So In Love
EP. 23. Carry Atmosphere

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The sky clenched one of her hands hanging freely beside her, while the other hand held tightly to the bouquet of roses she was about to give to Shien. Intentions want to see the state of the girl who might have fallen ill because she took him to play all day yesterday, but who would have thought he even accidentally heard the conversation of Shien and his twin brother.

The sky returned Shien's gaze which happened to turn towards the door. The girl looked stunned, their gaze locked for a few seconds before then Sky chose to turn the bow, then went missing behind Shien's room door. While the flowers he just dropped.

Shien who saw that could only stare at the departure of Sky with a blank look.

It doesn't seem bad either, does it? The sky looked disappointed at him, he would automatically give up and stay away from him.

“Sorry.” Shien in heart. Honestly, he actually regretted saying that and did not expect Heaven to hear it.

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The sky entered the park between Shien's hospital and office after he drove his car at high speed.

His hand gently reflected the basketball he had taken from the trunk of his car. Even though the afternoon was drizzling, the sky did not care about it.

The sky was so shocked to hear what Shien said just now. It felt, eager for him to shout and curse at the girl because of his words. Shien says that he has no interest in her and simply hands her over to Shanna.

Then why did Shien return her kiss yesterday as if he gave her hope? The sky did that with all the love in his heart. What about Shien? Does that kiss mean nothing?

Shien was like taking him flying, then just throwing him away.

“SHIT.” The sky slammed his basketball madly into the ring board as he continued to fail shots. Many times Sky shot, repeatedly the ball failed to enter the ring.

“Sialan.” And once again the ball he threw towards the ring missed.

Yeah, goddamn. Sky knew Shien was also putting his heart on her. But why did the girl complicate it like this? Ahh, Shien had really already upset and disappointed Sky all at once today. Couldn't Shien see her sincerity just a little? The sky really did not understand the girl's way of thinking.

Long enough the Sky vent his frustration by playing basketball under a drizzle that increasingly soaked his clothes. The man stopped his activities when his smartwatch rang and it turned out to be an emergency call from the hospital.

Then, immediately the sky ran out of the park with a mood that was still coarse.

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That night in the treatment room, Shien exhaled in a furious breath repeatedly. His gaze stared blankly at the literary book that had not changed the page of a single sheet. His mind was now again dominated by the shadows of the Sky.

Never had Shien felt this bad before. The words he said earlier were indeed a little outrageous. Moreover, as he recalled the look of Sky's disappointed face. Shien felt very sorry.

However, a moment later he tried to brush off the regret. Shien wanted Sky to give up on him, it was great if the man had heard of it. Yeah, nothing to regret. The sky came at the right time. Shien no longer needed to string up the sentence of rejection for the man, it was already very clear.

He held his head firmly to expel all thoughts about the sky, making Shanna who saw him worried. Even he immediately got up from his fall on the sofa and approached Shien.

“Why, Shi? Your head hurts? Wait a minute, I'll call doctor.” Shanna said worriedly. His finger stretched out to press the transmitter calling button near the patient's bed, but Shien immediately prevented it.

“I’m okay. I'm just bored of reading this book.” Reply Shien quibbled.

“I'm bored here. I'd like to take a short walk outside.” Connect Shien while keeping the completely unread literary book on the nightstand.

“And I can do it myself.” Sambar Shien who saw Shanna was about to help her get off the patient's bed. Shien didn't really like everyone treating him a little too much. Especially just because he was sick. It feels, very sad. Shien wanted to be treated like an ordinary person.

“You mending home, sis.” He said later, considering Shanna's been looking after him all day. His parents came home briefly to bring some change of clothes.

“Waiting Papa Mama back, I just came home.” Sahut Shanna while sitting himself in a chair at the side of the patient's bed.

“Partially, I can't possibly leave you alone here, Shi.” Shanna continued, her gaze following Shien who moved to pick up her phone on the table near the sofa.

“Udah regular also.” Shien murmured softly to the point of not being heard clearly in Shanna's ears. Yeah, since childhood he's been used to being alone in a ward like this. It doesn't matter if he is alone right now.

“You sure you don't want to be cemented?” Shanna asked half-screamed as Shien nearly grabbed the door handle.

Shien let out a long sigh, then turned towards the elder brother. “No need. Also great.” The girl opened the door, then moved out.

Shanna exhaled her rough breath with a frowning forehead. Surprised by his brother's sudden attitude. Ck, Shien's mood is easy to change.

“Sleep, lah.” Shanna then went up to the patient's bed, lay down herself, then slept comfortably as if it was her own room.

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“Langit?” Shien gasped to see the figure of the Sky still wearing his srub uniform lying on the hospital garden chair that was under the cherry tree.

The man fell asleep with one arm covering his eyes, while the other arm rested his head as a pillow. The sky high body makes its toe pass through the garden chair divider.

Shien bit his lower lip. He went to the hospital garden to get some fresh air and calm his mind and heart a little. Ehh, even accidentally found the sky was there too.

For a moment, Shien unmoved observing the sleeping face of the Sky. Seemed calm with a regular breath.

The sky is so sweet. Although it was night and the lighting in the hospital garden was dim, but Shien like getting extra lighting to observe each curve of the face of the sky clearly.

The jawline is firm and looks smooth without any hair that bothers him, surely because the sky diligently do facial hair. Ahh, the sky is indeed a complete package. Even the man had a sharp nose with reddish lips.

And yesterday Shien felt those reddish lips touch and clench his lips gently. Incredibly sweet and intoxicating, Shien could even still taste it until now. It really made Shien's heart to remember him.

Geez, Shien wants to get rid of Sky from his mind, but instead gets more and more thoughtful. His brain was even thinking of perverted things at the moment. Shien harrumphed himself.

But, Shien immediately shook his head to expel those perverted thoughts. It is dangerous, just by observing the sleeping face Heaven alone has made his heart waver.

His heart again beat hard, as if it wanted to break down his chest cavity.

Not wanting to let himself be mesmerized by the handsome figure in front of him, Shien chose to turn his heels to leave the hospital garden. However, just as he was about to get out of position, Shien was startled by the hand of Heaven pulling his wrist violently, causing him to fall down sitting next to the man.

“La-Sky. . .”

“Puas see my face, want to run away?” Syndir Langit while firmly grasping the wrist of Shien who wanted to break away.

“Please, Lang.” Shien thrashing. But, Sky did not want to let Shien off just like that.

“No apologies?” The voice of Heaven sounded cold, as well as the look of his eyes. His gaze was very sharp, as if he was mungulitinya.

“Why diem?” The sky was still staring intently at Shien.

While Shien who was nervous and a little scared saw Heaven staring at him like that could only lower his head while turning his face away.

His tongue is thick with tightly clenched lips. Shien was unable to answer anything or return the gaze of Heaven's eyes that increasingly intimidated him.

“Do not feel guilty? Hem?” The sky grabbed the girl's chin, then twisted it so that Shien's face would face her again. But, Shien still did not dare to look at him.

Sky chuckling. Closing his eyes at a glance, then scooping a lot of air to fill his lung cavity. His two eyes still faithfully highlighted Shien.

“Why, Shi?” Asked Sky suddenly, making Shien slowly lift his waver and look into the eyes of the man. “Why do you give me Shanna?”

“What do you say, anyway?” Shien jerked the hand of Sky that was still perched on his chin.

“So afternoon you said that Shanna wanted me, she just took aja.” The sky looked angry. “What does that mean? Do you think I'm an item?” Later touch.

“You have no right to say that. I have the right to choose, and I choose to love you, Shien.” Imbuh Sky with a sincere look.

“Why me? You can get another better girl, Langit.”

And, suddenly Heaven released the grip of his hand. His face turned grim.

Shien then turned his face, his gaze straight in any direction with a blank look.

“And the best is in front of me.” The sky again drew a sharp glare towards Shien. Signifies the seriousness of the sentence the man spoke.

Shien's heart was filled. It felt like he wanted to believe the words of Heaven. But it can't be. And had he believed, Shien would still have had to withdraw from the Sky.

“Don't be crazy.” Sahut Shien with a scornful tone.

“Cowok is almost perfect like you, not likely to like sick girls like me.” Shien smiled wryly.

“You're just sorry, aren't you, same me? Same as the others.” Shien's voice choked as soon as it reached the last sentence.

Sky shakes. “Do not be skeptical, Shien. Don't think I'm the same as the others. I sincerely like you, even before I know you are sick.”

“Trust me, Shi.” Said the Sky quietly as she grabbed Shien's hand for him to hold, but immediately the girl brushed him off.

“Shien.” Excited Sky was annoyed with the gaze of protest.

“Don't pull yourself up like a gini, Shi.” The sky pulled both of Shien's shoulders back towards him. “This is because of Shanna, right?” The Sky Breath began to rise and fall.

“Not.” Shien melengos's. Yeah, not entirely because of Shanna. Shien felt himself not worthy enough for the Sky. He was a good guy, almost perfect. A sick girl like herself would only trouble her to the end, as Papa said. Shien could only trouble others.

Shien should not be greedy to have the Sky by his side. Ck, what for anyway? The edges of Shien would also leave him because of his age too soon. Whether Sky or any other man, Shien would never have a prince in his life. No, her love story will never work. Although they love each other, they may never be together in the end. Shien would disappear, like a froth in the ocean.

“I know how you and I feel the same, Shi.” The sky shook Shien's shoulder, his voice sounding desperate. “Why do you keep lying to yourself?”

“If it is because of your illness, I have no problem. It can be cured.” The sky carried the girl into his arms.

“I never mind your illness, don't feel inferior.” The sky tightened his embrace.

“So please don't ever think of not accepting me because of that. Be mine, Shien. Hem?”

A hint of warmth appeared in Shien's heart. He had never felt this special before. But immediately Shien regained his consciousness, he should not fall asleep. Previously he had strengthened his heart to make Heaven surrender to him, as well as himself.

“What are you talking about?” Shien pushed Sky's body hard until his embrace slipped.

“Who lied to himself? What you heard was true. I'm not interested in you at all.” Shien's heart felt scratched so deep and sore that it made both eyes water. Luckily the lighting in the garden was dim, so the sky could not see it.

“Shien, even yesterday we kissed. Does that mean nothing to you?”

“It was just a kiss, everyone can do it when carried away. Don't take this the wrong way, Sky.” Sambar Shien, his chin trembled as he said all of that, although one corner of his lips was sinister.

In fact, it was all a lie. Shien's feelings had already ventured far away until he got lost, and it might be difficult to return.

“Brought atmosphere, yes?” Sahut Langit is weak with the look of an injured eye. He could not believe such words coming out of Shien's mouth.

“But I don't carelessly kiss people, Shien.” Shien shook his head unnoticed, then turned his gaze in the other direction. He really could not linger staring at the Sky at this moment. Shien was afraid that his heart would falter if he did.

“If I were another guy, would you do it too? Kiss it when carried away?” The sky breathed heavily.

“Emm, maybe.” And once again Shien was forced to be indifferent just to make Heaven surrender to him.

“You lied, Shi.” The sky shakes in disbelief. But Shien just flinching, pretending not to care.

Shien sighed deeply, then exhaled quickly. “Okay. From now on, let's not see each other again.” Shien said casually while putting both hands in the pocket of the patient's special clothes he wore.

“And save your sincere feelings for others.” Continue with a heavy heart. He got up from his seat and left the sky.

“You have no right to worry who I feel for, Shien.” Shouted the Sky with a tone that sounded bitter. But Shien paid no heed to it.

Shien continued walking with heavy steps. As much as Shien's energy held back his tears from breaking. However, when the Sky was already far from before him, the cry broke violently.

In fact, lying to your own feelings is more painful. Plus hurting a very sincere person to her, it made Shien feel even worse.

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To be continued. . . .