So In Love
EP. 11. Love You More Than Anything

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“In your eyes how is he? Are you interested in him?” For a moment Shien was stunned to hear this one Shanna question.

“I think he’s a good person.” Shien commented after a moment of thought, trying to judge, then guessing what kind of person the Sky was after meeting a few times.

“I think so, she has a warm heart. I like him.” Sahut Shanna agreed to Shien's remarks. His smile expanded, imagining a sweet smile and the handsome face of Heaven. It had only been a few days that Shanna knew him, but the sky had already made her comfortable. Yes, Shanna felt comfortable when she was near the Sky.

“It's easy to say like, new to know also.” Lady Shien.

“Newly known or have known for a long time, it has nothing to do. Most of us if you are a tuh person must be expressive, if you like it say like, if not yes enggak.” Reply Shanna lightly. Yes, Shanna's personality is confident and very expressive.

“And I finally found someone I really like.” Shanna continued while putting her palm on her chest, right where her heart was. This was the first time Shanna felt her heart pounding because of a man. Although he liked all the handsome men in the world, only Heaven managed to get his heart.

“Among the many guys you tease?” Sambar Shien with a full stare. Shanna who heard his sister's speech then snorted inadmissibly. “I'm not teasing them, but it's a process to find the best of the best.” Correction Shanna with confidence. Shien simply stuck out his lower lip as if sneering.

“And I thought, The sky is the best. I have to get it.” Imbuh Shanna, both hands reaching for air, imagined as if he was capturing the Sky.

“What if he doesn't like brother? Or already have someone you like?” Shien asked as he folded his hands in front of his chest.

“I will get rid of them all and keep trying to get his heart.” Shanna replied with a furious face, now her hands were clawing at the air, as if she was getting rid of anyone who dared to block her from getting to the Sky. Shien who saw that then pretended to shudder in fear.

“Except . . .” Shanna suddenly turned her eyes to the younger brother. Shien was speechless, staring at Shanna with next to a raised eyebrow, waiting for the girl to continue her sentence.

“You.” Next to Shien's raised brows instantly descended, turning with a deep twitch on his forehead. His face looked puzzled, failing to digest what Shanna had meant.

“If he likes you and or you like him, I'll let him go for you.” Terang Shanna. His words sounded sincere, as did the look in his eyes.

“Why?” Asked Shien in surprise. It seems that her brother's words are not true.

“Because I'm your sister.” Shien was stunned, then looked at his brother with a gaze that was difficult to decipher.

“Cause I love you more than anything.” Shanna added while throwing a faint smile.

“Do I have to be moved? My sister is really good.” Shien smiled amusedly. He did not expect, his brother who is arrogant and sometimes likes to bully people, can say things like this to him. No. gabe. More precisely, Shanna could only be nice to Shien. From then until now, that has never changed.

“Ohh, please touched until the cry bombay. Other people are not as lucky as you who have a brother like this. He can even give up his love. Hiks.” Shanna said proudly, then put on a feigned expression of sadness.

Shien who saw him immediately threw the potato chips that had been scattered on the bed to Shanna's face with anxiety and annoyance at once.

“Thank you in advance, but that won't happen. And I'm not interested in him.” Sahut Shien with great emphasis on his last sentence.

“That's now, don't know if later.” Cebik Shanna accompanied by soft eyes.

“You’re so annoying.” Shien opened his eyes.

“There go, I want to rest.” His expulsion later, made Shanna snort. Then, forcedly, he got out of Shien's bed.

“SHANNA.” Shien cried out in annoyance as Shanna foolishly threw some potato chips over the bed, thus making the bed even dirtier.

Shanna who was yelled at just stuck out her tongue and then she frowned out of Shien's room.

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“Shi, wake! What time is it?” Mama exclaimed as she knocked on Shien's room door a little hard. The middle-aged woman wanted to go straight in, but unfortunately the door was locked.

Shien who heard the sound of knocking on the door snapped, then woke up with a fast pounding heart. Ahh, his heart disease made Shien easily shocked.

Immediately, he grabbed the phone lying on the nightstand. The clock shows at seven in the morning.

The feeling last night he had set the alarm at five in the morning, but he did not hear the alarm. Turns out he just set the clock without pressing the on sign.

God fucking. His plan to make the escape he had thought through carefully vanished already. Shien still had to eat breakfast together. Dinner just felt bad. Especially breakfast this time. The problem is, today Papa comes and surely he will meet him at the dinner table for the first time after so many years. Shien was reluctant to meet him, he was still scared, angry, and disappointed of course. Ahh, anyway he'll just run away today and not come back. He will rent a hospital VIP room for his lodging, so he does not have to worry if suddenly having a heart attack.

Shien got out of bed with a thousand curses, before opening the door to Mama. The middle-aged woman already looked neat. It's always been like this since a long time ago.

Shien secretly smiled wryly, he longed for Mama to wake him up in the morning like this. The last time the woman did so was when she was six, before ignoring her.

“Why did you just wake up at this time? Come cepet shower.” Mama gave a slight shout of excitement, then pushed Shien into the bathroom. But before Shien actually went into the bathroom, Mama told me. “Today do not need to enter work first.”

Shien who was already inside the bathroom put on a confused look, feeling strange with the excitement of Mama. It was strange that woman.

Shien came out of the bathroom with a body wrapped in a towel, he was jolted to see Mama who was still in his room. Nope. It looks like the woman returned to Shien's room with a neutral square neck dress fitted with a classic belt. It would look feminine and chic if Shien wore it, according to Shien's style all along.

“You wear this shirt, yes.” Mama held the hanger a little high.

“I brought my own clothes.” Shien said coldly and just passed by towards his suitcase.

In the past he might be happy if Mama prepared her clothes like this. But not for now.

Once again, Mama breathed heavily again. His gaze looked cute, following the movements of Shien who was taking clothes from inside his suitcase.

He knew it was too late to do this to Shien. For years he had the opportunity to give Shien more attention, but he didn't. So did Papa. Both did not do it. And now it's too late, so it will be difficult to start again. Or maybe I can't start it again. Shien was already too angry.

“Sorry Mama and Papa, Shi.” And that sentence only Mama could say in her heart, she was too embarrassed to say it directly. What he did to Shien was too bad, he was aware of it.

Shien completely rejected the clothes he had prepared. Then with a sad heart, he walked to the closet to store the shirt, hoping for a new one when Shien would wear it.

“Ayo.” Mama immediately pulled Shien's arm as soon as the girl came out of the bathroom after the girl put on her clothes. Mama was so excited, not even allowing Shien to comb her hair first.

Shien with a still confused face was brought into the living room of the house. The living room that even last night was still pitching quietly without any decorations. Now the middle room is crowded with ribbons, balloons, and also food offerings. Also visible is the wall of the room mounted curtain tassel gold color backdrop. And the most eccentric look is two different color birthday cakes with each twenty-five year figure candle on it.

It took Shien quite a long time to come to the conclusion that someone was having a birthday today.

Upon seeing Shanna who seemed to be smiling all the time by wearing a polka-dot cone birthday hat on her head while blowing on a mini tongue whistle, Shien realized that it was Shanna's birthday today. And that means her birthday too.

He stared at all the birthday decorations. The last time he had a birthday here was accompanied only by a nanny's aunt, while Mama and Papa went to celebrate Shanna's birthday at the restaurant by inviting Shanna's schoolmates. He was always left behind, alone. Well, even though they still have the heart to give him a gift.

“Happy birthday.” Mama exclaimed as she landed a kiss on both of Shien's cheeks, leaving the girl dumbstruck. He was unmoved in his place, still shocked by this very chaotic situation.

“You don't thank each other congratulations?” Ask Mama who automatically stops the preoccupation that is being done by her twins. Shanna who was still engrossed in playing with whistles as if she had just seen them for the first time, as well as Shien who was still engrossed in her shock.

“Happy birthday, Shien . . . .. Teet.” Shanna jokingly blew a whistle right in Shien's ear, making him throw a sharp glare at her.

“Hmm. Congratulations also.” Shien replied mumbled indistinctly. Shien snorted irritatedly at the response of the sister.

Mama looked at them alternately, but she immediately understood. The nature of Shanna and Shien is very different 180 degrees.

A moment later, a middle-aged man appeared from the direction of the front door. Papa's.

The man who is said to always be a superhero figure for his son, always there when his son needs help, is always there at all times, so as to provide peace of presence. Now it's in front of Shien.

Suddenly Shien's hands trembled at Papa's sudden arrival.

Once again, all the unpleasant memories flashed in Shien's brain so quickly that it made him dizzy.

“Take Shien instead.”

“Why should Shawn be taken?”

“From the beginning you can only trouble others, Shien.”

“From now on, never again do you leave the house. And don't expect to be friends with anyone. You will only trouble them if you have it.”

Especially those words. All those words kept ringing in his head and so stuck in his heart. Ahh, her chest is becoming tight now.

“Shien.” Call Papa who walks near him. Shien was fixated, looking at the figure expressionlessly.

The middle-aged man was about to hug Shien, but his movements instantly came to a halt as Shien reflexively regressed his body.

Papa momentarily pegged, looking at his youngest daughter with a sad look. So angry was Shien at her that the girl was even reluctant to see her? Then he smiled bitterly, remembering the location of his mistake in the boy.

“How are you, son? Sorry, Papa did not come with Mama to pick you up yesterday.” Papa then quickly grabbed Shien's hands, making the girl even more frozen.

“Thank you for coming back to this house. Welcome home.” Said Papa then full of haru, seen the seeds of tears that began to pool in the corner of his eyes. Not to forget, his lips revealed a happy smile even though thin.

Shien was still unmoved, his head so dizzy with the treatment of his two parents that it suddenly turned out like this. Although he caught the sincerity in Papa's words, but his heart was too hurt. Let's say he's vindictive because Shien really can't be that easy accepting them back in his heart.

“Before good enough.” Shien throws Papa's hand.

“And I'm here just a guest.” Shien continued with great emphasis.

Shien slightly bent his body, then passed away quickly. Ignoring Shanna who kept yelling at him for him to come back and ignored his two parents who were staring at his departure sadly. Mama can't even hold back her crying anymore. Could this be a punishment for him? Punishment for a mother who has neglected her child? He has not even heard his daughter call him “Mama.” since they met again.

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Shien walked out of the house with quick steps. His heart ached, squeezed the edges of the dress he wore as if channeling all the emotions there.

Shien wanted to shout loudly to his parents, spewing out all the flavors that he had only been suppressing in his heart. But suddenly his tongue was muddled when he wanted to do that. Could this be because God kept him from adding his list of sins to both parents, because hating them was already disobedient?

Shien quickly stopped the taxi, then boarded it and asked the driver to drive aimlessly. I don't know, right now his brain seems to refuse to think about anything.

Shien was too shaken with all this. Obviously, his life that was originally as calm as water immediately moved to wave when his parents came and opened the old wounds.

“Sorry. Where do you want to drive this?” Ask the taxi driver because he has been running his car aimlessly.

“Mbak . . .” Call the taxi driver one more time when Shien doesn't tell him.

“Ehh . .” Shien jerks. “Snow Candy Office, Sir.” Shien continued as he regained his senses and began to think again. Yeah, that's the only place he can go right now. He needs to calm down for a moment.

“It's arrived, Mbak.” Shien who was all the way steadily deep in thought again gasped at the call of the taxi driver.

Not coming down, Shien was still unmoved sitting in his place. He snorted when he remembered something. He left the house without bringing anything.

“Sorry, Sir. Can you wait here for a minute? I take the money first into.” Shien asked as he pointed at his office. The taxi driver in a friendly manner said so.

Shortly after, he returns with Fina, who follows him, and asks the girl to pay for the taxi fare that Shien is riding.

“Eat if you want to escape tuh prepare first.” Omel Fina sneered as she tickled after Shien's taxi passed.

“Fina, lend me money.” Not heeding Fina's sneer, Shien rested her hand on Fina who was still holding her purse.

Fina sighed before then asking. “How much do you need?”

“Ten sheets.” Shien replied lightly.

“Yang red.” The impact was unmitigated, making Fina snort. However, Fina still reached into his wallet and counted the money to make sure the money Shien was asking for was ten.

“I paid double.” Shien's repulsive exclaim made Fina look up at him with a faint smile.

“Yang really?” Ask with sparkling eyes.

“But that means usury, and usury money is haram.” Fina who had felt that she had flown high in space, seemed to be thrown away. Yeah, anyway why would he listen to Shien? He's the master at making people upset.

“Thanks. I'll go back to malem.” Shien brandished the ten hundred thousand bills that Fina had just handed over.

“Where are you going?” Fina restrained Shien's arm that was about to pass by just like that after getting the money.

“Short walk near here. Anyway, where can go far with money like this.” Fina who heard Shien's words just rolled her eyes off guard. Yeah, for Shien it might be a little. But that's his ten-day allowance.

“Hiish, already there go. Bring this.” Dismiss Fina while handing over her business card. Shien who saw that frowned incomprehensibly.

“You didn't bring anything. I'm worried that something's going on with you. If you suddenly faint, the person who found you can directly contact me.” Clearly Fina seemed to understand Shien's confusion.

Without saying much more, Shien quickly snatched the business card from Fina's hand, before it passed.

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Shien walked still with a slightly limp step as the wound on his leg had yet to fully recover. He does not know where to go, which obviously just want to walk alone, it is up to his footsteps to take him where.

Until finally, his steps stopped when he saw a park that was located not far from Snow Candy. He knew there was a place like this here. A pretty beautiful park with a basketball court in the middle, as well as several garden chairs on the edges.

It was as if the garden had hypnotized him, knowing his feet were stepping into the garden.

The view circulates, circling the entire park. This park is quite similar to the park in the residential complex. Errata. His parents' house. And Shien had only visited him once there which ended with Shanna falling. Now he can play anywhere.

A moment later, Shien sat leaning under a large acacia tree located just beside the field to avoid the sun's sunburn that was getting stinging.

His eyes stared blankly in any direction. His mind drifted without permission twisting his childhood memories. Shien made no attempt to shake him off, allowing his brain to twist his childhood memories like a movie to put him to sleep. I don't know, Shien also didn't know why suddenly his eyes became heavy like this. Maybe this is a form of escape from his current feelings.

A few hours later, Shien awoke as he almost dropped his body to the ground. He was shocked and opened his eyes for a moment.

He sizzled softly as he felt his head slightly dizzy. Not only that, but his stomach was also a little sore. Obviously, he had not eaten since morning. True said Fina, he should have prepared first before escaping. At least he ate first. Really torturing myself.

“Photosynthesis . . .” Shien who had just calmed down due to his shock awakened from dreamland forcefully, was again made to be shocked when someone stuck something cold onto his cheek.

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To be continued . . . .