Sincerity of Heart 2
Chapter 22. Dodging (Ara)

When the heart begins to doubt, it means that trust has begun to fade. Be patient, every test will have a way out. Like wanting to go to class. We have to take the exam first, right? Well, that's also life. If you want to go up a higher stage. You should be ready for the next test.

~Heart Graduation 2~

The pain is starting to run through my heart. It's been two days that Alan hasn't been home. He didn't even give any news. Why would he do this? I should have been angry. Hiks, why are you so mean Alan?

I wiped my tears violently. I turned on the radio at a fairly large volume. I want to forget everything. But it was all for nothing. I drove my car out of the campus yard.

At the gate, it was like seeing someone I knew so well. Alan's? Is she here? Is he looking for me? I smiled happily. I'm gonna park my car. But suddenly I saw a woman coming over to Alan.

The jihan? So Alan was just here to pick up Jihan? She didn't give me any news at all, but she could walk with someone else. What does all this mean, Alan? Do you want to play with our relationship?

I don't feel my tears falling. I deleted it very upset. Why am I so whiny anyway? Hiks, this hurts Alan a lot. Be ill.

Without a second thought, I immediately charged into the gas to leave the place. My heart is completely broken. It felt like I was approaching Alan and hitting him to the satisfaction. But that's not possible for me to do.

Right now I just want to calm down. I want to hug you and cry in your arms.

Arriving in front of the mother's house. I hesitated a little to get in. What if my mom tells me to go home? What if papah gets angry?

Chequek!

I was shocked when the door opened wide. There my mother is looking at me.

"Mother." I said immediately squandered into the mother's drowsiness. My crying I can't control.

"Eh, why cry? Go in first, huh?" said mother. I just nodded slowly. Mother took me inside so gently. I miss him so much.

"Mother don't tell Ara to leave, Ara wants to be here with mom" I said when we were in the room. I hugged my mother tightly.

"What are you talking about? Where might mother throw away her own children. What's up huh? Why are you crying?" ask mother. I'm getting sobbing. My chest is so tight.

"Alan's mother, Alan is angry with Ara" I said. Mother pushed my body slowly and wiped away my tears.

"angry? How can I get angry? Did you make a big mistake?" ask mommy to cupped my face. I'm shaking.

"Then?" Mother looked at me. I was confused where to talk.

"Fra... Ara only asked for Ara's rights partly mother's wife. Ara wants to be a wife. But Alan left instead, Ara did not know what reason Alan refused. Does Alan really not love Ara huh bun? Has Alan been the same as Ara all this time?" I said staring at the mother.

"It's been two days that Alan didn't come home and didn't give Ara any news. But Ara saw Alan pick up Jihan. Alan malice mother." said I hugged mother again. I just want your arms. I heard my mother sigh heavily.

"Don't be so prejudiced, baby, maybe Alan has a hard reason to say. He didn't come home because of his job. You know, it's not Alan right now, it's still in a tough time. He has to divide his time between you, his college and his job. It's possible that Alan is still waiting for the right time to talk to you." said the mother. I digest all your words. It's true everything you said. But why didn't Alan tell me anything at all? What's wrong with sending a message that he won't be home in a few days. That's more obvious.

Then how can he be with Jihan? Why didn't he see me first. He must know I'm on campus.

"Don't get too carried away by the affection. That's not good. What else is your marriage just corn-time. There will be many exams. When the heart begins to doubt, it means that trust has begun to fade. Be patient, every test will have a way out. Like wanting to go to class. We have to take the exam first, right? Well, that's also life. If you want to go up a higher stage. Then be ready for the next test."

I went back to digesting my mother's words. Is that true? Have I hesitated and my trust in him has faded? Oh my God, Ara is confused. Please help Ara get through this.

"But mother, Ara still wants to be here. Ara doesn't want to go home. Ara, Ara wants to be the same mother." I said. Mother increasingly tightened her embrace.

"Yes mother understood. You rest yes, mother make food first. You must not have eaten. You're very pale. Don't tell me from yesterday not to eat."

It's true, ever since Alan left. My appetite is gone.

"You should eat. Rest first. Mother will make food for you." said mother kissed my forehead so lovingly. I'm nodding. Mother also immediately went away. I stared at the back of my mother who was beginning to disappear behind the door.

My mind went back to Alan and Jihan. What are they doing now?

I put my body down and pulled the blanket over half my body. I looked at my wedding photo with Alan. Is this really just a test from Him? Why is it so heavy? It hurts so bad. What does this marriage mean to Alan? Has he considered me his wife or just a friend? I don't understand it myself.

I closed my eyes slowly. But not long after I shake my bed. Because I was surprised I woke up.

"Isn't he?" I said staring at papah. Huh, I guess who, it turns out papah.

"Sorry papah to make you surprised. Papah misses little Papah's daughter so much." said papah stroking my head. I smiled and hugged him.

"Ara also misses papah very much. Papah how are you?"

"Good darling. How are you, papah see you are not good? Is there a problem with Alan?"

I broke my arms and stared at the clinging papah. I'm nodding.

"Hmmm... Papah's son is an adult. I have a husband, but I still cry."

I hugged Papah again. The warmth always made me feel calmer.

"Ara misses papah." I said. I closed my eyes because my head hurt so much. It must be because I kept crying.

"Can you say something?" ask Papah, I re-open my eyes. I lifted my head to look at Papah.

"Don't be mad at Alan, all this papah's request." said papah. I was confused by the direction of the conversation.

"I mean papah?" many confused.

"The father who asked Alan not to take you until your age is really mature. I'm sorry, it's all for your good. Papah does not want your mother's incident to be repeated. Papah doesn't want to lose papah's daughter."

I was very surprised to hear the papah exposure. So this is why Alan won't take me. Oh my God, I was wrong with my husband. Forgive Ara, O God.

"The father also asked Alan not to say this to you Ara. But Papah did not expect this to backfire on your relationship. I'm sorry, you can be angry with me. You can punish papah." said papah pull my hand and smite on his cheek. I immediately held him.

"No reward, Ara will not be able to be angry with papah" I said hugging papah. Now I know what the problem is. I'm sorry Alan.

"Ara knows, papah did this because papah loved Ara right?" I hugged Papah tightly.

"yes, baby, papah just doesn't want to lose you" said papah kissing my head.

"But Papah has to believe in Ara. Ara... " Akhhh, why is my head so painful.

"Fine."

I heard the sound of Papah getting away. I am still in the arms of Papah. Hah, it hurts so much, I can't see clearly either.

"Best.a.ra.ra."a"

The sound is getting away. My head is also very heavy. Papahs....