Sincerity of Heart 2
Chapter 4. Foreigners Proposal (Ara)

Time that keeps turning will not be able to be re-spinned. But my heart still remains the same, still anchored in the wrong place. I don't know when I'll continue to sink into a feeling I shouldn't have to defend.

My heart keeps raging indistinctly. My spirit is gone somewhere. What am I supposed to do? I want to go back to how I used to be.

I'm sorry, I can't throw this feeling away. The more I wanted to stay away, the more this feeling bound me. I want to run, run, so I can't see him anymore.

"Hey, daydreaming? Why, sick?" ask someone who surprised me. I smiled and shook my head. Clara, she's been my friend since Junior High. He just happens to be taking the same major as me.

"Hmmm, I thought you were sick" he said, opening his notebook.

"Oh yeah Ra, I saw Alan yesterday walking with Jihan. They are already, aren't they? Very friendly."

Ces! Like thousands of needles piercing my heart.

"Ah, apparently. I don't really know." I said trying to stay calm. I slowly breath.

"But aren't you guys very close? I thought you guys were going to be, but if you look around you are very suitable. Well, if the soul mate doesn't know either?" clara. I was silent, my mouth locked.

"Ra, you're okay, right?" Clara touched my hand. I immediately shook my head. Don't be like this Ara, wake up. Come on, he's happy. Should you be happy too? Ck, I have to forget everything.

"I'm okay, I used to be the same Alan just sahabatan really. Now that she found someone who matched her, I was happy too." I smiled and stroked Clara's hand. Lying, why should I lie like this. Oh God, forgive Ara.

"Ra, you really don't have the same feelings as Alan. You guys from childhood are always together, aren't there any feelings what?"

Ck, what else is this? Why is this kid so cool. He doesn't know what my heart is like in a stir. God is very sick.

"What flavor? Nano nano flavor?" I'm trying to joke.

"Ih Ara, I'm serious." he whined. Her lips went forward, like a duck's lips. Oh my, he's so funny.

"Hahaha.kamu really kepo. Ah, I want to learn. Afraid of quizzes." I said, switching the conversation. Enough talk about it.

"Ah, Ara mah that" he said annoyed. I can only smile and shake my head.

Not how long the lecturer who taught the course entered. I really like it. He was very kind, gentle and what he taught always went into my head.

"Today we quiz."

It's true my guess, fortunately I always learn and repeat the lesson last week. Everyone started to open their notes. Some panicked, some looked relaxed like me. There was also a fuss for forgetting to bring notes. It's so much fun. Life on campus is very different from being in school. During college, if we want to move forward. Then we have to find our own knowledge that we want to get. Unlike in school, everything will be given by the teacher. I loved this college time. It always teaches us to be independent.

"Ara, this time you did the quiz. Please." said my lecturer who managed to make everyone look at me. Everyone gave me pleading looks. Huh, why should I?

"Good buk, thanks." I said. All the students were still loyal to me. Hey, you guys think I'm that bad? I can't give you difficult questions.

I started reading about what was going through my head. Everyone was so excited to hear the question I asked. Some were clucking in annoyance, some were smiling widely and some were like confused people. In fact, I only gave a question that last week my lecturer taught me.

"Thank Ara. Please do it for only 2 minutes. Ara has given me a very easy question. Don't waste it." I smiled and nodded my head when I heard my lecturer speak. It's a matter I made, so I definitely know all the answers.

I told you, I really like the learning system from this one lecturer. Every week he always rotates students to make quiz questions so that all students can get the opportunity to have good grades. If I were to become a lecturer, I would implement the same system. It's very unique.

Unfeelably. The study time is over. It is true, if something we do with a sincere heart. Then all the work will be easily completed. I closed my notebook. Right now I have to take care of some files. I want to submit my research sooner. My target here is only 3 years, so I'll make the most of another year here.

I am currently only 19 years old. Still very young not to get a college degree? I have planned it all for a long time. I spent only 2 years in junior high school, and so did High School.

Me, Alan and Clara always compete fiercely. The result was that the three of us graduated at the same time.

"Ra, there's a school reunion tonight. You're coming, right?" clara asked as we walked towards the lecturer room.

"Em, I'll see first. Have not asked permission from mom and dadah" I said. Clara nodded. Then we went straight into the lecturer's room. Today I want to finish my proposal.

"Mom!" call someone as I walk towards the parking lot. I looked back. Apparently Alan. What's he looking for me for?

"What's wrong? Why run away?" I asked when I saw Alan was bored because he ran out.

"Tonight you have to be present at the school reunion event" he said with a sparkling face.

"What's up? Why should I attend?" manya curious.

"Anyway you must attend, I'll pick you up tonight. Ok? Anda is beautiful."

"But...

"No rejection, I'll pick you up tonight. By honey, I'll be waiting for you" he said, leaving immediately. Waitaminute! What did he call me? Honey? Oh my God, what does that mean? Alan, you always make my heart ache. I've been trying to hide from you. But why did you come near me? How can I forget you Alan, if you're always by my side. I can't do that.

I walked lazily towards my car. My mind is so messed up, my heart is like it's being stirred up.

"Hope for Ara, don't think about anything" I said as I turned on the car. I drove out my car and started leaving campus with a broken heart. I don't know, I don't know until when this will continue. Let time answer everything. I am living the destiny that God will give me.

***

"What time?" ask papah.

"Jam 8 pah, Ara will come home soon enough." I said giving a hopeful look at Papah.

"Hour 9 has to be at home" said Papah firmly. I smiled happily.

"Thank you for the reward." I said with enthusiasm. My mother smiled and grabbed my shoulder.

"But reward, Alan will pick up Ara. Can you?" I asked when I remembered Alan's words this afternoon. Papah looked at me. Is papah angry?

"Hmmm." papah nodded. Ah, I thought Papah would be angry. I smile.

"Thank you pah, bun. Ara loves you." I said hugging my mother and staring at Papah. Smiling papah. He patted the sofa next to him. I understand, papah wants me to sit next to him. I also obey papah's wishes.

Papah hugged my shoulder tightly. He gave me a warm kiss on my forehead. I closed my eyes to enjoy the warm swirling heat that ran through my veins.

"You've grown up" said papah rubbing my head. I smiled and hugged Papah.

"Ara dear papah." said I hugged papah tighter. This warmth. The warmth I would never get from anyone.

"Did you hear in the lecturer's room, you have started to take care of your research huh?" tanya Papah looked at me full of question marks. I nodded enthusiastically.

"Well, papah is getting proud of this papah boy. Mother knows? our child has always been the lips of the lecturers. They say that our daughter is very beautiful and smart. Papah is proud of you." Papah said back to kiss my forehead.

"Ara is the son of papah and mother, so Ara is smart" I said with a crisp laugh. Mother and Father also laughed. Then we started talking about my cauldron and the research plan I was going to do. Maybe from now on, I will always discuss with papah. It just so happened that me and I were in one area, so it was very easy to have a discussion.

***

I saw the wall clock showing at 7:30. Alan will pick me up soon.

Then I heard the sound of the door being knocked. I ran to open the door. Azka. My sister was already standing there staring at me from head to toe. Am I ugly?

"It's beautiful" she said flatly. Lookie! He always knows what I think.

"Father and mother ask sister to come down. There are guests downstairs" he said. I cringed confused. Who are the guests who come at night? What's Alan?

"Ok, brother will come down immediately" I said. My sister just nodded and waltzed away towards her room. I went back into the room to get a handbag. Then I went down to see who was visiting.

Arriving in the living room. I was so surprised. Who're they? There were three people sitting in front of Papah and mother. The two people seemed to be the parents of the man sitting in the middle. But who are they?

Taps! Our eyes meet. I was so surprised, I looked down.

"Ara, sit here." said papah. I nodded and sat next to my mother. There was no conversation between us. I saw my mother and papah who put on a tense face. Mother also holds the hand of papah tightly. What's the matter? Who are they really?

"Sorry before we've disrupted your time. We don't want to linger. The point of our arrival here is to propose your daughter to our son."

The deg! Whatdoes thatmean? Apply? Oh God, what is this? I don't even know this guy at all. I looked at Papah and Mother alternately.

"So how did you respond?"

I stared at the clingy papah. May Papah not accept this proposal. I'm not ready yet. Plus, I don't know who this guy is.

"I'm sorry before. I appreciate your kind intentions to propose to my daughter. But. "the papah hangs his words.

"But my daughter..."

"Assalamualaikum." Someone said a greeting so cut papah speech.

"Wa'alaikumusalam." we answered simultaneously. I look at Alan like a confused person. I know, he must have been very surprised.

"Ah, my daughter already has a future husband. He is my son-in-law's candidate." said papah woke up from his seat. He approached Alan. I can see Alan is still confused. I was also very surprised when Papah said something that did not make sense.

"Father.." I was about to speak, but Papah immediately raised his hand, hinting that I should be quiet.

"They're going to have a wedding next month. So again I'm sorry. We can't possibly accept your proposal, because our daughter already has a future husband."

I am confused by Papah's intentions. Why should papah lie?

"Ah, no problem. We thought your daughter wasn't hired. But apparently she already has a husband. Thank you for receiving us well. It seems like we have to stay away, not wanting to interrupt your time." said the middle-aged man with a big smile. I saw you staring at the middle-aged woman. Do they know each other? Why is it so confusing like this? Papah too, why bring Alan into this serious matter?

"Then we say goodbye. Assalamualaikum."

"Wa'alaikumusalam."

They also immediately left. But the man looked at me. I'm back down. Until they finally left.

"Tomorrow bring your parents" said papah patting Alan on the shoulder. Papah then went straight away. So too with mom. Alan was still in his place. We also fell silent. I'm confused what to say.