Sincerity of Heart 2
Chapter 39. My biggest mistake (Alan)

Very exhausting days. I spent a whole week with some of my colleagues doing the treatment. We get the task to merivew 20 international journals of paper depth with a fairly short period of time. There was no time for me to relax. Yes, this is a duty and a condition that I can obtain guidance approval with Professor Luis. He was a master teacher who was very famous for his cleverness and ability. Many students who gave up in the middle of the road because of the assertiveness of this one Professor. But I don't want to be on his blacklist. I will do my best to be her guide.

This week I haven't taken my personal things at all. I miss my wife so much. What is he doing now? Wait for me baby, I'll be free tomorrow. I hope he won't be angry because I didn't tell him before. I also deliberately did not interfere with his time much because he was also busy. The time here and there is much different.

"Arlan, you've been asked by Prof. Good luck." said one of my comrades. I smiled and nodded. I took a deep breath. This is the time of deciding whether I pass or not. I hope my hard work is not in vain.

Fretfully, I entered the prof's room. Luis.

"Come Arlan." I entered slowly. I saw Prof. Luis was busy with a few piles of papers on his desk. I saw Prof. Luis looked at.

"Sit down, we'll talk for a while" he said. I nodded and sat down in the chair.

"How, are you feeling tired? Regret having chosen me your guide?" tanyanya looks at me clingy. I smile.

"No Prof, it would be an honor for me if Prof. became my mentor." I replied sincerely.

"Hmmm... I thought you were bored and sorry. One whole week I locked you up and gave you a tough assignment. Is it really heavy?" abugn.

"No Prof, we students should work hard to get satisfactory results" I said.

"Hmmm.. I like your answer. What do you think, are you going to pass the exam this time?" the question that succeeded in making the heart bedebar. It is not easy to get the guidance of a famous Professor like him.

"I still have a lot of shortcomings and need to learn Prof. But I was hoping to graduate, because from the beginning I liked the Professor's work system. So all the decisions I leave with the Professor." I answered soberly.

"Haha... You praise me too much Arlan. But I like your seriousness. Congrats! In the next few years, you don't get tired of getting orders from me. Welcome to join and fight. There is no success without struggle. I hope you don't regret choosing me." she said, which made me happy.

"Thank you Prof." I said so excitedly.

"Go home, I know you miss your wife. Take advantage of your free time." he said. I'm a little surprised, because I haven't said at all that I'm married.

"Don't look at me like that, I see a ring in your hand. So I thought you were married." I smiled hearing his presentation.

"I'm married" I explained.

"Well, so I'm not wrong. It seems like the girls here will be very disappointed. You're very young, but you've got the courage to get married. It's very rare to happen here."

"I don't want anyone to get ahead. No need to wait long to do good."

"Ok, I get it. Looks like I should get a wife as soon as possible" he said. I smiled hearing that. I myself was confused, how could the handsome Professor seem unmarried at the age of almost four heads.

"We are waiting for your good news, hopefully soon to be a husband" I said. The professor laughed.

After chatting some of my research problems and so on. I immediately went home. But when I want to get in the car. Someone blocked my hand. I was surprised that he was my big brother.

"Sorry," I said, releasing his hand.

"I want you" he said, which surprised me. What the fuck? He's gone mad.

"Sorry, you're wrong" I said straight into the car. I don't want to serve a strange woman like her. Really, this is what I avoid the most. I always avoid women who want to be close to me. I just want to honor my wife. I saw disappointment in his eyes. But I don't care. I left that place for the dorm.

I opened my phone. Ck, it turns out lowbat. How many days I didn't charge, he deserved to die.

Upon arriving at the dormitory I immediately charged my phone. I miss him so much. I went to the bathroom. I want to clean myself up first. I don't want to look messy when I call him.

The deg! What's wrong with my heart? Why do I feel something is awkward. My chest feels tight. Did something happen to her? No, Alan, don't think anything. He's fine over there. I'll make sure of it. I abandoned my intention to take a shower. I turned on my phone.

30 missed calls. Mamma. What's the matter exactly. I called my mom back. My feelings are getting worse. O Allah, I beg you to protect whatever happens to your wife.

Tut's.

"Hallo Alan, where have you been? Basic child does not know in profit. Did you forget you had a wife?"

I was very surprised to get the spray from my mom.

"Sorry ma, there's something Alan has to take care of. Did something happen to Ara?" My heart was racing very fast.

"Based on stupid kid. Ara's in the hospital. Go home, you should be next to him at this time. He needs you, go home now Alan."

"What's this about? How did Ara get into the hospital? What's going on?" manya panic.

"Go home, mama will tell you everything when you're here. Alan's home, Ara needs you." said Mama. God, what really happened.

"Alan will be home Ma. Assalamualaikum." I turned off the phone and grabbed my bag. I have to go home to see his condition. How can I be this stupid.

I'm very worried. Coming back to Indonesia requires a long journey. I can't wait. I hope time goes by quickly.

Soekarno Hatta International Airport...

I ran with all my might. I want to see my wife soon. I won't forgive myself if anything happens to her. Idiotically. It's all my fault. I should have kept him informed. How could I forget that Ara would worry about me.

Arriving at the hospital, my feelings went back to life. I saw Arham's papah sitting languidly in front of the room where Ara was being treated. What the hell is going on?

"pah, what's going on?" I asked with a breath cut off from running. Papah looked at me without intending to answer me.

Chequek! I looked towards the door. I went in and passed by the silent mother who saw me. My heart didn't beat when I saw her pale face. He was lying there with a needle stuck in his arm. Eyes closed. My heart hurts when I see all of that.

"What's going on?" my many. The mother sitting next to him immediately saw me.

"Ara.. Ara miscarriage."

"No way," I sat next to him. This is all like a dream. I held her cold hand. I'm sorry, honey, sorry. My tears just escaped. It hurts, that's what I feel right now.

"Ara tired and too much thought. The content is very weak, so the fetus can not survive. You have to be patient, maybe this has not been sustenance." explained mama.

"Last night the operation went well, it's just that Ara hasn't been awake until now."

My tears are flowing more and more. It's all my fault.

"I'm sorry, I was wrong" I said. I kissed her hand gently. What if he woke up and heard this harsh reality? It hurt rab. He and I have always expected his presence. But why was it that when he was present, no one realized that. I'm really stupid.

"Hiks.. "

I was very surprised when I heard the sound of a prank. Is he awake?

"Alhamdulillah, you've come to your senses dear. Mommy's gonna call the doctor."

I rubbed his face. I wiped the tears that had soaked her cheeks.

"I'm sorry, baby" I kissed her on the forehead. I felt his hand clutching my hand tightly. I hugged him tightly. I know how he feels right now. It's very painful.

"Tell me this is just a bi dream, it's a dream, right?" said it. His body shook violently. It hurts, my heart hurts so much to hear the stuffing coming out of his mouth.

"Sorry dear." I said kissing the tip of his head.

"It's all Ara bi's fault, Ara is unaware of his presence. Ara should have realized this from the start. It's all Ara bi's fault, Ara's sorry she couldn't take care of him."

"No dear, you are not wrong. Don't be like this. We must be sincere, maybe God has not given us trust to care for him. Don't blame yourself."

"Don't cry anymore,"

I cupped his face. I kissed both eyes. Not long after the doctor came. I let the doctor check it out. I see her tears flowing. His gaze was so empty. I know, at this moment a feeling of disappointment and sadness was raging in his heart. And so do I feel right now.

"Mother must maintain a good diet so that the recovery process runs smoothly. There is no need to be sad, God willing, you can get pregnant again" said the doctor. I stroked his head gently.

"Thank you doc." I said.

"Together sir, then I say goodbye first. If you need to, please call me. Assalamualaikum."

"Wa'alaikumusalam."

"Honey, hubby knows this is heavy. But we have to be sincere." I kissed him on the forehead. I don't want her condition to go down.

"Hubby's not angry?" tanyakanya. Yes rab, why is he so innocent.

"How can I be angry, this is not our wish, dear." I kissed her hand.

"But this is Ara's fault, Ara doesn't realize she's already present bi. Ara is not a good mother, our son must hate Ara."

"What did you say? he won't hate you, baby. He is in heaven, waiting for us. We'll meet him later." I'm trying to win it. I looked at his face.

"Listen, whatever happens. Don't blame yourself ok? Right now you need to focus on healing. I love you." I said hugging him.

"Hiks, Ara misses hubby. Why didn't hubby tell you?"

"Sorry baby, for a week I have to accept the assignment. I'm sorry." I said peeling his head in a hole.

"Hubby why go home? What about hubby's lecture?" tanyakanya. Ck, you stupid idiot. You are more important than anything, baby.

"That's not important, right now all you have to think about is you baby. You need to heal." I said.

"Bi, is our son really not angry? What if he's mad bi? Ara can't take good care of him bi. Why Ara is not aware when Ara is often nauseous and wants something. Ara is so stupid bi." I was very surprised to hear his presentation. I never knew any of that. I let go of my embrace.

"Why didn't you ever say that?" my many. I looked into his eyes deeply.

"Sorry, Ara just doesn't want hubby to think. Ara doesn't want hubby to get sick. Ara apologized." she replied. He hugged me so tightly.

"You should have said whatever happened, baby, hubby told you, right? You have to say whatever happens, whatever it is."

"Ara's sorry, Ara didn't know that this was going to happen. Ara apologize, hubby don't be mad.. Akhh... " I was so shocked as he grimaced in pain while touching his stomach.

"What's wrong?" I started to panic.

"Ara's stomach hurts" he said, squeezing my hand so tightly. Is it so sick?

"I'll call the doctor for a minute" I said, but he didn't let go of my hand.

"Sick bi." whining. I'm getting panicked.

"Ma, mother." call me. Mom and Mom came in shortly. Their faces were no less panicked.

"What's wrong? Why sweetheart?" ask mother.

"Mom call the doctor first." My mom ran to call the doctor.

"Darling, if it hurts. You can vent it on me." I said rubbing his head. I could see he was in real pain. God, why should he feel pain? Why not just me. I can't see him in pain like this.