' ara's arrival shocked my new daydream for a while.

''Mommy, let's just meet Ara instead of here alone,'' invite Ara who is very adorable.

I was happy to follow him especially in addition to Ara who had held hands and pulled it made me unable to wiggle anymore than to come with him.

''Ara's swallowed dear, ''' I felt very scared because Ara kept asking to run. Not just because I was afraid of falling and Ara was going to get sick, but because I had to take care of a very vulnerable fetus that was in my womb.

So impatient that Ara still did not respond to what I said just now, she kept running and made me walk quickly.

''Come mother, we have been waited by Sus Neni,'' enthusiastic and the spirit is very big to be able to reach the middle room as soon as possible.

The anxiety is very big in every foot swinging on the floor, successfully made my goosebumps by Ara at this time. If only Devan was there for sure the sound of his buriton we would have heard.

''Madam, be careful, '' and even the servant who reprimanded was also seen frowning and also closed his eyes several times.

''I_iya, '' I replied very nervously obviously I was very afraid that until later he would say it to Mas Devan and for sure I would get a big anger from him later.

Because of the reprimand I immediately tried to keep Ara from running and it was quite successful and we were able to walk quietly and casually.

We were in the middle room where all of Ara's toys were there. All have been on the green fur carpet that is always prepared.

We sat down with so a henchman and hands started playing Ara's toy.

So happy Ara, she could have everything she wanted that I could never buy her. Not only toys, but food and clothing are all guaranteed.

Not only did we both play, but Sus Neni also did.

"Mother, Ara's really gonna have a dick?" suddenly Ara asked.

I looked up and looked at him. The little girl kept looking at me with a very strange look. What exactly was he thinking?

"Mother, if Ara has a sister and father will still love Ara?"

Degs...

Questions like this that make a mother's heart will feel slashed and so painful. Just imagine I was scared and now Ara is really asking this.

"Obviously dong, even though Ara has a father and mother adek will still love Ara."

"But many have a sister but their parents are more affectionate and considerate of her sister, Ara is afraid that her father and mother will forget Ara," his eyes were already glazed over and even his voice was no longer what it was.

Her sister is not born yet Ara already feels jealous like this how about tomorrow? Hopefully this kind of thinking is only for a moment and will not drag on.

Oh God, out of nowhere Ara's beginnings had this kind of thought. He never left the house without me, where did he come from?

Even a child as small as Ara could feel jealousy which would definitely be very painful if it really happened but I would never let it go. Ara and also this unborn child they are both my children who will get the same love and affection.

"Mother isn't lying, is it? Mother and father will not leave Ara alone right?" ask again. His head let go and looked up, precisely at the part of my face that was now looking down at him.

"Mother never lies to Ara? Until whenever mother will never leave Ara. Ara is Mother's favorite child who will be the best sister for sister, right?"

"Yes, Mother," Ara hugged again, drowning her face in my arms.

It was sad to hear Ara's words at this moment.

"Ara, don't be sad anymore. Hem, how about we get those things ready to go to school tomorrow?"

I try to shift the conversation, divert our activities that might be a little boring.

"Yes yes!" Ara nodded quickly, she regained her spirit after hearing the word school.

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Tired from the activity made me also Ara fall asleep in Ara's room. Though everything that must be prepared has not been settled but we have been hunted to sleep.

I don't know since when we slept because we were still arranging and sorting out one by one the items that are needed.

I woke up at this time also still holding a bubu with a Barbie doll while Ara? Ara hugged me by holding the pencil.

"What a big fat, huh?" it was this same voice that made me wake up and when I turned my head it turned out that Devan was already sitting next to me with a smile.

He looks tired, if this mattress is not full of dolls and items Ara may mas Devan will fall too, too, but it turns out that he was just waiting for me to sleep until I woke up because the soft sound I still heard.

I turned towards Ara, Ara was still sleeping with her arms hugging as if she was unwilling to let go.

"Mas's gone home, why don't you wake up Nay?" I slowly raised Ara's hand and intended to get up.

By the time I was about to get up quickly Devan helped me and managed to sit in front of him.

"I'm sorry, Nay fell asleep" I said, trying to explain.

"It's okay, you have to rest a lot. You must be healthy and so must our children."

Tiredness will certainly disappear if you go back home and see loved ones, said people who have experienced it does it also apply to mas Devan?

"Why are you thinking about something?"

Does my face really look like I'm thinking about something? I was still thinking about what Ara said earlier. It would not be easy to remove that fear from Ara even though she had understood, just a small thing that happened would definitely make her think that no-no, her mind would always be sensitive right?

"It's okay. Do you need anything? I'll be ready" quickly I'll switch the conversation.

"I just need you."

"Well!"

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