Sincerity of Heart 2
Chapter 72. I won't let go again (Alan)

You idiot! I was stupid. I almost lost my life. All because of my carelessness. I'm putting them in grave danger.

I held her hand that felt so cold. His face looks very pale. My heart hurts so much. I cursed myself.

"Dear, wakeup. Forgive me," I said, gently slapping the back of his hand. For nearly three hours he was unconscious. A few hours ago it made him hurt.

I miss you so much. Sorry, I shouldn't have taken you to that place. I just want to hug you, Ara. For three more months I endured all the pain, the longing for you, Ara. I can't help it anymore, I'm sorry. All this because of me, you got hurt because of me.

I gently rubbed his head. I'm so sorry. Her beautiful face is currently filled with inertia due to impact.

"Darling, please wake up." I kept asking her to open her eyes immediately. I can't keep seeing him like this. I close my body to him. I kissed her forehead gently. I really miss him. Missed him so much. I closed my eyes that felt so tired. My whole body hurts so much.

"Bi..," I was very surprised when I heard his voice. He's hardly conscious. Thank God, thank God.

"Darling," I said back in his forehead.

"Bi, what's going on? Where is Ichal?" the question is so weak. I looked at him fixedly. I kissed her forehead again with great affection.

"The story is very long, it's not enough for an hour to explain what happened," I replied as I hugged her.

"Hmmm, where's Ichal?" ask again.

"He's safe with his grandmother" I said.

"Mama Nissa is here?"

"You ask so many questions" I replied, burying my face in the recess of his neck. Right now I just want to hug her. I will never let go again. It never will.

"Bi, Ara wants to see Ichal. Is she okay? Then what about Mr Dio?" He began to wake up from his sleep. I heard him grimace while touching his stomach. I sat down while staring at that face filled with inertness. The face that implies pain.

"Is it really painful?" my many. He nodded, looking at me.

"Bi, what's with hubby's face?" tanyakanya. He looks very worried. I grimaced a little as his lentic finger touched the wound on my face.

"It's okay" I said, holding her hand.

"What exactly happened, Bi? Ara was confused, everything was really confusing. That incident, is Mr Dio behind all this?"

I smile.

"Everything we see and think about is not necessarily true. Once everything is safe, I'll tell you what happened" I replied while tucking her hair in. I looked into his eyes.

"Ara misses hubby" he said, hugging me. I returned his embrace. Gently peck his back. I could hear him start crying.

"It's still a crybaby, what about Ichal if you know he's a crybaby, huh?"

"Everything's wrong hubby, why leave Ara for so long" he said, hitting me on the back. I laughed crisply. I kissed his head many times.

"Miss you honey" I said. I huddled my embrace. My eyes closed, enjoying the warmth I had not felt for a very long time.

I was so shocked when I heard someone scream. It seems my wife was also very surprised.

"Bi" he said with a confused look.

"We'll see it, come on?" take me. He held my hand tightly. He walked a little bit. Without a second thought, I immediately carried her.

"Bi, Ara's hijab" she said. I almost forgot she wasn't wearing a head covering. I put him back down. I walk to the closet.

"Who's this bi?" ask her when I'm about to put a veil on her head.

"Mama," I replied.

"Mama? But this isn't your home, how can your hijab be here?" ask her while looking around the room. I didn't answer the question. After putting a veil on his head. I carried him back. Then take him out.

"Bi, whose house is this?"

"Don't ask too many questions, you'll know the answer yourself," she smiled. I laughed crisply as I looked at her lips that had already advanced by several inches.

I opened the door slowly. I could feel Ara staring at me. The sound of crying began to sound so clear. I let out a heavy sigh as I looked at the two women who were hugging. I felt my wife's hand growing tighter around my neck. I'm staring. I smiled, and he looked at me with a strange look. I put him down on the bed.

"Wait a minute" I said. Then I pecked his forehead. I walked over to the two women who were looking at me.

"Sorry" I rubbed Mala's face. He's my twin brother. Right now, I am at my mom's house. Mama Milan, my real mama who I've been hiding all this time.

"The child is no longer there." he said so bitterly. He hugged me so tightly. I looked at my mom who was also looking at me.

"He was devastated" whispered the mother. I'm nodding.

"I'm sorry, you shouldn't have gotten into this. I promise you, I will always be there for you" I said. I kissed her forehead gently.

"Please promise not to leave Mala" he said. I smiled while nodding. Mama touched my arm. His eyes were pointing towards my wife. I saw him looking at me. I could see clearly, her tears were starting to fade. It looks like there will be another misunderstanding.

"Bi, Ara is sincere if you have to share." I was so surprised when I heard it. I looked at Mama and Mala alternately. Mala held my hand tightly.

"It should have been like that" said Mala again hugging me.

"Mala," I said, pushing him slowly.

"Will you break your promise?"

"Where's Ichal? Ara wanted to meet him," he said. I saw her tears begin to flow. I was about to talk, but my mom held my hand.

"Come, he's in the next room. Mama will take you" said mama woke up from her seat. Ara looked at me, then she got up from her seat. Mama was addressing Ara carefully. I could only look at his back.

"Sister was very lucky, had a complete family. Look at Mala, everybody go. Mala's husband, Mala's son, then... Is my brother leaving too?"

I stared at my sister's netra. There is so much pain. I hugged him tightly.

"Nobody will leave again, you have sacrificed so much for me. I'll keep looking after you" I said. I kissed her head warmly.

"Thank you" he said.

"We should be together" I said. Mala let go of my embrace. He held both my hands.

"Go, explain to her. I'm sure he loves you very much, brother. I'm sincerely big brother with him."

"Basic! I should have been with him. She's my wife. You made him misunderstand," I said to his forehead. He grimaced in pain. I laughed to see it.

"I'll go first, rest. Don't be sad anymore, okay?" Mala nodded. I smiled while rubbing his head rough.

I hurried off to catch up with my wife. I think I've made him hurt.

I opened the door slowly. I saw Ara giving breast milk to my son. My mom is no longer there. I don't see his whereabouts.

I entered slowly. It seems he has not been aware of my presence. My feet stopped when I heard her crying.

"Help us to stay strong, baby. Now that abi is not entirely ours, abi already has other responsibilities."

My heart ditches when I hear it. Did he really talk to me about other people? I never even thought of wishing for my wife. It's enough for me to have an angel with a cotton heart like him. The owner of such a sincere heart. Loving me for who I am. Love me with the sincerity of his heart. There are so many better men than me. He chose me instead. Men who have no clear origin. I hurt her so much, made her cry.

"I will never share my love" I said. He looks very surprised. I approached him. Sit beside him. He wiped his tears quickly. I looked at him fixedly. Is that really painful? I can't imagine what if I really shared my love. Could it be that he would cry every day?

"Hubby, why is hubby here? What about that woman? Hubby should have accompanied him. Ara knew what it was like to lose a child, she desperately needed hubby's support. Ara's okay, hubby better accompany her huh? It's Ichal here, Ara's fine" he said with a smile. How much he hid the pain. It was clear from his words, he was not okay. But he still smiles.

"What is the importance of the happiness of others? Compared to your own happiness?" my many. He looked at me clingy. She smiled so sweetly again.

"Making others happy is a joy for Ara. Don't stare at Ara like that, Ara's fine, Bi."

"Then why are you crying?" my many. He's speechless. I smiled and pulled him in my arms.

"I'm not gonna do anything that's gonna make you sick, baby. I don't want to see you cry like that" I said. I felt his body shake.

"Don't cry, hubby will never leave you again. Sorry, hubby's been making you cry all this time" I continued.

"What about that woman? Is hubby not gonna take responsibility?" tanyakanya. I laughed crisply. He broke the hug. Staring at me.

"She's hubby's twin sister" I replied. His eyes are perfectly round. I rubbed his head with anxiety.

"Darling, with abi huh?" I pinched her cheek gently with a cringe. Ichal stops breastfeeding, he squirms and looks so adorable.

I feel astonished. Why is my wife still silent? I'm staring.

"Ara was confused, everything was so complicated. All events cannot be digested. The accident, how did it happen?"

"Have hubby said, it takes a long time to explain what happened. Once everything is safe, we go home and Hubby will explain what happened. Come with hubby, there's something hubby should introduce you to" I explained. Ara still looked at me meaningfully. I breathe heavily. I took Ichal from Ara's sling.

"Come," ask me. He nodded. Then we rushed out.

"Darling, this is my mom. Mama Milan, hubby's birth mother. And this woman you're referring to is the hubby twin," I said, giving my wife Mama and Mala my hand. Ara still looks confused.

"I'm sorry, I made you misunderstand. I just want to know how much you love my brother. You know, Ara, every day my brother follows you. Wherever you go. He's very stubborn" Mala said. I can only shake. Ara looked at me full of question marks.

I have always followed him wherever he goes. In fact, every night I never forget to see him. It's just, I came while he was asleep. At that time I was really suffering. I couldn't hold her, even if she was facing me. I don't want anything to happen to her.

"Mom can carry my mom's granddaughter?" ask mama. I nodded immediately. Then give Ichal to mom.

"When you're a baby, even mom doesn't have time to hold you Alan. This time let your mom hold your granddaughter," she looked at me. I nodded slowly. I saw Ara who was staring at my mother.

"Now that Ara was aware, hubby was very similar to mama. Why hasn't Ara noticed this since?" abugn.

"Because you only pay attention to this handsome man," I replied while embracing him. I grimaced as I got a spicy pinch from her.

"I love you, baby," I whispered right in her ear.

"Ara won't repay hubby's love. Hubby's in too much debt" he said, confusing me.

"Debit?" manya curious.

"Yes, hubby has a lot of story debt on Ara," she replied with pursed lips. I kissed those lips with a fit of anxiety. Again I get a spicy pinch from him.

"Sick, baby," I protested. He smiled while holding my hand. He rested his head on my shoulder.

"Ara misses our home" he said.

"Yes, we're definitely going home. Be patient a little" I said, peeping at his head. We're speechless. Enjoy a relationship that has long been hindered by time. I hold his hand tightly. I promise, after this I won't let go again. No matter what happens.