So In Love
EP. 69. Consider it Again

Huhu, sorry late. Intentions update last night, but wifi at home dead haven't paid the bill and I don't have a quota. Wax 😂😂😂😂

Happy reading, yes.

This week is not slow up anymore.

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The sky restored her hair while occasionally sighing in frustration. Since earlier, ever since the girl saw him with Shanna in the jewelry store, the angry Shien still kept his mouth shut.

Damn it. The sky had not even figured out what was the cause of Shien silencing her yesterday, and now Shien had misunderstood due to what he had witnessed in the jewelry store a moment ago.

Ahh, who would have thought that Sky would meet with Shanna there? The sky went there only to buy jewelry for Dusk, the older brother who would have a birthday in a few days. He also bought one for Shien and intended to give the girl a surprise after returning home from there. But, what a coincidence that he did not expect to meet with Shanna and her friend, and Shien came at an inappropriate time.

Shien was so defensive, he didn't even want to listen to Sky's explanation and exit the mall, then stop the taxi passing in front of him.

The sky tried to prevent Shien from boarding the taxi, but to no avail. Then he hurriedly took his car in the parking lot and followed Shien's taxi that turned out to stop right in front of his apartment building.

The sky rushed down from the car he parked just like he did and overtook Shien who was walking towards the garden in the apartment.

Shien sat down in one of the chairs in the park. A moment of silence Sky watched Shien sitting on his back. He folded his lips inward with a busy mind guessing. Is Shien very angry at him? Is Shien crying right now? The sky knows for sure.

“Shi. . .” Call the Sky after he approached and sat next to Shien who was flinching with his expressionless face, not responding to Sky's call. The girl stared straight in any direction with fingers twisting each other over her pants that were still her work suit. The light of the garden lights that were bright enough from behind made Shien's sad face disguised by the shadows.

“Shien. . .” Grabbing Shien's one hand, Sky fused their palms together then tightened the hand. “I'm sorry yes. . . .”

Sighing heavily, Shien turned his head so that his gaze met the regretful-looking face of Heaven. “You know? I thought I knew you. But somehow I was wrong.”

The sky shook quickly. “I can clear. I met Shanna with a friend earlier this month, and. . .”

“And you choose silence because it is not good same brother Shanna.” Sambar Shien was quick, he smiled smirkingly. “Let me guess, you don't want to make him shy or lose face. That's why you chose silence, yes?”

The sky was filled with regret. Condemn his unequivocal stupidity in taking a stand. His lips opened up about to reply to Shien's words which were not wrong, but clenched again because he was too confused.

“Sky, can you not be too nice?” Shien asked with a disappointed look.

Shien knew, Sky has a good heart and is used to treating everyone well anyway. The sky is too guarding the feelings of others, but he does not heed the restrictions so that his attitude unknowingly hurts Shien whose incident is his lover, and should Shien's feelings take precedence, only others later.

Shien was really disappointed by this.

“You are. . .” Shien shook his head in disbelief. “Do not know the limitations and do not have watering. I did not expect, it turns out you are a person like this.”

Shien was about to release his hand from the grasp of Heaven's hand. But the man did not let it go and clasped his hands tighter and tighter.

“Sorry to me, Shi.” Said the Sky once again with a pleading gaze.

Shien clucked, removing his hand grip from the man with a full jolt. “Then this is the case, I have doubts about how you feel about me.” Shien paused his sentence for a while, the pooling tears were already ready to plunge freely down his cheeks. “ If you just want to mess around, please don't be the same me.” Continue with a trembling voice, then leave the sky to enter the apartment building.

Shien's disappointed. He did not want to hear anything from the mouth of Heaven at this moment. Not before the Heavens were fully aware and correcting the location of his mistake. Shien did not want Sky to only be able to apologize but then repeat it again.

It was not that Shien asked or demanded Heaven to change his attitude. NOPE. Shien only wanted Sky to make a restriction on Shanna or the other girl who claimed to be a friend and to think more about her feelings, that was all.

Shien's been tolerant enough, isn't he?

The sky rose to its feet in quick motion, then immediately ran to chase after Shien who had already walked far away there.

“Shien, I know you're mad at me.” The sky held Shien's hand that was about to open the door of his apartment, then pulled him to then turn the girl's body to face him.

“I was wrong and I'm sorry.” Speak the sky with a clear face. He really regretted having done that. Instantly his heart ached, feeling himself very bad and also guilty for disappointing and making Shien cry, clearly visible from the remnants of tears that began to dry on his cheeks.

“You can be angry with me, you can mock me, you can hit me. But, please don't doubt my feelings for you. Trust me, please.” Please her again while bringing Shien's body into her arms, but Shien is still defensive. The girl pushed the chest of Heaven with the remnants of her strength until a distance was created between them.

“I don't know. I'm confused.” Shien said tired. “Our relationship. . .”

“No, Shi. . .” Sambar Langit was quick, he did not want to hear any possibility of Shien's next sentence.

“It looks like we should consider it again.” Connect Shien, then rush inside his apartment, leaving the Sky standing glued to its place. Within seconds of Shien's last sentence, he could only be speechless looking at Shien's back which had now disappeared behind the tightly shut door.

His heart hurts. Clearly, Shien blurted out that sentence with deep disappointment towards him.

“Shien, open the door. Don't talk like that, I'm sorry.” The sky continued to press the bell and repeatedly said an apology, hoping Shien would open the door and meet him. But nil, even after a few hours had passed and the feet of Heaven felt numb from too long standing at the door, the girl did not go out.

Actually, Sky could have barged into Shien's apartment, considering he knew his passcode. But if he did that, Sky was afraid that Shien would grow angry at him. So he chose to wait for the girl to open the door as she wished.

Exhaling weak breaths, Sky decided to go and enter his own apartment with shaky steps. Maybe Shien needs some time to calm his current anger, Sky will meet him tomorrow again. Steady, Sky did not want to fight for long with Shien.

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The ceiling was pensive over his chair as he moved the chair left and right with his head turned to look at the ceiling of the room. Counting four days since he last met Shien in the apartment, Shien refused to meet him. The girl also ignored her phone calls and chat messages.

“Our relationship. . .”

“It looks like we should consider it again.”

Shien's last sentence was ringing in his head. So even with Shien's disappointed face that is still clearly reflected in his memory.

Did that attitude hurt Shien so much that he doubted his feelings? Even thinking about considering their relationship?

The sky shook his head. No. gabe. The sky doesn't want that to happen. The sky did not want Shien to leave him even if Shien only thought to it.

The sound of knocking on the door made the sky recognize and allow anyone to enter his room. When the door opened, Blue who was still wearing a scrub uniform walked towards him with two bubble cups full of whipped cream on top. Quite suitable to overcome hypoglycemia that is often experienced by several doctors including himself, because the drink contains sugar levels that are arguably not low.

“But your face lately. Why?” Blue asked with a probing glance, as if knowing something was wrong with her best friend.

“Very much work only.” Subject Sky, making his voice sound relaxed. He does not intend to tell anyone about his personal problems as long as he can still overcome them himself. He then grabbed a cup of bubble drink offered Blue, then drank it by scooping whipped cream first. The man looked very sweet with a messy cream around his mouth.

“Ngapain to here?” Ask Sky then. Amazingly Blue suddenly came to his room, even though they had no promise to gather or enjoy relaxing time together.

“Ya want to. Can't you?” Sehut Blue sewot, then lick whipped cream that straws around his mouth, just like a child. Maybe if any other Doctor or Nurse saw their Head of Hospital like this, Blue would really lose his will.

“No usually aja.” Sky murmured and again enjoyed the bubble drink, just cool his head that previously felt mummified.

“Ohh, yes. . .” Blue said after a moment of silence, he stopped enjoying his drink when he remembered something. The sky looked up next to the raised eyebrows representing an unspoken question in his mouth.

“Gue saw recently you had lunch with the crazy girl. That means, Shanna.” Blue continued to slightly rectify his speech, considering that these two days he had accidentally seen Sky and Shanna having lunch together at a restaurant near the hospital. Not only that, he also saw them sometimes hanging out together at the coffee shop in the afternoon. “Gue equals Orange also see elo same him last night in mall. What abis? Shopping together? You guys are so cool like.” Add it with a full-fledged eye search. He felt uncomfortable seeing that. Perhaps if he did not know Sky was Shien's lover, his feelings would not be disturbed. Blue just felt it wasn't right.

The sky nodded, not denying what Blue said. “She came here and I don't feel good refusing her invitation. And the one in the mall, I accidentally met him when he wanted to buy something, happened to be the same store, so all together.”

Blue was flabbergasted with a slightly gaping mouth hearing the Sky's speech. Did he realize that with his words? All this time, he thought the sky was better than him.

“Lo should keep her distance.” Not Blue wants to interfere in the affairs of the Sky. It's just that, as a friend he felt he had to give her a little reprimand. Blue does not want what happened to him first also experienced by the sky.

“Jaga what distance? I'm the same he's just a friend, nothing more.” Sky Sahut.

“And you know for yourself that Shanna doesn't think you're just a friend. His feelings are more than that. You said it was the same with me and Jingga.” Blue Reminds. “Lo think how Shien would feel if he knew this? Although you guys do not say anything, but I'm sure he will not be comfortable.” He said, making Sky silenced could not reply to his words.

“That's not real, Lang. If you like gini, you are just like giving Shanna the same opportunity to deketin lo. That unpleasant attitude can make anyone misunderstand, and indirectly can hurt Shien.” The sky was overwhelmed by the Blue Speech. Yeah, he's right. The sky witnessed for itself how disappointed Shien was to her after the incident at the jewelry store.

“Lo must have limits in making friends with the opposite sex. Because now there's a feeling someone has to take care of, Shien. You have to keep his feelings both front and back.”

The sky is still silent. As if struck, he felt his body heating up accompanied by a corner of his wounded heart. He was aware of something, The sky had already made a mistake once again. He wants Shien to keep his feelings in check, but he doesn't act the way he wants to be treated. The sky felt very selfish towards Shien.

“Lo know exactly how disturbed Orange see my closeness with Luna first. I don't want you to remember what happened to me.” Blue words sincere. The orange shadow that left him because of his stupidity again flashed on his head Lucky the girl who had become his wife was still giving her a chance. If not, then Blue no longer knows how he will move on.

“Gue sure, you know better how to take a stand. I only know you as a friend. Because not everyone can get a second chance, do not let lo nyesel in the future.” Blue then moved after reading a message asking him to go to the IGD room, then patted the shoulder of the Sky and then passed away from the room of a friend who was younger than him.

After Blue disappeared from behind the door, Sky then leaned his back on the seat back. He pensively himself, constantly repeating the words Blue in his mind.

Ringing notifications from one of the social media applications on his phone instantly disperse the reverie of Heaven. He then grabbed the phone lying on the table, then saw the notification pop up.

@bright_shanna mentions you in their post

The sky frowned, then opened the application that is usually used as a showroom for most people in this part of the world. As soon as the application with the camera-shaped logo was open, there was a photo of his collaboration with Shanna when they played in Dufan some time ago with a caption of a red heart mark accompanying him.

There are about five photos that Shanna posted, and all five are photos together with Sky. They were so close in the photo that the Sky grabbed Shanna's shoulders and their heads stuck together, not forgetting the smile on their lips as well as beautifying the photos.

Instantly the Sky's eyes were perfectly rounded with the body stiffened. He was revived, aware of something that made Shien silence him after returning home from Dufan.

He has made mistakes since that day. He had already ignored Shien and had fun himself. Ahh, no. More precisely, he played with Shanna and ignored Shien. He even forgot Shien's invitation to enter the Ice Age. Though, he said it was Shien's first experience setting foot in Dufan.

Not only that, the photos also herded the memory of Heaven on other things.

“Actually, emang ngebosenin. Make sleepy.”

“From the beginning, this is the vehicle I have avoided the most. I don't like this the most.”

The corner of Heaven's heart again throbbed in pain recalling his involuntary remark while in the puppet palace. Could it be that Shien heard that as well?

Really am. The sky feels worse now. He promised himself to be a protector and giver of happiness to Shien, but he did just the opposite. He was the one who hurt the girl the most.

Realizing his folly, Sky immediately changed his clothes and walked out of the room to look for Shien.

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To be continued. . . . .