So In Love
EP. 89. Too Stupid

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“I have to go where?” Heaven's Legit, but Shien chose not to heed and continued to walk in limp with the help of his cane.

“I have to go where?” The sky asked again in a voice that sounded desperate. His gaze stared at the fragile back that was slowly drifting away in front of him, then turned to look at the two feet of Shien who was walking barefoot.

“I can go where while the place I go is here?” Ask the Sky again with a voice that increasingly felt choked. However, Shien still paid him no heed and continued walking with unsteady steps. It seemed that Shien had enough trouble with the stick flanked by each of his armpits.

Removing Shien's sandal from his hand, Sky then took quick steps to approach the girl, before then clutching her from behind. It was enough to make Shien shocked that both of his sticks came loose, then fell to the floor. Her still weak legs almost made her fall, but the Sky hand that was coiled along Shien's shoulder held her tightly, so it didn't happen.

“I'm not going anywhere, Shien. I can't.” Sky's great-grandson was almost like a whisper, unable to stem her tears anymore. While Shien was only speechless with tears that had been scattered since earlier.

Shien then turned around with one hand holding tightly the arm of Heaven to support his body to remain standing, while the other hand he used to beat the chest of the man.

“Go.” Shien said in a heavy voice, but Shien clearly knew what he said was a lie. Shien never wanted Sky to go away from him. No. gabe. His heart never wanted that one bit.

Letting go of Heaven was much harder than accepting it first. Shien can't.

“Evil, jerk, stupidest man.” The sky fell silent, letting the girl settle down venting her anger. “I hate you.” But in fact, Shien loves the Sky more.

Feeling his hand quite limp, Shien switched to biting Sky's shoulder arm as hard as he could afford. The sky remained silent without a fight, letting the pain and tenderness that had begun to creep up on his arm as a result of Shien's slow bite weaken. It seems like the girl is running out of energy.

Shien was calm enough. The sky then brought the girl to sit on a chair that was lined up on one side of the corridor.

“Sorry to me, Shi.” Said the Sky with a deeply regretful face, his fingers squeezing the palm of Shien's hand he held.

Shien was unmoved, not responding to Sky's words or putting up a fight like casting Heaven out from before him. He just stared blankly at his hand in the hand of Heaven. Her tears that stopped dripping left a dry trail, making Shien's face like a mask.

“I won't ask you to apologize to me. You have every right to be angry and not apologize to me. I realize, I've been very outrageous with you.” He looked down sad, his tone sounded resigned. “But I just want to say that I was wrong with you, I misunderstood you and I'm really sorry, I'm sorry for being rude and hurting you.”

“So, after hurting me, you want to go? Yes?” Shien sauteed with a hoarse voice. He looked at the cynical Sky, then threw his gaze back. “Ck, really good.” Shien then pulled his hand from the grasp of Heaven's hand with a slight jolt.

The sky shook, then grabbed Shien's hand back to hold it.

“If I could be honest, I never want to leave you or be left with you. But if you want me to go, I will. And vice versa. . .” He paused his sentence to take a breath that suddenly felt heavy. “If you want to leave me, I won't hold you anymore.” There was a tone of disassociation from the sentence he said.

Shien's heart melted away instantly. He wanted to be angry, but his strength was drained enough today. The sky can say that.

Did Heaven really not see his feelings?

If Shien really wanted to leave him. Why did he come all the way to the children's ward with legs that still can't walk normally like this?

Shien had indeed thought of forgetting the Sky. But that was because Shien was desperate. Shien could not convince Sky back then.

Perhaps Shien would be fine if he lost Heaven because he had really done something wrong. But what happened was a misunderstanding, and Shien would not know if he could survive that reality just because of a misunderstanding.

“You can go and meet better people. You shouldn't stay with people like me.” Sky smiled strangely as he tidied up Shien's slightly messy hair, then gently stroked the side of his face.

Shien raised his face, so that now his gaze met the eyes of Heaven who was looking at him softly. “Don't go even if I say it.”

Grasping the hand of Heaven that was at the side of his face, Shien stared at the handsome face in front of him that was heartbreaking. “And if I say it, it must be a lie.”

Sky stupefied. Felt Shien had said that, as if de javu. In the next instant, he remembered Shien saying that in his dream.

“Why, Shi?” Ask the feeble Sky. “Why don't you hate me? I've gone too far with you. I've been accusing you and being rude to you. You should hate a–”

“Who said I don't hate you?” Shien cut off the Sky greeting. “Just because I hate you so much, I won't let you go. I'll keep you by my side and torture you forever.”

The Sky's shoulders slumped. Suddenly he felt all his joints were squeezing. There was a haru and happy feeling at once that slowly spread in his heart. However Sky still fluttered at Shien, doubtful whether he deserved this or not. His mistake was already too much towards Shien.

Shien did not say he forgave or took it back. But what the girl had just said was much better than she had expected.

“Go there!” Shien pushed Sky's chest in annoyance. “I don't want to see your face again.”

The silent sky stared at Shien for a while, before then scattering the skinny body of the girl and hugging her tightly. “Stupid! Don't lie like this again.”

“You fool, you son of a bitch.” Shien struck Sky's back with the remnants of his strength. He then returned the embrace of Heaven is not less tight.

“Sorry to me, Shi. . .” The sky glimmered as he immersed his face between Shien's smooth and fragrant hair. “Sorry . .” His voice grew louder as his tears melted.

“Whispering.” Said Shien in the Sky Deck. He gently rubbed the man's back which seemed to shake amidst his sobs of restrained crying.

Sky swore it would not hurt Shien any more the slightest item. God will punish him more severely if he does.

“I love you more than any word can say.” Sky Whispers kissed Shien's hair deeply. “I love you more than every action I take. And I’ll be right here loving you till the end.” Continue Sky and again immerse his face in the recess of Shien's hair-covered neck while continuing to say the promise in his heart that he will never hurt Shien again.

“Me too. I love you. I love you still, I always have, and I always will.” Shien replied, yet he only uttered it inwardly. After all, he was still annoyed at this man who was hugging him.

“I’m so in love with you, Sky.” Imbuh Shien, still in his heart.

Shien smiled wryly behind the embrace of Heaven. Cussing at him was so stupid for loving him so much. It was too stupid that Shien could not hate him, let alone abandon him. Shien can't.

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“Why?” Nathan asked who had just caught up and sat behind the wheel. But the man did not start the machine. He chose to enjoy the face of Shanna for a moment. Nathan was curious, what exactly made this girl next to him look so happy?

“I am alone because Shien has woken up, continue our relationship is also already good aja.” Shanna smiled brightly, as bright as the yellow floral dress she wore. “But unfortunately Shien's relationship with the Sky is not okay. Shien says he wants to go back to America and let go of Heaven. I feel guilty.” Shanna looked down with a feeling of guilt and sadness.

“Maybe you've made mistakes with Sky and Shien. But their relationship problem is okay or not, it's none of your business and has nothing to do with you. There must be a certain reason that made Shien take such an action. Shien has his own decisions and you can't interfere.” Nathan said, then his hand stretched out gently rubbed Shanna's head.

“Iya, anyway, but still aja I–”

“Udah do not have to discuss them.” Sambar Nathan interrupted Shanna's speech. “Now you want to pinjem what do I do?” Ask then, he had only had time to ask this because they were still in the middle of the family. “Tumben is really out. Yes, although it is usually too difficult. But it's not unusual to wait– ” Nathan added muttered to himself, but his words depended when Shanna suddenly interjected.

“Make me my girlfriend.” Sela Shanna stopped Nathan's unfinished sentence.

“Ya?” Nathan blinked, looking at Shanna who was already looking at him first.

Shanna grunts amusedly. “I want to borrow this one day.” He pointed to Nathan's heart. While the handsome Doctor was still speechless, trying to digest well every sentence Shanna spoke.

“Why? Don't like it?” Shanna asked who saw Nathan was still a henchman with his composure.

Shanna doesn't understand Nathan's feelings for her. He came to his senses after his conversation with Nathan in the park a few days ago. It's just that, at that time Shanna was not ready to accept it all because all this time only considered Nathan really as a friend.

Maybe now is the right time to open his heart to Nathan.

Since the beginning of Heaven was not for him, Shanna had buried her feelings for the man, and Shanna also realized that giving up something was not the end of everything, it can be the starting point of a better life.

Although his heart still did not accept Nathan completely, but by opening up like this, Shanna hoped that someday her heart could be given completely to the man who was looking at her with this innocent face next to her.

Nathan's right. Clapping is stupid love, and living with the one who loves us is actually better.

“Yes already, if you are not willing to minjemin. I'm not maksa.” Shanna pretended to be disappointed and prepared to open the car door to get off. But Nathan immediately restrained his arm.

“Not so. . .” Nathan hung up, before he spoke again. “Then I want to borrow you to be my girlfriend. Not just today. . .” There was a nervous breath there. “But also make tomorrow, tomorrow again, and so on.”

Shanna looked at Nathan. Suddenly his heart pounded so much that he was afraid that Nathan would hear him.

“Eung. . .” Shanna pretended to think. “I thought about it first, yeah. All you want to calculate the cost of rent per day how much.” He said, then laughed a bitch.

“Huh, ngeselin.” Midget Nathan while pinching Shnana's head slowly.

The next second, the atmosphere between them became a little clumsy. Both are equally wrong.

“So, where should we start?” Nathan asked, trying to melt the atmosphere again.

Shanna was silent for a moment while looking at Nathan hesitantly, then her index finger stretched out touching Nathan's reddish lips. “From here.”

Then what he did next was pull Nathan's nape and put his lips on the man's lips.

Of course Nathan was flabbergasted with perfectly widened eyes. His reaction was almost the same when Shanna suddenly kissed him while drunk first. But this time it's different. The girl kissed him in a conscious state. But even so, Nathan still does not return Shanna's kiss. It felt too nervous at this moment to make his body freeze.

“Our first kiss.” Shanna said shyly after pulling herself. Shanna also felt her face heat up along with the red hue that appeared on her cheek.

Nathan snorted, then spoke inwardly. “This is the second, stupid.” He smiled a little, scrambled Shanna's hair, then smoothed it again in the most gentle motion possible.

“This time we want to do?” Nathan asked as he slipped Shanna's son's hair behind his ear.

“I want us to walk as much as possible from this afternoon to a full night, because tomorrow the day after your beautiful girlfriend wants to go to Pare for a week.” Shanna answered while wagging her hair using her lentic finger decorated with yellow cuttings in line with the clothes she wore. “Can be more too, anyway.” Added later.

“Lho, why go to Pare?” Nathan asked curiously, also feeling unwilling.

Shanna then explained the reason for going there was for the study tour activity which has become a program every semester in the place of tutoring. Because the study tour was held to coincide with school holidays, so the activity lasted quite long. It could be a week or even more. Shanna also added that usually abroad is an option. But this year Pare, Kediri, entered the list among several places proposed by the Teachers in the place of tutoring.

“So I was left, nih?” Nathan's face turned a little gloomy.

“You have left me more than seventeen years, tuh.” Sindir Shanna, make Nathan can not protest. “A week mah what, just a stretch doang.”

“Iya, deh, yes.” Nathan resigned, although actually in the heart still not willing. But he also cannot behave like a childish ABG. Shanna also has her own busy life and responsibilities towards her work.

“Atau. . .” Shanna's eyes suddenly sparkled when she thought of something. “What if you come with me to go there, brother? All holidays? Who knew coming home from there got a child, that abis was married.” Her taps then while raising her eyebrows meaningfully.

Nathan was flabbergasted with a slightly gaping mouth hearing such a thing ejected from the mouth of Shanna whose incident was a girl.

A moment later, Shanna felt her forehead throbbing pain. Nathan nudged it so hard, it even left a little red mark there.

“From now on, don't think of anything carelessly without my permission.” Nathan said angry and upset. While Shanna just chuckled, no matter if the words were too careless or not.

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To be continued. . . .