Sincerity of Heart 2
Chapter 7. The Heart of the Wounded (Ara)

Let this taste continue to rage in the heart. Let time slowly evaporate this feeling. Let these eyes expel all the contents of the heart that can not be restrained.

~Heart Graduation 2~

I don't know why I can't sleep tonight. I also feel very thirsty. Huh, it turns out the water in the room is up. I got out of bed and went out.

When I get back from the kitchen. I overheard people talking. I'm trying to hear more clearly. That's the sound of mom and dad. Why aren't they sleeping? Ah, maybe they're in trouble, I don't need to know.

"The father would never allow our daughter to be with that bastard son of a bun." hearing that, I immediately stopped my footsteps. So papah was still discussing the matter this afternoon. Why does papah say harsh words?

"Father, don't talk like that. Mother knows what Papah feels. It's just the past reward, don't think too much. Everything is also resolved. Already, let's go to sleep. Don't let the kids wake up."

I get it now. So the man's mother is papah's past. Therefore, Papah immediately rejected his proposal. God, what is so deep in that wound that mother did to Papah. Papah still holds the wound until now.

Huh, enough Ara. It's none of your business, it's old man. You have no right to interfere. I also went back to my room.

"Why can't I sleep tonight? Though tomorrow I have to wake up early." I said as I kept trying to close my eyes. A few short verses I have read, but my eyes seem reluctant to shut.

I kept trying to close my eyes. Alan. Why is his face in my shadow. He's very handsome. Look, he's smiling at me. Astagfirullah, why am I thinking about Alan. I shake my head violently. I hope his face is gone soon.

"Ck, there goes Alan, don't bother me. I'm going to sleep." I said while lapping in the air.

"Hmmm...Why is Alan so weird today? Not as usual. At the party she kept looking at me and she was very angry when a guy greeted me. What don't-don't....

Akhhh,,, there is no way Ara. Alan won't like me. It's impossible, he's got Jihan."

Hoammm.my eyes are getting heavy. I slowly closed my eyes until I was unconscious.

***

"Mother... Ara was late. "my shout ran down the stairs that I knew from when it became very long.

"Ara's pants, will fall" said the mother who just came out of the room. I grabbed her hand and kissed her softly.

"Bun, tell me Papah Ara is too late. Kiss his hand in the afternoon. Assalamualaikum mama." I said to kiss the mother's cheek. I ran as hard as I could.

Hopefully it's not too late. This is the first time I've been late. Maybe it would be history for me if I was really late for class. It's all because of Alan, he's just not in my shadow. I'm definitely not gonna be late. Akhh... Why do I remember him back. Forget her Ara.

When I got there, I ran straight to class. I don't care if everyone looks at me in wonder.

"Assalamualaikum, sorry sir I'm late" I said opening the classroom door. But not the greeting I heard. Except for the laughter of all my classmates. Oh my goodness, shame on me. It turns out that the lecturer has not entered. Shamefully I sat in the front seat. Everyone was laughing and looking at me.

"Ara Ara's.... I don't think I'll see hp, right? Check first." said the friend next to me. I pulled out my phone and checked the group. Huh, so today did not come in? Geez, I ran away like a hurricane. But it turns out the teacher didn't come in. Very sick guys, the pain is in the heart.

"Akhich... Tired of knowing." I said dropping my head on the table. Everyone laughed again. I pursed my lips.

"Are you going to intentionally do me a favor?" lemes.

"Son, you're the only one who rarely sees groups. If there is a new want nongol" said one of my friends. I'm pissed off. Yes, I am rarely active in a group. How can I not be lazy, if I have entered the group everyone will only ask Alan, ask to be made a task. It is lazy.

"I'm sorry." I said getting lazy. I closed my eyes which still felt heavy. Where my schedule is full again today. Huaaaaa... Go to sleep.

"Ra, yuk canteen. Hungry." invite one of my friends. I shook my head and opened my eyes.

"Why did Ra, you stayed up last night? Tumben you're up late?"

"I'm not staying up late, but just a lack of sleep" I said lazily.

"Just like Ra. Yes, I used to have a canteen. By Ara."

"By." I said raise my hand. Ahh, so this is how it feels to stay up late? Very lemes.

The day started to get hot. I looked out the window and the sun started to smile. I breathe heavily. It feels so bad to get out of class. I saw that all my friends were starting to drop out of class. The second class was finished a few minutes ago.

Then my phone shook for a long time. I saw that my mother sent me a message.

My stomach is starting to break. From the morning, I had not had breakfast. So the worms in my stomach are already on demo. I grabbed my bag and left. I can't wait to finish my cooking.

***

Uh, whose car is this? How come you never see it? Is it possible papah's guest?

I went inside the house because I was very curious.

"Assalamualaikum mother" I said walking towards the kitchen. But my steps immediately stopped when I saw two people sitting at the dining table.

Um Arnold, aunt Nissa? Why are they here?

"Hey baby, are you home yet?" I was shocked when suddenly someone whispered in my ear.

"Alan? Are you here too?" I looked at him confused. I'm still very surprised, too.

"Eh, your son is home. Come eat, everyone is waiting for you." said the mother approached us. Then I saw Alan walking towards the dining table.

"Kok even bengong, let's eat" said mother again make me surprised.

"Ah yes mother, sorry." I said walking towards the dining table. Everyone looked at me with a smile. What's the matter?

I walked over to Alan's parents and kissed the hands of the two in turn.

"Here kiss your husband's hand" Alan held out his hand to me. I immediately gave her a murderous look.

"Who wants to have a husband like you" I said as I pulled the chair next to Alan.

I don't give a shit. I am very hungry right now. I poured rice into the dish and took my favorite side dish.

"Bismilbornrahmanirrahim" I said as I fed a spoonful of rice. Ah, it's delicious. Happy eating worms in the stomach.

"Eat a lot, make it big fast" said Alan trying to lure me. I already know his nature. So I won't be hooked. I snorted in annoyance and went back to eating.

"Dear, tomorrow there's no need to go to college. One day's clearance for a suit fitting with Alan." said aunt Nissa who managed to stop my hand from taking the fried tempeh.

"Indeed, what are the fittings for tan clothes, what should be with Alan?" tanyaku while continuing my intention to take the fried tempe that had stopped.

"You are what you are, yes to your marriage. Cook it for a birthday." said aunt Nissa. WHATA? a wedding? Whose wedding?

"Who wants to marry? Alan wants to get married?" manywould be surprised. Geez, why did I forget Alan's proposal to Jihan. It's definitely a fitting dress for Alan's wedding with Jihan. But why should I leave too? Don't know what I feel. I ate tempeh very irritatedly.

"Yes, you agree, right?" ask aunt Nissa who was definitely in the address for me. Oh my god, this heartache. Why should it be the same for me. Who wants to marry me or Jihan?

"Again dong tan, whatever Alan chooses and Alan does Ara agrees. Is that Alan?" I said looking at Alan with a smile as sweet as possible. I wanted to run to my room and cry. My appetite is gone too.

"Alhamdulillah, then tomorrow we will be very busy. Dara, tomorrow we can sew family clothes." said aunt Nissa so excited. I can also see my mother very enthusiastic. Why don't you understand my feelings right now? You forgot I liked Alan too.

Oh, my God, help Ara. Strengthen this heart, O God.

"Ara's done, Ara said goodbye to the room first. Last night Ara was sleep deprived. Ara wants to sleep for a while, mom at 2 woke up Ara huh?" I look at mom.

"Salat first darling, just slept." said the mother who immediately I replied with a nod.

"Dreams are beautiful, dear." said Alan.

"What the hell." I said annoyed. He was also a dreadlocks. Don't know if this heart is like a peyek crumb. I walked lazily towards the room.

I looked at my face in the mirror. I pulled both ends of my lips. Why is it so hard, it was so easy at the dinner table to smile. Ck, don't cry Ara. Tears, please don't come out. Ara please.

The Mother... Ara, can't hold it anymore. My tears are really spilling. Why am I so crybaby. Why is it so painful, God.