Sincerity of Heart 2
Chapter 52. He's Not the perfect guy (Ara)

Glad to see Alan return to his usual form, there was no more sadness in him. It made me a little relieved, at least the burden he carried little by little began to decrease. I hope that smile will no longer fade.

"Darling, so no? How come you're dumb?"

I was shocked when her cold hand touched my cheek. Alan had just finished his bath.

"Eh, so bi. Ara had already notified mother. Mommy's been cooking a lot at home, wait a minute. Ara put on a headscarf first," I slightly ran towards the dressing room. I chose a simple pink hijab, in line with the skirt I was wearing. As usual I just polished my face with the powder and slightly dyed my lips. I steadied myself in the mirror, I tried to wrap my hijab over my chest. How did his reaction go?

I came out casually, wondering what his reaction was like when I saw my appearance.

"Look bi, Ara is ready." I asked. Alan seemed to turn his body and look at me confused. He seemed to be researching my appearance. I smiled and stayed relaxed.

"Why dress like this? And this is what? Do you want to show hubby's future assets to others? Now change," he immediately pulled my hand back in the changing room.

"Bi, but Ara wants to try like people. It's still closed, anyway" I said, releasing his hand. I could hear Alan clucking in annoyance.

"If hubby says change, change Ara!" I was so shocked when Alan said my name. Oh my God, I made him mad. I immediately removed the twists of my hijab and changed the style as usual. Covering my chest and back. I turned my body and looked at him.

"Have it, hubby don't be mad anymore. Ara was just kidding," I hugged her. I heard the sound of his heavy breathing. It seems like Alan was really angry earlier.

"Sorry,"

"Oh, let's go. Don't make you wait,"

I nodded enthusiastically.

"Assalamualaikum mother.." I shouted while entering the house.

"Wa'alaikumusalam, why scream anyway? Aren't you afraid that the voice is gone?" replied the mother who was sitting in the family room with papah and Azka. Huh, I almost forgot about Azka's relationship with Arin. Look, I'm gonna interrogate him right now.

"Hehe, aman bun. Ara's voice was a lot of stock," I said while kissing the back of my mother's hand and papah alternately. I saw Alan do the same. Uh, what's going on? Why did Papah leave when Alan was about to kiss his hand?

I looked at my husband, there was such a deep disappointment. Don't tell me what I'm afraid of is really happening. But why Papah should be mad at Alan, it's not his fault. No one knows the destiny of life.

"Alan, don't mind papah. Sit down" said the mother. Alan looked confused and chose to sit next to Azka.

"Bi, Ara should talk to Papah. Hubby wait here, okay?" I said the one answered nodding by Alan. I smiled and went straight to Papah's room.

"Bah," called me as I opened the door and saw Papah sitting on the sofa. But the papah remained silent, not as usual.

"Bah, Ara call papah loh. Don't you want to see Ara anymore?" I said sit next to him. I stared at the clingy papah. Papah remained silent and refused to look at me. I shook my head on her shoulder, I missed being spoiled with papah.

"Well, is this Alan's status issue?" ask without hesitation. I'm sure the problem is Alan's status. I patiently waited for Papah's answer, but he remained silent. I took a long breath.

"No one knows the destiny of a life of reward, Ara is also convinced this is not all Alan's desire. Does papah know? Alan was also very hit, some days Alan continues to fall. Ara is very sad, so Ara please. Don't make Alan back sad. Because Alan just returned cheerful reward, do not make his smile back lost. Ara couldn't stand to see it all" I explained. I stared at the faithful papah to be silent.

"Well, didn't he ask Alan to marry Ara? Papah doesn't mind his status, does he? Now Alan is Ara's husband pah. All of Alan's flaws, sorrows, problems will be part of Ara's life. Ara accepts whatever Alan's status is, because Ara knows. Alan doesn't want any of this either, it's beyond the expected reward. Ara hope you understand,,,"

I got up from my seat, Papah still remained silent. I was very disappointed with my attitude. This is not the papah I know. Papah has changed.

"Right now Alan needs reward support, if Papah behaves like this. Ara was very disappointed, Ara loved papah, as well as Alan."

I took a deep breath, I looked back at the face of Papah who was still flat.

"Ara comes out first" I immediately go. It's free that I keep talking, it seems that Papah will not listen to my words.

I looked at Alan who was chatting with Azka. I sat next to my mom watching television.

"Patience" whispered the mother, I smiled and nodded.

"Right now papah is confused. Let papah think, it will not last long," added the mother while rubbing my head. Then I looked at the two men who were chatting about business.

"Bun, do you know Azka and Arin are dating?" I whispered a little. Mother raised her next to her eyebrows. So you don't know either?

"Who said?" said mother even asked back.

"Arin said it herself, she said they were dating" I replied. I glanced at Azka, apparently she was looking at me too.

"No, they're just friends. Wherever Azka might want to date, Arin ngerjain you sometimes," said mother. That right? Ck, if that's true I'll punish the girl.

"Hmmm... It could be yes bun, Azka is like papah. If with others the cueknya not kelulungan. Good thing Arin did not," I said. Mother just nodded slowly.

"Bun, we're leaving on Thursday. Ara want dry sponge made by mother, will you make it, huh? Ara is often hungry at midnight, there is no good food," I said excitedly. Looks like I have to ask for a lot of sponge stock, just in case I don't go hungry. Hehe, I don't like eating, do I? After the cake made by the mother is very good. So miss it if it's far away.

"Oh, don't be so tight. Mother asphyxiated Ara, there ah hug your husband aja."

I laughed when I heard your words. I loosened my arms a little, I pecked my mother's cheek a few times. It seems like I haven't been like this for a very long time with mom, longing for it.

"How, has there been any news from the future granddaughter?" ask mom, I'm surprised.

"Bun's grandson? It doesn't seem like it is, maybe still in the printing process" I replied of origin. Mother laughed while pinching my cheek.

"Where the hell are you, do you think your stomach is a printing machine?"

"Yes, the printer of the future younger generation" I replied. Mother laughed again, I laughed crisply.

"Darling, I was in the room for a moment" Alan said, rising from his seat, I looked at him in confusion. I nodded slowly. Alan went straight to the room.

"It looks like your husband has a lot of thoughts, forgive the nature of papah. Papah's attitude makes Alan more overwhelmed," said mother, I just lowered my head.

"Ara is confused, why is papah so changed? Alan was not wrong, nor did he ever know of this. Why does the fate of Ara's husband hurt so much bun? Ara was sad to see Alan now," I said hugging my mother. My tears escaped.

"It's okay, maybe it's a test from God. As a wife, you have to stay by her side, support her keep on not letting her fall,"

"Ara understands mother," I said.

"Mother, Azka let's go out for a minute?" I let go of my arms when I heard Azka's words. I also wiped my tears so Azka wouldn't see it.

"You can't go out, someone wants you to ask" I said.

"What else brother? Don't tell me Azka's personal problems?"

Ck, this kid always knows what I'm thinking. I nodded resignedly.

"It's a matter of your future" I said staring at him fixedly.

"Within?" ask again. I nodded back.

"Friends only, nothing more. Don't listen to that silly girl. That night Azka came because it represented grandfather who could not attend. That's pretty obvious, isn't it?"

I looked at him sharply. Is he lying? But I know very well that Azka is not lying right now.

"Yes already, go there. Remember that! Don't date, it's the same as zina. Understood!" my word.

"Yes big brother, Azka knows the rules. Bun Azka said goodbye to grandfather's house, There must be Azka discuss the company's problems. Assalamualaikum mother," said Azka kissed the hand of the mother. Then he kissed my hand too.

"Wa'alaikumusalam, be careful" said the mother.

"Remember, the monthly bonus for your brother has not been sent," I said. Azka is now a director at her grandfather's company. Although his age is still fairly young, but in a few months he can raise the company's shares. So it's definitely a lot of money, not wrong dong I asked for a monthly bonus. Counting for savings. Hehe...

"Yes, Azka transfers later" he said immediately waltzing away. I smiled happily.

"Mother, Ara's in the room first huh? Kasian Alan is alone. Love you Mother," I kissed her cheek and immediately darted away to the room. Arriving at the room I saw Alan lying with his eyes closed, I smiled and walked up to him. I leaned against the head of the bed while continuing to stare at his handsome face. Hum, he must be pretending to be asleep. I lie down next to him. I put my head on his chest and closed my eyes.

***

The atmosphere at the dining table was very quiet and gripping. This atmosphere was so unfamiliar, usually warmth always enveloped us. But now all that's changed.

I looked at Alan who looked awkward. Alan had never behaved like this before. I know all this because of Papah's attitude, I put the spoon down violently. I'm really upset about this kind of situation.

"Ara is full" I said, leaving immediately. I ran a little towards the room. I opened the window of the room as wide as possible. My chest was so tight, I wanted to feel like I was crying. But what if Alan is sad? I sat at the window. I folded my legs and hugged them tightly. How else do I have to explain to Papah? Why don't you understand.

I looked up when I heard the door open. I saw Alan standing there staring at me.

"The evil father bi," I said. In the end my defense shattered, those clear circles quickly flowed down my cheeks. Alan walked towards me.

"Don't cry, hubby understands papah's feelings. Papah has not accepted reality. Papah is right, hubby is not a good son-in-law, who can give a pride. Hubby's just a disgraceful son-in-law, don't blame Papah. It's all hubby's fault, don't cry anymore" she hugged me so tightly. I raised my head to look at him. That's not true. I shook my head and hugged her tightly.

"Hubby never gave this family any disgrace. For Ara, hubby always brings happiness. Don't talk bad about yourself hubby. Ara doesn't like it,"

I cried in her arms, my heart hurt. How would it feel if I was in Alan's position. Maybe I won't be strong.

"Ara will never leave hubby, Ara promises bi. Ara will always be there for hubby,"

I rubbed her face gently, I close my face with hers. I started to close my eyes slowly. I held my grip on his sleeve as the chewy thing touched my lips. Let this night be adorned by the grievances stored in the heart. Uniting the hurt feelings, linking back to each other the open wounds. Closing the pain without speaking, coloring the heart with love. I will forever love my husband, no matter if I have to get hurt. Because he's not a perfect man.