Sincerity of Heart 2
Chapter 68. Please understand (Ara)

After performing the magrib prayer. I came out of the room feeling thirsty. I didn't feel like I was asleep until the sky turned black. I haven't seen Arin either. Has he not returned yet?

I slowly pour the water into the glass. Look at the dining table with some food available. I pulled out a chair and sat there. Staring at the food, making my saliva drip. Where are you with the others, are you still in the room?

"Bismil was bornrahmanirrahim," I began to gulp down water. It feels so refreshing.

"Ara, who do you think you are?" greetings from Mother who just appeared. I smile.

"Ara thirsty bun," I replied. She smiled as she sat in front of me.

"Why not eat?" ask mom to look at me.

"Ara wait mom, it's not good to eat alone."

"Azka does not seem to go home" said the mother. I looked at the mother.

"Office problems?" manya curious.

"Mother doesn't know, maybe it does. Now Azka is often busy," replied the mother. I just nodded. I know Azka's still looking for Alan right now. Although it is very difficult to find its existence. But I'm pretty sure Alan is still alive. Alan was never in my dreams.

"Mother, Ara is very hungry. Can Ara eat?" I stared at the sweet sour fish that made my saliva flood.

"Oh my goodness, no one forbids you to eat. Eat, papah soon also arrived," said mother. I smiled clumsyly. I don't know, I'm really hungry right now. Maybe because I rarely eat for a few days.

I'll get some rice and some side dishes. I can't wait to eat my mother's cooking.

"Well, do you have a lot of kids eating?"

I raised my head, looking at the papah who was now sitting next to my mother.

"Harap pah," I replied with a smile.

"Surprisingly, you are not alone right now. There are papah's grandchildren there," said papah. I'm nodding.

"Yes, let's continue eating. Papah is also very hungry. Your mother's cooking always makes papah fall in love," said papah. I can only smile hearing it.

I stared at my mother's affection with papah. Hearts shriveling. I remember Alan. If it's this time, Alan's with me. Maybe I still feel the sweetness. I really miss him. I miss my husband's attention. Hah, my eyes are so hot. But I was tired of crying.

"Darling, why silence?"

I was so surprised. I looked at the mother lamat-juran.

"Ara misses Alan, bun. Ara..," I can't go on with my words. My chest hurts. I saw my mother get up from her seat. Walked toward me.

"Here you go, mother understand." Mother hugged me tightly. My crying broke again. I can't hold everything. So hurtful. Mother let me keep crying.

"Eat, he said hungry. Kasian your son," continued the mother as I stopped my crying.

"Mother's bribe huh?" my door.

"Yes dear," said the mother kissing my forehead. Then my mother sat next to me. Started to feed me slowly.

After I finished eating, I chose to sit in the living room. I want to forget a little bit of sadness. I'm turning on the children's series.

Ting tong's...

I was stunned when I heard the bell ring. It looks like Arin. I got up and rushed to open the door.

"Why..," I was cut off. I was shocked when I saw the figure standing in front of me.

"Assalamualaikum," he said.

"Was... Wa'alaikumusalam," I replied nervously.

"Sir Dio, Mama, Papa," I said hello to them.

"How are you, baby?" ask Papa Bayu.

"Well, Pa," I said. I looked at them full of question marks.

"Ah, please come in." I backed off a little, letting them in. I almost forgot to tell them to come in.

"Sit down, I call papah with mother first," I said. They nodded. I rushed straight to my mother's room.

"Mother," called me while knocking on the door. Not long after, she appeared behind the door.

"There's a guest in front, Mr. Dio with both his parents."

"What's wrong?" ask mother. I nodded in response.

"Yes, wait a minute. Would you please make me a drink, honey?"

I'm nodding. Mother also came back in. I rushed to the kitchen.

Five minutes passed, I moved forward. Carrying a tray in my hand.

"Sorry troublesome," said Mama Hilda. I placed a tray containing three glasses of juice and a plate of cake on the table.

"No," I replied. I sit next to Mom.

"Sorry, take your rest. We just came here to express good intentions."

What else is this?

I looked at Mr. Dio who was also looking at me.

"What's this?" ask papah. I hold tightly to your hand.

"Look, I know it's too soon. But I don't want to delay any more. I intend to marry Ara, after Ara gives birth. I will take good care of them and protect them" Mr. Dio said. I stared at the clingy papah. And vice versa.

"Sorry son Dio, this is too sudden." Mother now speak up.

"Sorry aunt, I just want to take care of Ara and the child in her body. Alan is also my brother. It is my duty to take care of them. I married Ara, so I could protect them freely."

I stared at Mr. Dio fixedly. What is really on this man's mind? How many times have I refused. Why does she still insist on marrying me. I take a slow breath. Trying to be more calm.

"Sir Dio, for which I have repeatedly rejected your good intentions. I know, your goal is to keep me. But again, I apologize. I can't accept you" I reply as much as I can.

"Ara, please give me a chance. Allow me to take your heart. Honestly, I can't forget you. I still love you so much, Ara."

Bruk!

I was so shocked when I heard something fall. I woke up and looked back. My eyes are open perfectly. I saw Arin standing there. The bag he was carrying had fallen on the floor. I can also see his eyes glistening.

"Arin..," called me as I walked over to him. Arin stepped back. I know how he feels right now. I hope he doesn't misunderstand me.

"Arin, listen to brother," I said as I approached him. But Arin first leaves, running away from home.

"Whether... Listen brother. Wait!" I kept screaming. Chase after him as much as I can. But, it's all for nothing. Arin's gone with his car. My feelings are not good. It's not good to drive in this situation. I held my stomach which hurt a little. Maybe because I ran after Arin.

Not long after, I saw Azka's car enter the yard. I approached him.

"Dek, please go after Arin." I asked Azka. Azka looked at me confused.

"Honey, where's Arin?" ask mom to embrace me. I looked at mom. Hugged it tightly.

"It looks like Arin misunderstood bun," I said. Mother stroked my head gently. I broke my arms with my mother.

"What's up, brother? Him, why is it here?" ask Azka. I looked at Azka. Then follow Alan's direction. Mr. Dio, it's already standing behind me.

"Damn!" azka Umpat. He went back into the car. I looked at Azka's fast-moving car.

"Mother," I said again hugging my mother. My feelings are really bad. I was scared, afraid that Arin would hate me.

"It's okay, everything's fine."

"What if Arin doesn't want to see Ara anymore, Bun?"

"Here, don't think too much. Mommy is sure, Arin will not do that," said the mother continues to stroke my head. Then my eyes were on Mr. Dio. I'm leerai hugging mom. Walked over to the stubborn man.

I cupped my hands together. Staring at him.

"I beg you, don't disturb my life anymore. You should've known, my love was only for Alan. Only he will be my husband, until the end of the deed. I just love my husband, only my husband, sir. Though we are separated to the ends of the world, but our love will never fade."

"My whole heart, I gave it to my husband. No matter how others want to separate us, that love will never be separated. I love Alan sincerely. So, please, one more time. Never admire my life again" I explained at length. I want him to understand. Love cannot be forced. I wiped my tears violently. Rushed to leave him still silent.

Stopped step. I turned.

"If you really love me, please let me go. Look, around you there is so much love. Appreciate that love before you regret it. Sincerity in loving someone is the key to happiness. I don't think your feelings for me are love. Except obsession. If you love me sincerely, you will make me happy."

After saying that. I rushed straight in. I don't want to add to any problems. My problem is heavy enough.

I closed the door slowly. My feet feel so weak. I think I want to run as fast as possible. But everything is impossible.

God, why is everything like this? Where's the servant's husband? If he's alive, please. Please give him back to me, God. Servant please.

I dropped myself on the bed. I looked at my wedding photo on the wall. My tears keep flowing.

I gripped the blanket tightly. Wreaked out the pain in my heart. I want everything back to how it used to be. I want Alan back.

"Dear, don't cry."

Alan. That's Alan's voice. I woke up to look for that voice. But where is he?

"Hubby?" call me. I opened the balcony door. But everything seems empty. Where did that sound come from? Is it just my hallucinations? Hix... I miss him so much. My heart continues to rebel.

I closed the balcony door again. Move to the bathroom. Just remember, if I haven't prayed Isha.

After the prayer, I laid my body on the bed. My whole joint feels so painful. I want to rest. I hope tomorrow is a better day than ever. I closed my eyes. Hope the sleepiness gets me soon.

I felt something move in my stomach. I wanted to open my eyes, but everything was so hard.

"Good night, baby..."

The kiss, why is it so real. Am I dreaming? Why is that voice so clear. Alan. Is he back yet?

I opened my eyes slowly. I looked around the room. However, I didn't see anyone. All the doors are still tightly closed. So I'm back hallucinating?

"Bi, Ara wishes hubby was really here. I miss hubby very much. Ara misses hubby's hug." I pulled the blanket over half my body. I closed my eyes again. I let my tears flow. Only crying can make my heart better. Although I'm actually getting tired. Tired of all the conditions.