Lies
Something that Fidgets

Asoka Street. Raya does not know clearly his address, but he knows exactly that he once lived there. The address was always ringing in his head. There's no other choice. You should visit that place. But, of course, it must be with her husband's permission. Karan will not let him go anywhere without notice. She immediately sought the consent of her husband. “Can we visit some of these institutions, sir? I want to see the foundation's operations well.” Very good, Raya gave such a good reason. Now, he could easily find excuses to satisfy his curiosity. Maybe because she learned from her husband how to manipulate others.

“Visiting some institutions? That's a great idea, honey. We will visit some institutions. Just choose the institution you want to visit. I'll set a time to accompany you.” Karan did not mind at all. He really intends to accompany Raya, especially to somewhere. A place that will be remembered. The woman's residence was. This is also one of the reasons why Karan made Raya the director of his foundation. Besides wanting to work within the same scope, Karan also wanted to make Raya remember the past. The times where the woman once left him so cruelly.

“Oke, I will choose it. When do you have time Sir?”

“I can't decide for myself, Honey. I did want to keep you company all day, unfortunately Ian will definitely be mad at me. So, we wait for Ian's schedule.” Karan suddenly stood up from the seat of the Kingdom. He took his wife by the hand and took her to the chair she was sitting in. “I have to go to my room first, Honey. There's something I want to talk to Ian about. You just read the documents. Lunch time I'll come here again so we can have lunch together.”

Raya nodded. Then, he remembered something. Surely her aunt knows something. The woman who was introduced as her mother in front of the media must know her past. “Eem, Sir, can I use my phone again? There are a few things I want to make sure.” This sounds crazy indeed. How could Raya ask permission to her own husband just to use her phone? Yes, if someone else hears it. But for Raya, this is normal. Rather than she could not use technology that made it easier for her to relate to the outside world, Raya would rather negotiate with her husband.

Karan patted the top of Raya's head. “Yes, of course. Wear it, as long as you don't use it to plan your escape from me, I'll allow it.”

Again a problem of escape. Raya is really wondering why Karan is always afraid he is running away from her. What did Karan do until he left? Right, Karan did not treat Raya well. There are times when the man's behavior is beyond reason and seems very excessive, especially if it is related to the closeness of the Kingdom with other men. Karan is so possessive. Her jealousy is above that of other couples. But as long as Raya did not provoke it, Karan would not treat her harshly. In fact, on the contrary, the man seemed to be very pampering even though only limited to material.

“I won't run away, sir. Where can I go if I already have a husband like you?” Raya tries to make Karan calm. Her words were so sweet, but not with any trace of her past. Because in reality, Raya did run away. The thought of escaping Karan had appeared several times in his mind. Although the more days of thought it decreases because basically Raya is reluctant to make trouble.

“Good Dear. I like you saying that. I go first,” Karan said. Before leaving the place, Karan kissed Raya's lips briefly. Fuck the office. This is a family owned company Reviano, which means it is also his own company. No one would be able to protest against anything he did there.

After Karan's departure, Ian came to Raya's room to deliver the super model's phone that Karan was holding. This is indeed annoying, unfortunately Raya has no other choice. She chose Karan as her husband. He also has to be patient with all the limitations made by Karan. What matters now is that Raya can contact the aunt. It was important for him to obtain information regarding the Asoka path.

“Tante, good morning. What is Auntie good?” serami Raya as soon as the mother's biological sister picked up her phone call.

The aunt replied, “Ya, Auntie is good. How're you? Are you all right? Why don't you ever call Auntie again? Aunty period should know how you are from television?”

“I'm sorry, Auntie. I've been very busy lately. But I'm fine. And Auntie, there's actually something I want to ask you. I hope Aunt will answer.” I don't know why Raya has such a bad feeling about this. She thought her aunt would not tell the truth even if she knew what was going on. Nevertheless, Raya will still ask the woman so that her curiosity can be answered. At the very least, Raya has been working hard trying to find out about her past that was suddenly erased in her memory.

“Begini Aunty, now I'm being asked by my husband to be the director of the company's foundation. And I'm checking some documents. The plan is to visit several institutions that get help from the foundation, one of which is an orphanage on Asoka Street. Auntie knows that address? Doesn't it seem like I've lived there, Auntie?”

Silence, no answer at all. If it wasn't for the sound of breath being heard from the end of the call, Raya thought maybe their call was interrupted for no reason. Fortunately, Raya did not quickly turn off her calls. “Tante? Does Aunt hear me?” meru Raya's.

“Ya, Auntie listen. But Raya, Auntie doesn't know about that address. What road was that? Asoka Street, huh? Aunt never went there. Yes, we are short of things from a long time ago, but we are not so poor that we have lived in slums like that. So don't think too much. Just do your job.”

Yes, it feels like the slums like the area on Asoka Street is very far from the lifestyle of the aunt. As the middle-aged woman mentioned, although they were not very rich, they remained in a decent environment. Their neighbors also mentioned that her aunt had not moved in for 30 years, and were surprised when Raya brought her to a new home. They feel lost the figure of the aunt who despite being outspoken, but very attentive to the surrounding environment.

However, Raya felt that there was still something in her heart. He knew his aunt never lived around that street, unfortunately Raya's feeling remained persistent that she was part of Asoka street. This is a dilemma that Raya cannot explain. “Is it true we never went there, Auntie? Maybe I went to school there?”

“No way, Kingdom. Do you remember where you were at High School? Private schools are expensive. You got a scholarship because of a pretty smart kid. So, why did you go to school there?”

“No Aunt. I just feel like I've lived there.”

“Already, Auntie said don't think weird. Now just do what you can in this moment. Think about your future too. You already have a husband, it should be your priority as you've always wanted. You've lived like a queen, haven't you? Hows it? Is it as good as what you've been craving all this time?”

Raya felt the aunt was switching the conversation, but Raya was serving the middle-aged woman. He explains well how Karan treats her. Of course with a little smoothed and eliminate some facts, especially how the rough treatment Karan on the bed. Also how is Karan's possessive attitude so dominant and more like an obsession. Raya only tells Karan's kindness. First so that the aunt does not feel worried, secondly to lie to herself by saying that Karan is such a good husband.

Then, the conversation is over. Raya disconnects their call after not getting a satisfactory answer. It seems like Raya needs to come there directly. Perhaps by looking at the situation around the street, Raya will remember something. Or maybe Raya needs to see her personal documents, including the identity of her parents.

Raya did join the family card of the aunt, but the name of the father and biological mother Raya still hung there. Maybe Raya can ask the surrounding residents about the identity of her parents. Yeah, that's the easiest way because Raya is still not sure she has no emotional ties to that address. For every mention of the word ‘path Asoka’ his chest rumbled. Like there is hate, resentment, longing and also fear.