Sincerity of Heart 2
Chapter 38. May It Be Only a Dream (Ara)

Day by day passed. I only have four weeks left to be in this company. There was a feeling of fear because almost every day he came to me. Even though his intention was good just to make me friends. But I still realize that I am a wife right now. I have to keep my distance from any man. I tried to resist getting close to him.

I'm also very sad, it's been almost a week Alan hasn't told me. This is what I'm so afraid of. He was busy and forgot about me. I miss you Alan so much.

"Ra! My God, I've called you ten times. What the hell are you?" clara exclaimed who managed to make my lamumans collapse.

"It's okay. I'm just a little dizzy." I replied. I'm back to focusing on my work. Huh, my waist hurts so much. For three hours I sat in front of the computer. For a few days I also had stomach cramps. Maybe I'm too tired to work.

"Have you eaten?" ask Clara. I shook my head slowly. I have no appetite, no food can get into my stomach. Every time I eat, I'll get nauseous and spit it all out. Looks like my stomach acid is up.

"Ck, you should eat Ra. I see you I'm a mess. I know longing is hard, but you also have to take care of yourself dong. Eat huh? I brought the provisions." said Clara thrust her supplies.

"No need Cla, I'm not hungry" I said. I don't taste anything at all. I just want Alan. I really miss him. Where are you, Ara misses. Did he forget me? Hah, maybe I should call her when I get home.

"Dillara, you're called to the boss' room."

I was so surprised when my name was mentioned. Boss' room? What am I doing there?

"Well, I'll go straight there" I said. There is a little fear in my heart.

"Ra, are you called to the boss's room? You made a mistake, didn't you?" gina looked at me in wonder.

"I don't know, I also feel like I've never made trouble. Already, I have to go." I said while turning off the computer. I snatched my notebook and headed straight for the boss room. Why does he keep bothering me? What exactly does he want?

"Excuse me." I said knocking on the door. I could hear a voice from inside for me to go straight in. I opened the door with fear.

"Sorry sir, what do you need you to call me?" ask me while looking down. I never dared to look at his face.

"Sit Ara." he said. I was sleepy and sat there.

"This morning I went to meet a client from abroad. I just want to help you get the data. So get ready, in an hour we'll leave." he said, which made me very surprised. How did this happen? Am I going to go with him?

"Are we both sir?" many nervous.

"No, Anita will come too. So don't worry." she replied which managed to make my breath a little relieved.

"Well, is there anything you want to say?" my many.

"No one, you can go back to work" he said. I'm nodding.

"Thank you, sir, I'll say goodbye. Assalamualaikum." I said straight away. Huh, that room made my heart feel like it was going to be dislodged.

I dropped my body on the chair. It feels so exhausting. I've been tired so easily lately. I also often sleep. What's the matter with me exactly? Is it because I have too much thought? Hah, I'm so dizzy.

"How's Ra?" I was very surprised when Clara and the others suddenly went nongol.

"The boss just wants me to go to a meeting with a client" I replied lazily.

"Ck, that's delicious. Want to come with dong." Whine Disa.

"You ask the boss there, don't whine at me." I said.

"Did you joke. Uh Ra, I smell some weird smells. Kayakanya the boss has a crush on you."

"Uhuk Uhuk's... " I was choked when I heard Disa's words.

"Eh, don't just talk to you. I have a husband." I said.

"Ye, who knows, right? After what you are observing, keep going. We also need attention. I told you, LDR is heavy. What was Alan's fate there? There must be a lot of people who have a crush on him. He's handsome, pinter...

"Hushhh,,, what the hell are you Sa. Don't stain Ara's mind. Ra, don't worry about the kid. It's not right she's mah." said Clara patted me on the shoulder. But Disa's saying has a point too. What about Alan there? Astagfirullah Ara, what are you thinking. Alan can't possibly do that, you have to apologize to him. Don't be so bad.

Akhh... Why my stomach hurts. Are my monthly guests coming? Shhh, it hurts so much.

"Ra, what's wrong with you?" ask Clara. I shook my head slowly. The pain disappeared a little. Looks like my monthly guest is coming soon.

"Ra, if you're sick say. Do not force gini labor. You're often very pale,"

"I'm fine, it looks like I'm coming to the moon. Don't worry." I said. I could see their anxious faces. I smile.

"Here work again, later caught talking can get angry" I said. Hearing my words, they immediately rushed to their respective places. How not, our supervisor was fierce. So just a little making a mistake will definitely be sprayed. What is always a goal is value. Very funny indeed.

***

Right now I'm in the car with Mr. Dio and Anita. It feels so awkward. There was no conversation between us. I could only shut up and stare at the street straight ahead. Right now I am sitting in front. I can't sit with them.

"Ara, try to study this proposal" Buk Anita gave me a map. I accepted. I opened the proposal and read it carefully.

"How do you understand?" ask Mr. Dio. I'm nodding.

"Good, I want you to present it. No mistakes, it's a big project."

The deg! My heart stopped for a moment. How could I possibly do that? I'm just an intern and I'm not used to this. What if I'm wrong?

"I believe you can."

"God's insha I'll try sir." I took a deep breath. May all be given smoothness. I'm so nervous.

"No, you're very punctual" said the middle-aged man in pretty good Indonesian.

"Your Indonesian language is very good sir" said Mr. Dio sitting next to me. I was so surprised why he chose to sit next to me.

"My wife is Indonesian, so I learned a lot from her."

I'm really very nervous, my current position is really close to Mr. Dio. I looked at Anita who was talking to the woman next to her. God, I hope everything goes fast.

"Dillara, just call Ara. He's an apprentice student, it just so happens that he has quite a high intelligence. So I brought him here." said Mr. Dio introducing myself to the client. But why does he praise me so much.

"Owh, I'm very happy with a smart woman. I don't think I'm wrong, man,"

I can only smile. How'this? I'm so nervous.

"Ara, I trust you. Do it right, I'm sure you can." whispered Mr. Dio. I swallowed my saliva because my throat was so dry. It's not the presentation that makes me nervous. Except for my current position, Mr. Dio is so close to me.

I began to explain the contents of the cooperative proposal.

"The new product that we will launch this time is not just an ordinary product. The advantage of this product is using organic materials. Without any touch of preservatives. We keep abreast of the times, but put consumer health first. The packaging will be made as good as possible and environmentally friendly..."

I explained everything in detail, there was not the slightest bit that I passed through. I see satisfaction in Mr.'s face. Albert. I am thankful that I am not nervous.

"Amazing out! I love the way this girl talks. He was very careful in choosing the words. You're right, Mr. Andio, she's a smart woman. I'm very interested in this cooperation, I hope we can cooperate well." said Mr. Albert. I breathe a sigh of relief hearing it.

Akhh... My stomach hurts again, like the moon did. Oh, my God, it hurts so much.

"Are you Ok?" ask Mr. Albert stared. I nodded slowly. Buk Anita is touching my shoulder.

"I'm fine, just plain cramping" I said staring at Anita's buk.

"Drink first" said buk Anita opened the mineral water for me.

"Why not tell me you're sick?" ask Mr. Dio.

"I'm fine sir, let's move on." I started to feel bad about the client. If it's like this I can ruin the mood.

"Mrs. Andio, we'd better get this meeting through here. Ara had to be taken to the hospital, she looked very pale. We can continue this later, health is more important than anything." said Mr. Albert. I really feel bad.

"My brother...

"Mrs. Albert's right. You're so pale, we need to get home. Anita help him to the car." said Mr. Dio. God, I screwed it all up.

"Tomorrow." take Anita. I nodded slowly. I saw Mr. Dio say goodbye and apologize for myself.

"Don't think about it, he won't get angry and break off cooperation. I can see our client is quite satisfied with you Ara. Better think about your condition now. Your internship time is still quite long." said buk Anita. He's correct. But I'm fine, just a regular cramp. My stomach must have recurred because I often ate late.

"Sir, to the hospital" said Mr. Dio who managed to surprise me.

"No need sir, I'm not sick. I just bruised my stomach, this is common. It will also heal itself." I dexterous. I don't want to go to the hospital, I just want to go home. I feel so tired and want to rest.

"Sir, can I go home?" ask me with doubt. But I'm really very tired. I saw Mr. Dio think a little.

"Take him home" said Mr. Dio. I smiled happily.

"Thank you sir." I said. I looked at Anita's book. What happened to Anita's buk? Why did his face change. What don't-don't..

"Where's your address?" ask Mr. Dio.

"Eastern Complex" I replied. I took a breath and threw away my bad thoughts. I leaned my body on the chair. I remember Alan back, what was he doing there? Has he eaten? Is she healthy? Bi, Ara misses. I looked at my phone screen, hoping Alan would send me a message. But it's all just my imagination, no message from him.

"He shouldn't have left you Ara, if I had been him. I'll never leave you." My daydreams fell apart when I heard Mr. Dio's words. Whatdoes thatmean?

"Sorry sir, how did you know that... "

"You don't have to ask, I know you already understand how I feel about you. I don't like irresponsible men." she said, which made my heart ache. Alan is not that kind of person.

"Sorry sir, you are wrong. My husband is a very responsible man. You won't understand that, I don't need your attention. Thanks." I replied. I can't accept that he insulted Alan. Alan has sacrificed a lot in his life. I know my husband's current position.

"Thank you for letting me go home and take me. Assalamualaikum." I got off the car. I was really disappointed with his words. He doesn't know anything about me and Alan. I never cared about his feelings.

"Assalamualaikum" I said opening the door lazily. My body suddenly went limp. I'm so tired of thinking about everything.

"Wa'alaikumusalam, have you come home, baby?" ask mama. I nodded and went straight up the stairs. I want to rest, my body is completely limp.

When I got into the room, I dropped my body in bed.

"You're so stupid, I shouldn't be interning at that company. But it's too late Ara, stupid fool. Hubby, Ara misses. Why didn't Hubby tell you? Hiks, hubby nasty. He said he'd always give Ara news? But where is the evidence? Wicked!" My tears just escaped. I cried while looking at the ceiling. I hate situations like this.

Akhh... My stomach hurts again. I woke up and pressed my stomach that was getting wrapped around. Why the pain is weird, I've never been like this during my period. I ran to the bathroom to see if I was actually coming to the moon.

"Geez, why is there so much blood?" There is a little fear in my heart. I bit my lips when my stomach was like it was in a squeeze. I sat on the closet. I took a deep breath. So hurt. I tried to get up and reach the door. I opened the door slowly, the pain grew. I felt something rushing down there. I was shocked to see fresh blood flowing at my feet. What don't-don't...

"Maaa." I shouted. I can no longer walk. My feeling's raging. What if what I think really happened? I don't want to...

"Maa.. Arin.." call me again. My body is so limp. God, why this? So hurt. Ara can't stand it, it hurts so much. Hix... Mom, Arin... Anyone, please Ara. I saw a slightly fuzzy door. My head is also beating violently. I hope it's just a dream and when I open my eyes everything will be fine. It's just Ara's dream, it's just a dream.