Bella's Script
Anxiety of a child

The night was getting late but Bella still heard faintly the sound of typing a laptop keyboard. Half-awakened, his eyes were so tight trying to open while one hand rubbed the surface of the Mattress and looked for the existence of Devan who was beside him, empty.

Bella realizes that Devan is not in her place.

His body is still plain and only covered in a blanket that Devan covers on his body that is free without a sheet of yarn.

The round eyes immediately opened and occasionally pinched when the random light from Devan's laptop screen dazzled him. Apparently Devan hasn't slept. He was still sitting in Bella's work chair while staring at her laptop screen with a white background. I don't know what work he's still doing.

Bella moved from her place, then picked up one by one the pajamas that were off Devan. He approached Devan who was bowed with his head supported on both hands that were massaging his temple.

“Mas not sleeping?” Bella asked as she rubbed her husband's shoulder.

“Oh, dear.” Devan was stunned and immediately closed the screen of his laptop, which Bella caught a glimpse of was displaying his email page.

“I must have been noisy, until you woke up?” Devan pulls Bella's hand and brings her body to sit on her lap. One hand of Bella he wrapped around her neck.

The woman looked at Devan worriedly and shook her head. His face looks tired but it seems difficult to sleep despite having exercised for two rounds with Bella.

“Mas why? Anything else in mind?” Ask. He cupped one side of Devan's cheek and then rubbed it with his thumb.

Devan just smiled, he took Bella's hand and kissed her and took a long sip of her fragrance while closing her hand. He so enjoyed sipping the fragrance of every part of Bella's body that always managed to calm her gloom.

Seeing Devan's attitude, Bella believes her husband is not okay. She looked at her husband's troubled face with worry.

“Mas, I know if Mas can tell me anything?” Bella asked in a low voice to her husband.

Devan nodded then clasped Bella's hand tightly.

“I know.” Her mouth in a low voice that made Bella can feel the shock of her husband.

“Then, does anyone want to tell me the same story?” Bella asked again.

Devan nodded back. He pulls Bella's body closer and hugs her. He kissed Bella's shoulder and tightened his arms like this man was very scared. Bella replied to him with a gentle swipe as she felt Devan's heavy-sounding breath.

“Papah, will be freed.” Devan said with a raucous voice like holding back a cry.

The closer the hug is to Bella. Bella can understand, this condition must be uncomfortable for Devan. Devan once said that his papa had refused Devan to meet him, then what if he was free later?

“When will papah go home?” Snuggling the word home, sounds more comfortable to Bella. She is still trying to figure out how her husband feels right now.

“Besok.” Devan's answer was barely audible.

“Then why do you feel sad, shouldn't you be sad? I miss papah, don't I?” asked Bella who tried to break her husband's embrace because she wanted to look him in the eye.

As his embrace loosened, Devan bowed before Bella. Bella cupped both sides of her husband's face and slowly raised her face. Bella can see Devan's watery eyes.

“Hey, look at me, Mas.. Are you okay?” Whisper Bella while rubbing Devan's tears gently. The man was crying.

Bella's feelings so not because of seeing Devan sad like this.

Slowly Devan opened his eyes and saw his red and teary eyes.

Bella smiles a little at her husband then returns her cheeks and fuses her forehead with Devan's forehead.

“I'm afraid, papah don't want to find me Bell...” Devan said with fear.

Bella straightened her body. He could understand, after several attempts Devan failed to meet his father and the letters he sent always returned home, it was not impossible Devan felt this way.

“Then, do you still want to see Papah?”

“Yes, of course. I miss papah very much. Me,” Devan until can not continue his sentence considering so long they did not meet. I don't know what the face of his idol has not seen for a long time.

Devan was abandoned by his parents when he was 13 years old. On suspicion of negligence to cause death, Amri was charged with 17 years of detention. According to Devan's story, Amri did not hire a lawyer to defend himself who was very aware that he was guilty. But thanks to his good behavior, Amri was reduced to a period of detention, until in the 15th year he was officially released.

For years, Devan continued to miss his father and his longing grew as he remembered how happy he was with his parents. Those who love each other are separated by destiny. Devan has to grow up without the affection of his parents.

“Then, tomorrow we pick up papah, yes?” Take Bella with confidence.

“What papah wants to see me? What if he ignores me and continues to sink into his regrets and guilt?” Devan's voice shook, making Bella's heart also sliced. Apparently this is what Devan was worried about so he could not sleep.

“Then, we assure papah. We show the same papah, if it is not the least of which you need to regret. Has not Papah been so airy to accept his sentence for a dozen years. So now, we assure papah that the past is finished and we will accompany him to pick up a new day for a better future.”

“But it's not that easy Bell. Papah still feels very guilty for the death of mamah. He always felt that he had killed the woman he loved so much with his own two hands. He also did not have the courage to meet a child he had left behind and he separated from his mother.” Devan with all the sadness in his chest.

“I know Mas.” Bella immediately held onto both of Devan's shoulders which began to look sagging. Like his determination almost disappeared just like that.

“That papah passed was not easy. We can't let Papah stay down. Mas can show Papah that he still has a son who misses his father and waits for him to come back. Reassure him that there is no harm in starting a new day after we get out of the black hallway that feels squeezing him. Mas also showed Papah, that Mas never blamed papah for the incident and accepted all the incident as an accident that was never intentionally.”

“Reassure papah, besides Mas needs a mother, Mas also needs a father. My beloved father without the slightest disappointment. And I, will welcome Papah with open arms. I want to know the father figure of a great man who is now my husband.” Bella's head full of seriousness. Behind her gentle gaze, she was trying to show her strength to support Devan. She would not let her husband slump in his anxiety.

Devan can no longer speak. Instead of talking, he prefers to hug Bella tightly. Hugging the woman who always managed to remove every mound.

“Mas know, what was one of the reasons I accepted Mas to be my husband?” Bella's whisper in Devan's ear.

Devan shook his head and broke his arms to see Bella.

Bella wiped the rest of Devan's tears before continuing.

“Because I know, Mas loves both parents very much. Mas never blamed the circumstances that befell Mas let alone deny the reality that happened to the Mas.” family

“That all makes me sure, that Mas will never waste people around Mas, including me and I am very sure that Mas will love me sincerely. That's what I see from the eyes of the two men I love.” Firmly Bella while rubbing Devan's cheek gently.

She smiled with pride at her husband.

Devan just smiled a little. He kissed Bella's hand a few times with great emotion. Truly this woman strengthened her heart when she felt that she would be alone in facing her father's despair.

“Please accompany me to pick up papah, hem?” The trembling voice holding back the cry was again heard. Devan's red eyes looked at Bella expectantly.

“Sure. Papah Amri is my papah too. I will wait for his return with pleasure.”

“Thank you Bell... Thank you.” Devan again kissed Bella's hand repeatedly. And Bella smiled a little at the confidence of her husband who was starting to rise.

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