Sincerity of Heart 2
Chapter 36. He's Really Going (Ara)

I kept my head down, I felt like I wanted to scream and say if I wasn't willing to stay like this. I raised my head when a hand touched my shoulder. Mamma.

"Don't be like this baby" said Mama sitting next to me. I looked at my mother. Hiks, my tears are no longer unstoppable.

"Mama, Ara is not strong" I said hugging my mother. I let go of all the burdens on my chest. Then I felt someone touch my cheek. I lifted my head and saw Alan standing there.

"There's still an hour, come with me for a minute" he said. I let go of my mother's embrace and agreed to Alan's invitation.

Alan held my hand, so warm. I looked at Alan who was still silent. I know he has the same feelings as me. A heavy feeling of abandonment and abandonment.

Alan took me to a pretty quiet place. Not a word came out of his mouth. I was confused what to say. I sat next to him. I put his warm hands on my cheeks.

"Hubby, take good care of yourself there. Do not forget to pray and eat should be regular. Don't stay up late." I said, kissing her hand. I looked at his face.

"You too, take good care of yourself" he said, peeping at my forehead long enough. I closed my eyes. I opened my eyes slowly as Alan let go of his kiss.

I smiled and touched her cheek. I kissed both eyes gently. Until it ends. I closed my eyes again as Alan gently brushed my lips.

"I'm waiting for you." whispered. I opened my eyes and our eyes met each other.

"Hmmm." I replied while nodding.

"Honey, remember to always contact hubby. Whatever it is, ok?"

I smiled and nodded. I hugged him warmly.

"I love you hubby" I said. I tightened my arms.

"Let it be like this for a while" I asked. I put both my hands together. I put my head on his chest. To lighten his heartbeat like music to me.

The sound of an airplane woke my dreams. I opened my eyes, I lifted my head to look at him.

"Sorry, Ara's asleep" I said. Alan smiled and kissed my lips.

"Why do you sleep so much, huh?" tanyakanya.

"Last night Hubby didn't let Ara sleep well. Hubby's wrong." I said. It's true, I couldn't sleep last night because of it.

"Is that so? Hubby forgot." he said pinching my nose.

"Ck, hubby is pretending to forget" I said, pursing my lips. I pulled out my phone and showed her something.

"Hubby is very handsome" I said. I deliberately put up a wallpaper of his picture while he was smiling. I picked it up while Alan was talking to some of his friends. Yes, on her graduation day a few days ago. The photo looks very natural.

"When did you take this?" asked Alan to get my phone. I looked at him and smiled.

"When hubby didn't notice. Ara deliberately took it. After that hubby was busy himself." I replied as it is.

"Hmmm... It doesn't matter, but next time you have to pay." he said. I was very surprised and looked at him straight away.

"Pay? Just a photo of bi. Hubby is stingy." I said as I pursed my lips. I looked at him annoyed.

"The free photos are here" he said, pointing to my heart. I smile. I didn't think about it at all.

"So, there's a picture of Ara?" I asked while pressing his chest. Alan smiled and nodded.

"It's almost full, starting from the portrait when you were little until now it's here" he said, holding my hand still on his chest.

"Ara also had, most Ara remembered it when hubby cried because the hubby toy Ara broke. Hubby was so funny." I said. The shadow of when I was a child turned back in my memory.

"Hmmm.. Then the crybaby kept crying all day because his lips were bitten by ants. That's so adorable." she said. I laughed when I remembered that time. How not, my lips feel very sore and swollen from the ant bite. I didn't know that the guava I ate had ants. It was Alan who picked it up for me.

"Hubby remember not when we went to the top first? At that moment Ara fell and Ara's leg sprained. Hubby was holding Ara, and Ara was very happy. That's where Ara realized, if Ara likes Hubby." I said. I looked at Alan who was also looking at me. I am so happy to be able to remember the good times. Memories where the beginning of togetherness me and him.

***

I kept staring at that strapping back that was starting to disappear behind the sturdy wall. My tears are flowing. My heart also felt empty.

"It's okay" said the mother embracing me. I kept staring at the door with a blank look. He's really gone. I put my head on my shoulders.

"Ara wants to come home" I said hugging the mother tightly.

"Yes, baby" said the mother, peeping at my head.

"We're going home now?" ask mother. I nodded slowly. Mother took me away too. I have also asked permission from my mother, tonight I will stay at my mother's house.

Along the way I just stared at the crowded streets. In contrast to my heart that feels empty. I touched the ring on my ring finger. I kissed her softly. I already miss him.

"When did you start your apprenticeship, baby?" ask mommy to throw my daydreams.

"Mother, Ara misses Alan" I said, hugging my mother. I started crying in my arms.

"Dear, don't be like this. If you're still sad, what about Alan over there? He won't calm down and will keep thinking about you. You want Alan to be sick? No right? You have to be a force for your husband, don't be a weak wife." said the mother. I looked at the mother.

"Sorry Ara bun, Ara has always been close to Alan. I never thought this would hurt so much. But Ara promises, Ara will be strong bun. Ara promise. So let today Ara cry in your arms." I said. My heart is so sore. I want to blow it all out. I was crying in my arms. Mother kept stroking my back and peeling my head. I'm going to vent my emotions, all of them, so that tomorrow I can return as usual.

'Hubby, take good care of yourself there. Ara promised, Ara will also take care of Ara here. I miss hubby very much. Though only a few minutes hubby left, but Ara misses hubby very much.'

***

I started today with a smile. I came out of the room in a better mood than yesterday. Even though my eyes are still a little swollen.

"Pah morning, bun, and my little brother." I said. I sat next to my mother who was pouring rice for me.

"Sister, stop calling me my little brother. I'm an adult" Azka said, not accepting the call of my dear. I chuckle at hearing it.

"But for brother, you're still the same. My little brother." I said with great emphasis. I could see Azka's face getting upset.

"Have no fuss, let's have breakfast." take the mother while pouring the side dish on my plate.

"Thank you Mother, Ara is very hungry. Bismilbornrahmanirrahim." I ate my breakfast with passion. I am currently waiting for news from my husband. I know he's reached his destination. Maybe Alan's still resting, the trip to America is not a short trip. So I'll be patient waiting for news from him.

"Ara, would you like to leave with papah?" ask papah. I nodded enthusiastically. Coincidentally the office where I interned was not far from campus.

"Azka, Ara, papah wait in front" said papah rising from the dining table. I smiled and nodded.

"Sir, next weekend to grandma Yuk's house. I haven't been to Grandma's house in a long time. Want huh? Gotta." take me a little pushy. Azka dines me sharp. I can only smile.

"Depends, if there's no basketball game at school" he said flatly. It managed to defeat my spirit. I pursed my lips and looked at him listlessly.

"Yes, Azka will try." he added that managed to make me happy.

"Yey, thank you, baby. Yes, let's go. I'm waiting for us." I said. I grabbed my bag and went out.

"Sister, do you think my brother took medicine or an architect? Azka's confused." I looked at him and picked up the paper he was holding. We are now on our way to our routine.

"Ep.. Follow your heart. How do you think?" I looked at Papah who was focusing on driving.

"The Father never demands that you go where, papah leave the future to each of you." replied papah. That answer has never changed in the past. I smiled happily.

"Hmmm... Azka was more interested in medicine. Azka will follow in uncle's footsteps. If it's not wrong, kiki and kaka will also lecture here." said Azka who managed to surprise me. They never said anything to me.

"really? Does that mean they're gonna stay here? Well, this is happy news." I have imagined how the atmosphere of the grandmother's house will be filled with her grandchildren.

"Oh yes pah, he said om Ilham also want to go home from Singapore?" I stared at papa.

"Yes, he's moving here. After all he has to take care of your grandfather's company," replied papah.

"Hmmm... That means our family will really be reunited. Ara hadn't seen Isabel in a long time, she must have been getting more beautiful. Let alone little Dino, she must have been as big as Azka." I said while imagining their faces. The last time I heard from them was last year. It was just a video call. The distance between us is really distance.

"Ara, isn't this his office?" ask papah. I nodded immediately. Right now we are in front of a big office. Although not as big as the office owned by the Digantara family.

"Then Ara got down, thank you for driving Ara. Assalamualaikum papah." I said while peeping the back of papah's hand.

"Wa'alaikumusalam." replied papah. Then I looked back.

"Not first, learn the right thing." I said. Azka nodded and kissed my hand. I also went straight down. I waved my hand as the car left.

Huh, Ara's spirit. This is the first day for you and should leave a good impression. Without hesitation I went straight into the building. I smiled happily as it turned out that some of my friends were already present.

"Assalamualaikum everyone, I'm late huh?" my many.

"Wa'alaikumusalam, not Ra. Fifteen minutes to go in the room. Ordinary, welcome." said one of my friends. I nodded and sat down with them.

"Ra, Alan's really out of the country, huh? So you guys are LDR and dong?" ask Clara.

"Well how else? It's family tradition. I can't resist." I kept smiling.

"Huh, if I were you wouldn't be strong. Especially there are so many beautiful girls and you know for yourself what life there is like?" clara. I laughed when I heard his words.

"That's you, if I'm God willing to be strong. On the other hand, he's studying, I trust him too. He's not the striped-nose type of guy." I said with a smile. I really believe Alan will keep his distance from the woman there. I know his nature.

"It's lucky Alan could have a wife like you Ra" he said. I can only smile.

Not long after we were called in to enter the room. I'm so nervous. Bismilbornrahmanirrahim, may all be given smoothness. Ara's spirit, you can definitely.