Sincerity of Heart 2
Chapter 66. Give him back to me (Ara)

I open my eyes slowly. I smell a pretty strong smell. Where am I at the moment?

My head hurts so much, I also feel something stabbing my hand. I saw a needle stuck in my hand. I was in the hospital? What the hell's going on?

I was stunned when I remembered the incident. Alan. Where is he now? I felt a blanket cover my body. I pull out the needle that stuck in my arm. So hurtful.

Akh... My stomach hurts so much. But I kept trying to get out of this strange smelling room. I open the door slowly.

"Sister Ara? Why awake?"

I was a little surprised when Arin suddenly appeared behind the door.

"Alan, where is he?" I just stared at him. Arin looks down.

"Arin, what's going on?" I asked while touching his two shoulders.

"Ara, why are you outside? Come on in, you can't move much,"

I looked up when I heard Mother's voice.

"Bun, what's going on? Where's Alan?" I pulled my mother's hand. Mother touched my face, pulled me in her arms.

"Bun, Ara's a nightmare right?" I let go of your mother's embrace.

"Ara wants to see Alan, please call Alan bun."

"Darling, you have to be patient. Every man will return to Him. You have to be sincere,"

I cringed confused. Why did my mother say that?

Nah!

That can't be the case, Alan's still alive. He was waiting for me at home. Why am I even here anyway?

"Mother, Ara wants to go home. Alan must be waiting for Ara at home," I said holding my mother's hand.

"ARA, listen to me. You have to be sincere, Alan is no more. Alan was buried a few hours ago,"

I'm speechless. Digesting every mother's word, like a dagger blasting down my heart. Alan's dead? That can't be happening. Alan promised to keep me company. I can't believe Alan doesn't exist.

"Mother lies, Ara will find Ara's own husband."

I walked out. I want to go home soon. I'm sure Alan is waiting for me at home. My little heart kept saying, My husband is still alive.

"Ara, stop that. Come with mom now!"

I was so surprised when my mom pulled me.

"Mother, Ara wants to go home. Please don't be like this" I said. But my mother did not pay any attention to me.

"Mother, where are we going?" ask me when my mom drives her car. I looked at the mother. Mother speechless.

Whatisthis? I don't understand what's going on. How could I be in the hospital? Is the dream really real? That's not possible. My head hurts a lot remembering everything.

"Mother," called me when you stopped the car right in public. I looked at him fixedly. Mother looked at me. His hand stretched out to touch my cheek.

"Listen darling. Alan, your husband is no more. You must be sincere, patient, expand your heart. Mother knows this hurts, mother knows you are strong. Come on down,"

My mouth is locked. Does this dream continue?

"Let's go baby."

I was very surprised, now my mother has opened the door for me. I got off the car.

"Come on," take your mother to lead me. My feet are slowly moving.

I stared at the vortex that looked brand new. All my family and Alan are gathering. I also saw my mom crying while hugging me.

Arlan Digantara's. The name was clearly engraved there. I looked at him fixedly. Is that really Alan? My heart kept screaming. If it wasn't Alan, my husband. Alan is alive. Yeah, he's alive.

"Ara," mom touched my arm. I turned my face to look at my mother.

My tears just flow. My chest feels so tight. My breath seems to stop.

"No, Alan's alive, Ma. You have to trust Ara" I said. I look at everyone, I want them to believe me.

"Ara, mama please. Please let Alan down, son. Mama please," said mama immediately left me and followed by papa. I looked at the mother.

"Mother," call me. Mother rubbed my shoulders.

"Mother believes in Ara right? Alan is still alive, Alan has promised to see this child born. Ara was sure, Alan would not break his promise. Trust Ara, Bun. How do you know if it's Alan? Maybe it's someone else" I explained to my mother.

I looked at Azka who was looking at me. I walked closer to him.

"Dec, bring brother home." My love for Azka. I know, he believed me. Azka smiled as she nodded. I'm very happy. Right now, I only need people who believe in me.

I stared at the street straight ahead.

"Sister, did you return to the hospital instead?" tanyanya who managed to disperse my daydreams.

"No need, brother wants to go home. Alan must be waiting for my brother at home" I said.

"Hmmm... I have to rest a lot" he said.

"Do you believe in your sister?" I asked while staring at the road.

"Hmmm... I'll help you find Alan's brother."

I looked at him directly.

"So you really believe, if Alan hasn't died yet?" I just stared at him.

"Yes, the doctor said that the face of the corpse could not be detected. The conditions are pretty bad," he explained. I was so surprised. So my feelings are never wrong. Alan is alive. But where is he now? How's condition?

"Sister, don't say this to anyone. Enough we know, Azka thinks there's something strange. I'd better pretend to believe that Alan's brother isn't around. Azka will investigate this."

I nodded for sure. What the hell is going on? O Allah, please protect the husband of the servant. Wherever he is.

Arriving at home. I went straight into the room. I looked at her beautiful face on the wall. I miss him so much.

Where is hubby now? Ara knew hubby wouldn't just leave Ara.

***

Minutes kept changing hours, day after day passed so quickly. The moon continues to roll. I haven't heard anything from him. All of this made my heart doubt. Doubts about her living self. Ruining every faith. Destroying the spirit within me.

If it's true he's alive. Why didn't he come to me. Meet me here. Doesn't he miss me?

Where exactly is he? I miss him so much.

"Darling, don't just look at it. Come, at the meal," said the mother who managed to disperse my daydream. I nodded slowly. My tongue feels bad. Everything that entered my mouth, it was very bitter.

"Today's the check-up schedule isn't it?" ask papah. I nodded back, in response. I put the rice lazily in my mouth.

"A lot of breakfast, you're so skinny baby. Mother is worried about your condition," said mother.

"Ara has no appetite, Ara to the room first." I rushed straight to the room. Being locked up makes me better.

"Honey, umi knows you miss abi. Umi also missed. Three months, Umi hasn't heard from abi. Umi is lonely," I said while stroking my stomach. I felt movement in there. It seems like my baby is feeling, what I am feeling. I miss him so much.

One more hour, time to check up. See the progress in there. It made me forget my problems a little. I hope his presence will bring happiness to everyone.

Thirty minutes passed. The doctor said my baby is healthy. I'm very happy. The doctor also said that in a few weeks my son will be born. But, on the other hand. I feel sad too. What if this kid was born, Alan really doesn't exist?

I drove my car to the scene a few months ago. I got off the car. Every day, I never miss coming to that place. Wishing he was there, coming to see me. I stared at the abyss that had destroyed my happiness.

My tears are flowing, as if I don't want to stop. The pain in my heart is becoming more and more.

"If hubby's still alive, why doesn't hubby go home? Does hubby not miss Ara? Does hubby not want to see our son born?" my yelling. I don't care if other people think I'm crazy. I just want him to hear the screams of my heart. I want him back. At least I got word from him, that's more than enough.

"Mom!"

I was so shocked when someone called and touched my shoulder. Without a second thought, I looked straight at him.

Mr. Dio. What the hell is he doing here? I'm a little backwards.

"Why is your father here?" many wonder.

"Bring you," she replied to me confused.

"Every day I see you here, I'm afraid something happens to you. Right now you're pregnant, it's not good to be alone in a lonely place."

I retreated back as he approached.

"I'm sorry, I have to go home." I ran a little towards the car.

"Ara, I'm willing to take care of you, as well as the boy. To me, you are very valuable. Let me take care of you, Ara."

My hands are stiff. What did I just hear? Is it not wrong? Why did Mr Dio say that?

I turned around, looking at him.

"I don't need anyone to take care of me, nor does this child. I can take care of myself" I said. Then I got in the car. Leave that place.

Why does Mr Dio have such thoughts? Has he not forgotten me? Why is everything getting complicated.

"Bi, hurry back. Ara needs hubby." My tears did not stop. The tightness in my chest grew. What am I supposed to do now? Every moment, every second I pray to Him. Please give me back my Alan. Returned husband. Give him back to me.