So In Love
EP. 55. Fine

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All the way in the car was simply adorned with silence. The sky did not open his voice at all once out of the mall, he tightly closed his lips and just focused on driving.

Likewise with Shien, the girl repeatedly sighed boredly and could only stare out the car window because Sky did not invite her to speak. Whether what happened to this handsome creature next to him, not usually the Sky that always dominated the conversation, now more silent.

Soft music provides a little entertainment. However, it does not melt the frost between them.

“Udah nyampe, Shi.”

The soft-sounding voice of Heaven made Shien who was drowning in his daydream instantly jump in shock.

“Ehh, have arrived, yes?” The girl then spread her eyes around. True, Sky's car had stopped right in front of the gate of his towering house.

Shien opened the seat belt hook, but did not immediately go down. The sky just stared at him in silence.

“What's up, Shi?” Ask the Sky at last.

Shien turned his head, hesitating to say something.

“There is a miss.” Shien said softly. While Sky only raised next to his eyebrows a sign asked.

Then, without saying much Shien leaned his body towards the Sky to reach the man's lips.

However, immediately Heaven turned his face to avoid making the girl look at him in protest.

“Lang. . .” Shien's face looked disappointed. But the sky didn't notice it.

“I think you twins know each other well, because you guys are special.” Said the Sky, making Shien blink clueless and slowly rewind his body.

“But. . .” The sky sighed for a moment as it turned towards Shien and revealed a smile that was hard to decipher. “It seems you don't know enough of your brother, Shanna.”

Had enough. The sky would not let this girl sitting next to him continue pretending to be his lover. The sky did not understand why Shanna could pretend to be Shien. What was the purpose of the girl doing something like this?

Shien's real face was not Shien it instantly paled with perfectly widened eyes upon finding the Sky that had already recognized him. The girl then fell silent, her shoulders seemed to droop until making her sitting position not as fast as before. Her lips folded nervously, her hands suddenly sweating from anxiety.

“I will never misunderstand the person I love, Shanna.” The sky blurted out with utter decisiveness, as if to say that she loved Shien very much and she naturally knew him well.

“You should know these little things. The Shien never took the initiative first, Shien never smiled kindly even though the one in front of him was an old man, Shien does not need to use zig-zag way if again eating steak because he can use his left hand to cut meat.” The sky was silent for a moment to take a breath, his gaze was so intimidating that it made Shanna freeze.

“You look perfectly like Shien until I almost thought you were really Shien. But, it's a pity that you can't imitate well even for his little habits. Ck, your acting is bad, Sha.” Connect later.

Shanna who heard that only hardened her jaw with clenched hands. He felt that Heaven was humiliating him at this moment.

But honestly, actually Heaven never wanted or there was any intention to bully or humiliate Shanna like this. The sky just felt. . . , must stop Shanna from doing anything she shouldn't.

“And one more thing you forgot. . .” The sky again made a sound after a moment of silence and threw sharp glances at each other with Shanna.

“Shien mixes her perfume.” Sky, he knows this one best. Although Shien basically likes orange blossom, but the girl always blends it with a soft floral scent that creates a distinctive fragrance. Fits the personality of Shien who always wants to look different from others. The girl was very attentive to everything that supported her appearance.

“ENOUGH!” Sambar Shanna with overflowing emotions. “Are you not too late, Sky? You want to point out if your relationship has gone that far, yes?”

“I don't know why you do such a childish thing, Sha.” The sky ignored Shanna's words. “Shien would be disappointed if he knew this.” And then he nodded in disbelief.

Shien flashed a sarcastic smile. “Kelewa? Who disappointed who?” The girl then grinned with a scornful look. “Shien knows how I feel about you, but what does she do?”

“And what did you ask earlier?” Shanna paused her sentence for a moment, she took a deep breath in search of a bit of calm there. “Why can I do this?”

The sky only fell silent while looking at her sharply, letting the girl finish what she wanted to say.

“That's because I like you. Sky, I love you.” Shanna's lips twitched, her eyes began to glaze over.

“So, it hurts when I know that you guys. . .” The girl could not continue her sentence, her voice choked as if something was stuck in her throat.

“I always try to get your heart, but why did you choose Shien who did nothing? And I know you're not stupid to see that. But you always limit yourself and just think of me as a friend.” He said again with a trembling voice.

“Shanna, I told you that we can never choose to fall in love with whom.” Sky Sahut.

“Why?” Sambar Shanna fast. Apparently, the girl wanted an explanation. Shanna couldn't take all this for granted. There must be a good reason why Sky chose Shien and not him.

The sky looked at the sad looking Shien.

“Because Shien is Shien.” Sky replied hesitantly, unsure if Shanna would understand.

“What do you mean?” Sahut Shanna's. “Why, Lang? Why Shien and not me?”

The sky did not answer. He shook his head, allowing Shanna to reveal all the feelings she might have been harboring in her heart first.

“Why? In fact, we are twins. Our faces are the same. You even met me first. You also know that I always show my true feelings.But why did you choose him instead? Is it because he looks more innocent? Is it because he is quiet? Or because he's seriously ill and looks weaker than me?” Shanna cried again, looking fiery.

Sky shakes. Right now, the familiar Shanna, who was always cheerful, was out of control.

“Why, Lang? Is it because in your eyes guys, Shien is so eye-catching? Da? Since she always looks weak, you guys feel like protecting her?” Shanna laughed miris.

“I'm less what, huh, Lang? You could say, I'm more everything than Shien. Aye, right? I'm more sociable, I'm more independent, I'm also much healthier, I'm more everything.” Shanna said that with eyes full of despair.

“But why, Lang? You chose Shien instead. Just like everyone else who prefers him. Ailing Shien, a helpless Shien, a shien who can't do anything.” Shanna paused for a moment to wipe away her falling tears, then continued her sentence. “What is a weak girl like she's more attractive in your eyes, Lang? Do you feel sorry for him?”

Sky shakes. “Now!” Sahut Langit firmly. The look on his face was irritated, Sky did not like Shanna's increasingly wild words, much less calling her own brother a helpless girl. Shien is not that weak.

“I never pity Shien. I love him, Sha. And you're wrong. I met Shien first. I fell in love with Shien, before I even knew how he was. And I'm not gonna bother about that. She is the love of my life, there is nothing that will ever change that. I will always love her, no matter what.” The sky spoke with confidence and decisiveness, making the seeds of hatred in Shanna's heart towards Shien grow even more after hearing it.

Shanna was silent at the sky, then laughed sarcastically. “You fell in love with Shien because you met him first?” Shanna asked, stopped laughing then looked pusar towards the outside of the streets of the housing complex which was quite quiet. “And damn I don't get picked just because. . .”

“And I'm sure, I will still fall in love with Shien even if he comes after you.” The sky interrupted Shanna's words. Feeling Shien is his destiny, which God created to be present in his life.

“Lang, I need a reason.” Shanna said in a weak voice. “Rogical reasons.”

Sighing, Sky looked at Shanna who seemed to have calmed down.

“Sha, the only reason I love Shien, is because Shien is Shien. If he wasn't Shien, I wouldn't love him. Only he can make my heart beat, only he is always on my mind, Shien is the last thing on my mind before going to bed and the first time after I wake up every morning. He's the only person who can be the source of my happiness, the center of the world and my whole heart.” Sky really. The same answer he gave to Shien back then when the girl asked him the same thing as Shanna.

“Although this sounds silly, but Shien continues to grow in my mind and heart every day.” Continue Sky.

Shanna was speechless with tears constantly flowing down her face. He could not say that the thought of Heaven was ridiculous. In fact, Shanna did the same thing. The figure of Heaven also grew in his mind day by day.

“I know, it may be difficult for you to understand and accept this. Nor will I ask you to accept our relationship quickly. But, I hope you don't hate Shien for this, because between the three of us no one is guilty at all.”

“Although I have other options, Lang?” Sahut Shanna cynical. “Do I have to live by pretending not to know that you guys are together. How does it matter if I accept your relationship or not? You guys are gonna keep together, right? Ck, Papa you are the same parents I even have planned the future for you.” His voice sounded bitter as soon as he reached the last sentence.

The sky looked at Shanna with a guilty feeling. But guilty of what? The human heart is a difficult thing to control with the mind.

“Why should he, anyway, Lang? Why not someone else? Why should my twin sister?” Ask Shien again. “Not to be answered!” Then before Heaven opened his mouth. “Because Shien is Shien. I know.”

The sky and Shanna were both silent for a while. Shanna wiped away the tears that kept soaking her face.

“Not mean I don't love you, Sha.” The Sky Spoke, made Shanna snort.

“You don't need to give me a hand, Lang. Save aja. . .”

“I don't pity you.” Sambar Sky fast. “But I love you. You think, since I love Shien, I hate you? No, Sha. You are still my best friend, even I have considered as my own brother.”

Shanna looked at the bitter sky. It is not that he does not know if the man loves him. Only, Shanna could not accept that reality. Not as a brother.

“Friend? A brother? You kidding?” Shien smiled back cynically. “Sorry, Lang. I can't accept that.”

“I want, you see me like Shien.” Shanna's words returned uncontrollably.

“Don't be crazy!” The cry of Heaven accompanied by a sharp gaze.

“I won't give up. I'll show you that I deserve you better.” Sahut Shanna.

The sky closed its eyes as it let out a deep breath to keep itself calm.

“Shien is the best and will always be the best. There is no girl I deserve more than her.” The words of Heaven are full of emphasis in every word.

“Shien the. . .” Shanna muttered as she took off the wig, one of the tools she used to look like Shien. And now, plastered hair colors are dipepol. “People are lucky.” He nodded with a smile.

“But, I won't surrender to take you from him.” The girl then put on a sly grin.

“You won't make it.” Sahut Langit while holding back furious.

Yep. We cannot force someone to love us.

When we have very deep feelings for someone, but he does not love us back, then there is no right for us to continue to impose the will.

Love is not something that can be asked for, we can never force someone to have the same feelings for us. Until at any time, we will not get the feeling of love if forced.

There are times when we have to be the ones who are able to accept that reality, accept the fact that the person we love, does not love us.

“See aja later.” Shanna's reply sounded defiant.

“And all you will get is heartache.” Sky commemorating.

“I don't care.” Shanna's jolt is getting emotional. Seen from the roar of his breath that began to irregular.

“Out there, there are many people who will love you and appreciate the feeling of ka-“

“STOP.” Shanna shouted while covering her ears with both palms.

“Don't be stubborn, Shanna.” Sky cried out furiously, his voice sounding an octave higher.

The girl opened the door and got out of the car.

Before stepping into her house, Shanna first slammed the door of Sky's car very rudely until it sounded a very loud debuman.

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Shanna immediately ran up the stairs to her room on the second floor as soon as she entered the house.

His steps came to a halt as soon as he crossed paths with Shien, right in the middle of the stairs. Their bodies almost collided until Shanna almost staggered back. Luckily his hands were holding on to the stair railing.

“New home?” Ask Shien. Flat and expressionless as usual.

Shanna did not reply, she looked at her twin sister with a cold look.

Shien who looks paler without makeup polish, his face is so innocent like a child, his eyes look cute. It seems that the condition of the girl is not so good. Cih, Shanna was suddenly fed up of seeing that weak-looking Shien.

But, it was undeniable that in her most basic heart, Shanna was worried about the girl. However, Shien was still his most beloved sister.

“Kak, I want to say something ka-”

“Today I'm really tired.” Shanna jerked roughly at Shien's hand that had just touched her arm.

“Tap-”

And without giving Shien a chance to speak again. Shanna hurriedly left her sister and went into her room.

While Shien who felt the change in attitude of the elder brother since yesterday only fell silent. His gaze followed Shanna's back which was further away and then disappeared from the stairs.

The girl breathed a heavy breath. Shien did not need to guess or wonder why Shanna suddenly acted coldly to him. Shanna must have known everything, and even so, Shien still wanted and had to tell Shanna naturally.

Shortly after Shanna lost her sight, Shien resumed her steps down the stairs to collect drinking water in the kitchen. His steps look very weak along with his chest that continues to throb pain to cause a sense of tightness. Shien was not very healthy at the moment.

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Inside the room, Shanna immediately threw her bag into any place in a fit of annoyance, then sat in front of the mirror that fused with the dressing table.

Shanna was speechless with a blank look, staring at the reflection of her face in front of the mirror. Exactly the same face as a much loved one and also. . , hated it.

Never had Shanna been this cowardly in her entire life.

Stealing rings. . . .

Ahh, no. Shanna had only borrowed it for a moment to perfect her disguise looking like Shien.

Shanna had to do that. Shanna is not willing to Shien turns out to be the girl Sky likes. Shanna doesn't want them together.

All this time, Shana who was trying desperately chased after the Sky. But, why did Shien even get it?

As a result, Shanna pretends to be Shien. Intended to know how Heaven treated the girl, and wanted to destroy their relationship through her disguise.

But who would have thought, when his parents could he be fooled, but not with the Sky. In fact, Shanna was already very confident. Even as he borrowed Shien's phone and contacted Sky to watch, he still had not realized that he was Shanna.

Damn it, the man turned out to know Shien very well even to the smallest thing. And Shanna forgot about that.

He thought, just by appearance and just pretending to be innocent, more silence, and putting on a cold face, all that was enough.

But it didn't. Shanna was still too careless and stupid to play the role. It was his fault, he should have been in the role he would have played first. Supposedly, he did not rush and in the end got a failure, also humiliated like this by the Heavens.

Apparently, the man had recognized her from the beginning.

Shanna closed her eyes with a deep sigh, seeking tranquility there.

Worth it, when dinner the sky was so cold to her. Though, she said Shien was someone she loved the most.

Shanna smiled wryly. Even as he pretended to be Shien, Heaven kept the boundaries by putting up a thick wall in his heart. Not giving a gap for Shanna to enter the item in the slightest.

The sky even blatantly said that she loved Shien very much. Shien was so special in his heart, as if irreplaceable.

“See aja. I'll make Shien himself give up on you, Lang.”

Shanna spoke to herself in front of her shadow. Both of his hands clenched violently on the table, resisting all sorts of emotions present within the chest.

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That afternoon, Shanna went straight home as soon as she finished work and changed her clothes to sportswear.

The girl then went out of the house to then run around the complex park, even though it was drizzling.

So many things he thought. After knowing clearly that now the Sky belonged to Shien. Shanna's not very well, it's not fine.

Jobs in the office abandoned, he could not concentrate when teaching foreign languages to his students, so he was often absent and forced to find a substitute teacher.

Counting more than ten rounds he ran, but Shanna still seemed reluctant to stop even though his legs began to ache and his running speed was getting slower, even his steps almost limped.

“Ahh, Shit.” Umpat Shanna was upset when he fell because he tripped on his shoelaces that were released. He then moved, then crouched down to tie back his shoelaces.

“Kak. . .”

Shanna was shocked, and found Shien standing right behind her under the cover of an umbrella. Today, wearing a buttoned dress with a sabrina collar and black belt, she looks charismatic with her classy office style.

Is that what Sky likes from Shien? Hid.

Shanna snorted as she threw away her gaze. And for the first time, Shanna hates having the same face as her twin sister.

“Ujan, sis.” Shien reminded as he looked at Shanna who was still unmoved in her position. The clothes that the colorful hair girl was wearing were now wet, and Shien was trying to paddle her. “Later sick.”

“What care you, anyway?” Sambar Shanna was upset as she stood up. Hearing her brother's high voice, Shien was shocked.

Really, Shanna didn't mean to be so hard on Shien, it was just that her frustration had already peaked. Shanna hates Shien, Shanna. . , very disappointed in him.

“Ya cares, lah.” Answer Shien. “Why are you, anyway, brother? Any problems?”

Shanna smiled wryly, her attention focused on Shien. Ck, why is he still asking such things? Shouldn't Shien know what the problem is?

“Kak, I'm the same Sky already. . .” Shien could not linger on not saying this to her brother, even though Shanna already knew.

“I know.” Tandas Shanna, don't want to hear more.

“I asked ma-”

“Why?” Sambar Shanna fast. His high tone of voice made Shien's heart beat even faster. “Why didn't you say from the beginning that you like him?”

Shien was silent unable to answer. He stared sadly at Shanna who moved away until her body was drenched by rainwater. Shanna now looks more defensive. Though, Shien was eager to hug her.

“If you had said earlier, I could have retreated earlier, Shi, same him.” Shanna's voice squeaked at the end of the sentence.

Shien remained unmoved. Yeah, it was his fault. Shien was dishonest from the start. And who would have thought that he would fall in love with that man and decide with him. Previously, it had never been in Shien's life plan.

“I told you, I can let go of him for you.” Imbuh Shanna along with her tears that began to drip, mixed with rainwater, to make the tears were disguised.

“But, what did you say back then? You arrogantly said no interest at all in him.” Shanna paused her sentence for a moment, her eyes looking narrowed due to the rain. “And now what happened? You walk with him behind me. Even your relationship is far away. Wicked you, Shi.”

“You’re the sweetest little witch i ever knew.” Connect Shanna while pointing at Shien with her index finger.

“Sorry.” That was all Shien could say. The girl then tightened her hand on the handle of her umbrella, trying to withstand the pain in her chest that was becoming more and more so.

Shanna smiled grinning. “Sorry? Can it be solved with an apology?”

“Do you not think about my feelings, Shi?” Shanna pushed Shien's fragile body with one of her index fingers until it made the girl slightly unsteady.

“I already love him, and now I can't give up so.” Shanna screams in despair.

“Kak. . .” Shien was about to protest, but Shanna interrupted him again.

“You better give up on him, Shi. If you are on the side of the sky, you can only be a burden to him. You know, don't you, I mean?”

Shien flinched, even his body barely staggered back. Shanna's words hurt her heart enough.

“Why? Pain?” Shanna asked with a scornful look as she saw Shien squeezing the shirt in front of her chest.

“I envy you because you always get everything without having to ask or do anything.” Sindir Shanna while grabbing the hand Shien used to hold his chest in a rough motion.

Seeing Shien's heartbeat, Shanna jerked the fragile hand just as roughly as when she grabbed it.

“During this time, you always get what you want. Because you are sick, everyone will give and do anything for you. You always manage to make anyone helpless in front of you.”

Although her skin was cold because the weather was currently raining, Shien felt her heart hot after hearing Shanna say such words to him. It doesn't matter if the one who said it was Terry or someone else. But Shanna. . , the words that came out of the girl's mouth made the pain in Shien's heart multiply.

“Don't talk like that.” Shien said along with a decrease in the capacity of his lungs to hold air while breathing.

Shanna snorted, then threw away her gaze and walked away, leaving Shien drooping on the garden floor made of that natural stone.

While Shien could only see Shanna's departure with a wounded look. Shien did not have the strength to even just call out Shanna's name.

Faintly, he heard Reno's voice calling out names and shaking his body. However, Shien was unable to sense anything more after his consciousness completely disappeared.

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To be continued. . . .