Sincerity of Heart 2
Chapter 31. Severe Decisions (Alan)

I keep staring at Papa's back. It's been almost half an hour papa hasn't spoken yet.

"Pa, Alan knows this is tradition. But... "

"Papa doesn't like rejection, if you're really papa's son. Then you must follow this family tradition,"

"But pa, what about Alan's wife? Alan couldn't have left Ara. From the beginning Alan slightly objected to papa's terms. But Alan knows. Papa will give a waiver to Alan. Let Alan continue his education here pa," I said. Papa's still unmoved, he's still turned his back on me.

"So you refused?" ask papa. I was silent for a moment.

"Sorry pa, Alan didn't mean to refuse papa's wishes. But Alan can't leave Alan's wife" I kept staring at his back. From the beginning I thought this would happen. That's why I don't want to take my wife. But what else? It's all too late.

"So you refused?" ask papa again.

"Sorry pa, Alan reluctantly refused" I said firmly. My decision has been made, I will accept the risk I take.

"Today you proved that you are not my flesh and blood!'

Jem! Like a thousand arrows piercing my heart. All this time, papa never brought up my status. But this time, papa said it all out loud. That means I've really let papa down.

"Pa..."

"Don't call me that again, you're not my son anymore!" I'm back tekajut.

"Pa, until whenever papa remains papa. Alan loves papa." I said straight away. If I stay there, papa will get angry.

The deg! My heart was racing when I saw my mother standing at the door with tears in her eyes.

"Mama" I hugged my mom. Right now I'm really worried. On the one hand I have made papa and mama disappointed. But now I have a big responsibility too. Ara, he is my responsibility. I will always make her happy.

"Mama will talk to Papa, don't worry. Forgive me, dear papa," said mama stroking my head. Unknowingly, my tears escaped and soaked my cheeks.

"No need ma, what papa said is true. Alan isn't... "

" Don't talk anymore, you stupid kid. You're mama's son, mama's son." said mama hugged me tighter. I was crying in his arms. Let others consider me weak, for my weakness is my own family. The family that accepted me and educated me to this size. A family that is always there for me at any time. But what's my reply? I reject the wishes of this family.

"Alan's sorry ma'am, Alan has let down mom and dad. But at the moment Alan's position as a husband, Alan has a big responsibility for Alan's wife's happiness" I said.

"Mama understands, baby, come in the room. Mama's gonna talk to papa. Your wife must be waiting" said mama wipe my tears. I'm nodding. I kiss my mama's soft forehead. I love him so much.

"Thank you ma" I said. Mama nodded. I smiled and walked to my room. My current feelings are really not calm.

I opened the door slowly, but I could not find my wife. I closed the door and walked to the bathroom.

"Darling, are you inside?" I asked while knocking on the door. Then soon the bathroom door opened and showed my bidadar with a beautiful hair.

"It's over?" tanyakanya. I nodded and smiled.

"Then?" he asked again, I was confused.

"Hubby decision?"

Does he know? Ck, it must be Arin who said everything.

"I refused it." I replied slowly. I could see the shock on his face.

"Kenpas?" ask again. Wh why? O God of Ara, I certainly did this for your sake dear.

"Because I can't leave my bidadar" I kissed her on the forehead.

"That's Alan's fault, I don't agree with your decision!" the screams walked past me. I looked at him confused. He also called my name. Is he angry? But I did all this just for him.

"What do you mean? You want us to split up?" I walked closer to him. Ara looked at me.

"It's not like that, you have to do whatever this family tradition is. Ara's fine Alan, only 2 years isn't it? Ara will wait." she said with a smile. It's not like he is.

"Two years is not a short time Ara, it's very long. I can't stand it if we have to be far apart." I stroked his face. I saw Ara sighing heavily.

"Ara knows, but hubby's current position is still the son of the Digantara family. Unlike the case with Ara, do not disappoint papa. Hubby didn't say it himself? papa is hubby's angel. So don't let her down, we can get through it all together. Ara will finish Ara's lecture as soon as possible, after which Ara will catch up with hubby. How's it?"

God, is this really my wife? If it's like this, he looks more mature. His thoughts were also not like the usual Ara.

"I love you so much" I hugged him. Huh, how could I leave him? I'm used to hearing the ramblings and their potency.

"Ara also loves Hubby very much" he said. I tightened my arms.

"So how?" ask again. I let out a huffed breath.

"I'm confused" I said, sinking my face in the recess of his neck. The smell of strawberries clad in milk gushed into my nose.

"Go, continue the struggle of the Digantara family. Do not break a bond just to tie another relationship. But how the two bonds should be connected so that it will not be easy to break," he said pushing my body slowly. I looked into her eyes so shady.

"This is proof of Ara's love for hubby. Ara will sacrifice and hubby will also have to fight hard for Ara" he said while cupping my face. I smiled and nodded.

"I never thought, behind your spoiled and crybaby. There's a little maturity there," I said pinching his nose. I could see her cheeks blushing with a flushed nose.

"Ara just wants to be a good wife to hubby, to be the way to the house we're going to build in heaven" she kissed the back of my hand. I'm really moved. I kissed her head and prayed that she would always be protected by God and continue to be a godly wife.

"Thank you, baby" I hugged her again.

"Hubby should apologize to Papa immediately. And tell me if hubby accepts any decision papa," she asked, looking at me. I smiled and kissed her lips.

"Hubby will do that, baby, no need to worry" I said, taking him to bed. Ara confirmed her sleeping position. He held his head up in my chest.

"Hubby, hubby's graduation is still a long time, right?" tanyakanya.

"One more month maybe, what's up?"

"Hmmm... Means there's still a month to indulge with hubby. Ara hoped that she would be present quickly," she said, pulling my hand and putting it on her stomach. I understand what he meant. I also expected the presence of a little angel in my little family.

"Hmmm... We can only pray, and keep trying." I said. Ara raised her head and looked at me fixedly.

"Hubby, if Ara gets pregnant. Keep hubby away, who dong hugging Ara?" his whining makes me very anxious.

"There's a bolster," I said. Ara pursed her lips and pinched my cheek so anxiously. Ck, the pain also turned out to be the cubit.

"Ck, hubby's still joking. Ara seriously hubby," whined again. This time his cheeks were perfectly swollen.

"Hubby's coming home" I said, peeping his cheeks still like pufferfish.

"Could be? Where will hubby continue to study?" ask again. Ck, it turns out that the nature of the carrot is back.

"Harvard University or Oxford University. Because papa graduated from both universities, maybe I'll follow in papa's footsteps. We will continue our education together" I hugged him tightly.

"Hm... Ara did not want to continue, because Ara wanted to focus with the Ara family. Ara wants to be like mother," he said. I smiled and nodded. I'm very happy, because I won't allow Ara to work. Not that I'm blocking his future, but that's my principle. But if Ara wants to continue her education, I won't mind. Because my wife is the madrasah for my children later. So I will not prevent him from studying as high as possible.

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I smiled with relief when I saw the light on Papa's face. Is he so happy I'll continue in his footsteps.

"Bring me the deal," papa's pinta. I looked at Mama and Ara alternately.

"Aren't you listening to me son?" ask papa to look at me. I doubtfully gave you the letter of agreement. Papa quickly picked it up and...

Waitaminute! Why did papa tear it up? I looked at papa.

"Papa doesn't need this letter anymore, you're really my son. But you want to know why you changed your mind? What because. " said papa looking at Ara fixed.

"Yes pa" I answered embracing Ara.

"Daughter's room" Papa told Ara. Ara looked at me, I nodded slowly. Ara got up from her seat and walked over to papa.

"Sit down" she asked. Ara sat there.

"Thank you" said Papa, peeping Ara's forehead. Hah, what a rare sight. I'm so happy, getting a wife seems like a real blessing. He is truly the angel that God gave to this family. Thank you God for all the blessings you have given me.

اَلْحَمْدُلِلّٰهِ الَّذِىْ جَعَلَنِىْ مِنْ اُمَّةِ مُحَمَّدٍ صَلَّى اللّٰهُ عَلَيْهِ وَسَلَّمَ

Alhamdulillaahil ladzii ja’alii min ummati Muhammadin shallaahu ‘alaihi wasallama .

“All praise be to Allah who has made me a member of the people of Prophet Muhammad.”