So In Love
EP. 88. Where Should I Go?

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“I just wish Shien could live a long time. Whether he ends up with me or not, I just want him to live a long life.” Sky said inwardly after throwing his coin into the fountain pool. During this time he never believed the myth made up about the fountain pond in the hospital garden. Maybe because he was desperate, so by taking part in everyone threw coins there and expressed his hope while he was walking in the park and accidentally passed the fountain pool.

Wiping his tears that know-how dripping, Sky then reached into the phone in the pocket of his doctor's suit when he heard the flat object rang, it turned out Om Sendy.

Fear instantly seeped into his heart whenever Om Sendy or Aunt Risa contacted him. The sky was afraid if they delivered bad news. But his fear melted as soon as he heard something he had been dying to hear for the past three months.

Om Sendy said that Shien was awake. With a haru feeling rising in the chest, Sky immediately ran into the hospital. Between believing and not believing. The sky wanted to be sure with its own eyes if Shien was already completely awake.

Om Sendy and Aunt Risa stand at the door of the ICU room with a haru that covers the faces of both. They smiled at Sky's arrival and said Shien was in the Doctor's examination.

After congratulating them, Sky asked permission to enter the ICU room where Shien was being treated.

His eyes glazed over again as his gaze caught the figure Shien was completely conscious. The sky could also hear the team of doctors examining Shien trying to communicate with him.

A sigh of relief was heard from the lips of Heaven which was then followed by the melt of tears full of haru and gratitude. But the next second, Sky took a step back, thinking that he had no right to approach Shien even though Sky was eager to scatter around him and say thousands of thanks for the girl's return.

In the end, Sky chose to hide behind the partition curtain that was used as a barrier to every room in the ICU room and watched Shien without anyone's knowledge.

Including when Shien was taken outside the ICU room and entered another room to undergo the next examination, Sky only dared to watch over the girl from a distance.

And when Shien had already been transferred to the nursing room, Sky still did not dare to meet him. The sky just stood in front of the door as it watched Shien from the glass gap of Shien's nursing room with a dejected look.

Repeatedly his hand was raised to reach for the door handle, and so much so the Sky lowered it again. The sky had to endure desperately his desire to meet Shien. Because every time he braced his heart to try to enter and meet the girl, the memory of how he hurt Shien flashed quickly in his head to make Heaven again feel so bad to approach his girl.

The sky smiled wryly as it leaned its back against the wall. Ck, girls? Sky was unsure if Shien still expected some kind of worthless trash of himself.

And that was evident when he accidentally overheard Shanna and Shien's conversation inside there because Shien's outpatient room door wasn't perfectly closed.

“Cause I’ll let him go . . .”

The sky had already guessed that Shien couldn't possibly still want it after what happened. But hearing Shien say he wanted to let go, it felt like Heaven remained unwilling. His heart ached, and Heaven wanted to pretend it had never heard of it.

But the sky must know itself. He was so bad that it was not appropriate enough to stay by Shien's side anymore. It was very shameless if Heaven still forced ingun to have it.

Shien deserves a better man, who will not doubt him. Moreover, someone who would not hurt his heart.

The sky smiled bitterly. Perhaps it was better for him to take a step back from now on even though his heart was very, very unwilling.

And once again, Heaven must give up her love. But, Heaven will not and does not want to love others anymore. The sky was also unsure of being able to love anyone other than Shien.

The sky would not release Shien from his heart. Shien's not going anywhere.

Forever, Shien would be in a special place in the heart of Heaven. An eternal place for someone who managed to make the Sky realize that it takes a lot of time to build a trust, but it only takes a few seconds to destroy it.

Shien made Heaven realize that there was no futile struggle, but there was only a wasted struggle.

The sky has wasted it all. Disciples of how he got to Shien, as well as the trust and sincere feelings Shien had given him.

It is true what the saying goes that one who hurts another will get hurt in time. Actually what Sky did to Shien back then had already indirectly betrayed itself, so that in the end it was Heaven itself that was injured with endless feelings of regret.

BRUOK! PRAANGS!

Sky Feet accidentally nudged the trash can as soon as it was about to move from its place. His loud voice made the Sky startle itself. But what made Sky even more surprised was when he heard the clattering of one's steps from inside the ward Shien sounded closer and closer, then followed by the sound of the door being opened. So quickly the sky ran and hid behind the wall.

The sky breathed a sigh of relief. Almost he was caught because a few seconds after he hid, Shanna was seen coming out with her head turned. Guess what, surely the sound of the garbage can falling was heard all the way inside to attract Shanna's attention to check it out.

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“Cheese.”

Nathan exclaimed after he set a timer on the camera supported by a tripod and joined with Shanna, Shien, Om Sendy, Aunt Risa, Aunt Hilda, Fina, and also Reno who had put on their best expression.

None of them put on a gloomy face in some of the photos taken. Shien who was usually very stingy smiled, back then even showed off his smile wide. Shien also put on a cute expression even though in the photo it looks strange because still his face is still stiff.

Shanna and Nathan who were looking at the photos then compact laugh it off secretly.

While Shien who found out that Shanna and Nathan were bullying him only snorted in annoyance, but did not want to protest because the happiness in his heart was much greater.

Shien felt an incredible happiness. One more wish was fulfilled. Although not a holiday trip as he wrote in his wish list, but gathering with his loved ones like this, it was more than enough even just a small picnic in the hospital park. It seems, he had to die was not a problem because God has realized almost all hope in his life.

And the only hope that has not been and probably will not be realized is to marry Heaven. The thin smile that had been slanted from both corners of Shien's lips slowly subsided, his face turning moody.

Ahh, guessing! Why was Shien still thinking about Sky in the moment he thought of forgetting about it? I still think about getting married. Hid.

Perhaps this is what is called the heart and mind are out of sync.

Shien turned his head towards the cherry tree located three meters away behind him, feeling that someone was constantly watching him. It was also what he felt for three days after his consciousness returned. Either when he was in the hospital room, was walking around the hospital, or while undergoing physiotherapy.

But still no one was there.

“Shi. . .”

Shien thought, maybe it was just his feelings. But Shien was unsure as that feeling of being watched appeared at all times. Could it be the angel of death who was preparing to pick him up? Shien got a little goosebumps.

“Shienna?” Nathan called Shien's name once again with a puzzled frown as the girl never understood him. He was also astonished what exactly was Shien looking at until such a stupor?

“Shi, you're concerned about what, anyway?” This time Shanna chimed in while following Shien's line of sight, she gave a soft pat on Shien's shoulder, leaving her little sister with a surprised and sober look from her daydream.

“I'm not ready.” Sahut Shien was shocked, thus leaving everyone astonished at his reaction.

“What are you thinking, anyway, Shi? So strange.” Said Mama smiling amusedly.

“I mean. . .” Shien scratched his non-itchy nape, bewildered himself by his shock. “Surely brother Nathan would like to ngingetin if it's time I make physiotherapy, right?” Luckily Shien looked at the clock on his phone, so he got an excuse. “Well, I'm not ready. I'm a little tired today, can be absent, no?” The pretext then while looking at Nathan with a pretend glare.

“Dihh, where are there absences? You think schoolgirl?” Nathan said, making Shien grumble to hear it. “No absences. If physiotherapy is rare, when can you take off your wheelchair, Shi?” Omel Nathan, as chatty as ever. “Know, no? Poor people who help push your wheelchair, because your body is heavy use.” His sneer then while gently pushing Shien's forehead using his index finger.

“Obviously, dong, say the weight. Situ also used to weigh as much as a bear.” The girl sneered back, reminding how fat Nathan was as a child.

Nathan's lips curled funny, making everyone who saw him chuckle amused, except Shien who even stuck out his tongue – softly satisfied.

“Gak well you know, Shi, body shaming like that.” Beware of Mama with the remnants of her health. But Shien only dedicated a care. After all, Nathan's starting to suck it up, really.

“Udah want time. Come, Shi. Today let Mama be with Nathan. After this Papa has business.” Mama said as she moved, while Shien assisted Papa to climb up her wheelchair.

“Sister Niel can't meet Shien today.” Shanna's voice suddenly made Nathan turn to her with a raised eyebrow not understanding.

“Part of you is also of no use there.” Lady Shien.

Nathan looked at Shien as annoyed, and Shien instantly countered him with much more infuriating. There was a wry look in his clear eyes, Shien knew Nathan and his brother were becoming closer. Their behavior looked different than usual, Shien could sense that.

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Accompanied by the Nurse and Physician responsible for his physiotherapy, Shien is currently learning to walk after previously training his stiff hand muscles in another room. Shien fell over and over again, but Shien did not complain. Although sometimes his legs hurt and tired, but he had to try to hold it because Mama noticed and continued to encourage him from a distance.

Shien threw a smile towards the middle-aged woman as he saw her waving at him to lend support.

After that, Shien refocused on his activities learning to walk. Occasionally Shien gave a small snort and stared at the miris walker that supported his body to stand up. Shien thought, now he was no different from the elderly. Ahh, no. Elderly too mainstream, now it is no different from a baby who is learning to walk using a tool like this.

Shien turned his head quickly, thus making himself almost fall because his hand holding on to the walker stretched a little, lucky Nurse who had been beside him immediately held him.

Shien was silent with his head slightly turned, trying to find someone who felt he was watching. But there was no suspicious person there. There were only a few Doctors, Nurses, and patients like him who passed by.

“Mama is here.” And Mama who seemed to misunderstand even said. It seemed like the woman thought that Shien was looking around for her whereabouts. Shien then threw a stiff smile at Mama.

Exhaling weakly, if you know if you feel someone is stalking you.

“Suster. . .” Call Shien after distracting him and get back to learning to walk step by step.

“Iya? Any problems?” The nurse looked worried.

Shien shook his head slowly, then he asked. “What people who wake up from a coma can experience paranoid disorder?”

The nurse thought for a moment. “Almost all cases of accidents like the one that happened to you, most are traumatized.” The answer is then, feel never found a case of someone who experienced paranoid disorder after a major accident.

“Why? You have paranoid disorder? But it doesn't seem to be the result of an accident. You'd better see a psychiatrist after this.” Added the Nurse, making Shien snort a little bitterly. Shien, right, just asked. Not saying he has paranoid disorder. Huo.

But come to think of it, the Nurse might have a point because for these three days Shien continued to suspect that someone was keeping an eye on his movements.

And without Shien knowing, someone was indeed watching him. Skies.

The man always kept an eye on Shien while having some free time. Since Sky did not dare to meet Shien directly, he could only do this.

Paying attention to Shien from a distance like this and making sure he was doing well, was enough for Sky. Although Om Sendy and Aunt Risa sometimes reprimand and ask him to meet Shien directly, but Sky still feels inappropriate for it. The sky is in doubt if Shien still wants to see it.

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“Good work.” Praise Mama while shuffling Shien's hair affectionately as soon as her youngest girl finishes her physiotherapy session that day.

Mama looks happy because Shien can walk using a cane, although at any time a wheelchair is still needed. But the Doctor advised Shien to start learning to walk using a cane.

“I can walk for a while, Ma?” Ask Shien.

“So he said tired?” Mama said, Shien complained that he was very tired after undergoing a physiotherapy session.

“Now enggak.” Shien replied with a thin smile on his lips.

“Yes, come on Mama temenin.”

“No need!” Reject Shien quickly, making Mama frown in surprise, there was a look of disapproval in her eyes. After all, Mama could not let her son who could not walk normally roam around on his own.

“If you do not want to be cemented Mama, let the Sister who nemenin.” My mom made an offer.

“I want to go for a walk myself, Ma. All this pake.” Sahut Shien turned his chin towards his new wand. “I walk around here, really. Mama don't have to worry, besides I also bring a phone.” Shien added soothingly, then showed the phone he took from the patient's pocket he wore to Mama.

Mama stared worriedly at Shien for a moment, before then with a heavy heart she allowed it.

Shien had no idea what brought his steps to the children's ward, the place where Heaven worked. Not only that. Now he was standing right in front of the glass door of the man's room.

Shien stared sadly at the door of the room.

Instantly all the memories that had ever happened inside there revolved around him like a movie roll.

When Sky asked Shien to wait for him there with a film and a snack.

When they steal time to make out there

And many more. . . .

No tears Shien shed. All his pleasant memories and bad memories with Sky kept popping up alternately to make Shien's head dizzy.

His mind wanted to forget the sky, but his heart was not in line. His heart was still expecting that bastard who had hurt him. It really made Shien tormented.

His heart was really this weak, even though his brain repeatedly told him that Heaven had injured him.

Wiping tears on her cheeks, Shien decided to move on from there. Really stupid he was already standing there and still expecting the Sky. He didn't even show himself to apologize.

Shien grumbled in annoyance on the way to return to his nursing room. At least Sky had to apologize or say goodbye first before leaving.

Enter through the front door, but exit through the back door. Really not polite. Huo.

While passing through a fairly quiet hospital corridor, Shien suddenly stopped his steps when he saw a figure that he was very eager and did not want to see.

The sky came and walked from the opposite direction to him. In fact Shien wanted to continue walking and ignore the man. But he was petrified while staring sadly at the man who was walking closer to him. His heart was pounding violently as if it was about to break through his chest cavity.

Instantly Shien felt that he was already the saddest creature in this world. Obviously it's hurt, but still expect and want to see the person who hurts.

Both of Shien's hands clenched violently, the look in his eyes suddenly filled with anger as Sky passed him just like a stranger.

Flashing his smile wryly, Shien turned around. He took off one of the hospital slippers he was wearing, then threw the thing right at the nape of the Sky.

“Why turn around?” Shien asked coldly, his eyes fiery. While Sky only looked at him expressionlessly with one hand grasping the slippers Shien had thrown at him. “I asked why you turned around?” He asked once again with a breath that looks hunting, followed by tears that pooled in his eyes.

“Go there.” Once again, Shien took off the rest of the sandals and threw them with all his might, this time hitting the chest of Heaven. But the man remained unmoved. “Go all the way and I'll hate you even more, you son of a bitch!” Maki Shien then, the glare of her twinkling eyes drew sharp as if capable of piercing anyone who got that look.

After that Shien turned around to move from there.

“I have to go where?” Heaven's Legit, but Shien chose not to heed and continued to walk in limp with the help of his cane.

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To be continued. . . .